Pixie's Singing

The Five Love Language by Gary Chapman

2012-01-27T17:14:00.002+08:00

this is one of the most amazing books i've ever read. even if it's more intended to married couple, but i have gained a lot of useful information from this book. people usually have 5 languages to express their love : quality time, words of affirmation, gifts, acts of service, and physical touch. every people may have their preferred love language to express their feeling. and usually, a couple may have different love language one to another. well, it's probably a simple thing, but i never know it before. and it's really helpful. after being in a relationship with a person, usually we have fights and a lot of problems. that's something we can't skip in having a relationship with someone. but in the side of loving, there's a way to make it still blooms like in the beginning. just like having a car, if we always use it but never fill the tank, it will go nowhere. same thing like having a relationship with someone, if we don't fill their love tank, first it won't go anywhere, stuck in 1 point, and worse is if someone else fills it for our partner. so it's important to know which one is our love language, and which one is our partner's. :) mine is quality time anyway. hohoooo~

Better that We Break - Maroon 5

2012-01-25T21:38:00.001+08:00

I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz

2012-01-18T02:15:00.003+08:00

"i won't give up on us,
even if the sky gets rough"

He Won't Go by Adele

2012-01-12T22:52:00.004+08:00

"Some say, I'll be better without you, but they don't know you like I do. Or at least the side I thought I knew"

2012-01-12T01:48:00.002+08:00

Two of the hardest tests in life: The patience to wait for the right moment and the courage to accept that you've waited for nothing.

2012-01-05T13:58:00.002+08:00

i'm dancing in the middle of the mist
and running in the middle of teardrops of the sky
i'm looking around and see the cloud
i'm looking around and see the ground
i'm slow dancing in the middle of the lake
i'm daydreaming in the middle of the tree

Happy New Year!

2012-01-03T03:15:00.002+08:00

so it was my brother's wedding on the 1st day of 2012! was a tiring but also exciting day :) i wish him a great full of love live until the last day of his journey :) and also the same wish for the bride :) have a happy life everyone! :)

Sherlock Holmes : Game of Shadows

2011-12-29T03:34:00.002+08:00

just watched it on monday. another great movie anyway! i love the storyline, the problems, the settings, the characters, the acts. amazing. how holmes' thinking. and there are 2 holmes anyway, surprising hahahahhaa. i really enjoy watching this :) and it's good to finally touch the civilization. hehehhe..happy~

well, i had another teeth operation on monday. still had one more tooth to be taken out and it's harder than before. the dentist already said that it'll hurt more than before and yes it is. and brilliantly, when i met my friends at one shopping mall, i left the medicine at my sister's car and she went somewhere else. such a disaster! thx God my friends were there and I'm showed how much love i have and how many people do really care of me. sadly, someone who's close to my heart is the one who's breaking my heart to pieces that day. but anyway, probably we have to be in that situation to really see reality. :)

well, my bro's wedding is coming and it'll be rush hours everyday. so cheers!

Let Me Go There..

2011-12-26T00:16:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas!

2011-12-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

Save the Best for Last by Adele

2011-12-24T00:29:00.000+08:00

Lovesong by Adele

2011-12-24T00:22:00.001+08:00

Singapore Trip on..October?

2011-12-23T18:27:00.003+08:00

so yes i know it's been so long ago but i just have time (and internet) to post it here. i went to singapore because visa thing. so i was there for 2 days 1 night. i met my friends there and we went around together. nice thing :) well, i wish someone's there but apparently he's not. haha..

i already forget most of the places we went. i forget the exact name..but i stayed at the little red dot backpacker hostel. it's really nice! it's located at lavender street. it has good room with good bed and air cond. it's new also anyway. free breakfast. clean and nice bathroom. friendly staff. free internet and wifi! and it's just next to Lavender Bus Station, where I took a bus coming back to malaysia. just crossed the road and taraaa i'm there. the bus is transnasional :)

well, i wasn't expecting to go there alone but with my bf. but damn thing happened and his visa isn't ready yet. to be honest i was really happy to have an idea to travel together with him. let's escape from the stress and problems we're facing for a while and just have fun. when things didn't come out as my plan, i was so dissapointed and it became a huge fight between us. it felt so strange to be there without him, honestly. hahaa..because it's so far from what i've been visualizing. but it turned out to be something fun though. :)

:)

2011-12-23T18:25:00.002+08:00

2011-12-21T21:22:00.002+08:00

When a man wants to be with you, he’ll be with you. Period. There won’t be excuses, drama, shadiness or uncertainty.

Something We Always Forget, Eh?

2011-12-21T21:18:00.002+08:00

Mission Impossible 4 : Ghost Protocol

2011-12-21T21:12:00.003+08:00

yes i missed the first 1 hour of the movie but i still enjoy it. hehehe. yeah it's like many other action movie but i do enjoy watching that kind of movie so :D i never watched its first 3 movies, really. hehehe. so i don't know. but from this movie, the actors were great. especially the analyze and the woman. like them :) nice ending also. wow..it's been a long time i've never been to a cinema any more. hahahaha..

Sweet Hour of Prayer by Paul Cardall

2011-12-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

The 1st 50 Seconds of We Found Love by Rihanna

2011-12-17T17:37:00.000+08:00

It's like you're screaming but no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important, that without them, you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. And when it's over and it's gone, you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back so you can have the good.

Hello Hello by Elton John ft Lady Gaga

2011-12-11T17:48:00.003+08:00

it's good to know someone's out there to say hello :)

Hellow Universe!

2011-12-08T20:48:00.002+08:00

yeah, hellow. after a very long pause. i'm in jakarta. have just reached 2 days ago. waiting for my working visa while i'm working at home via online. disaster. i left 300 file links at my office and really wanted to teleport at once! even i have a way out not to leave it as missing links (which is very very fatal) but it needs a lot of works! 300 links! it's the same like putting a new images as much as 300. yeah, crazy. it took me 2 days to finish everything. but anyway i did it yay! so now waiting for my boss to comment on that project.

anyhow..i still don't like living in jakarta. hahaha..the dust, flies, transportation, anything. well there are few things i like actually; my family, my bed, the food. hehe..somehow i miss bali quite bad. walking for 5 minutes and you'll find a lot of interesting things. beach, foreigner, food, anything to see and enjoy. here, you walk 5 minutes and end up in the middle of the road full of vehicles and dust, again. arghhhh~

well, i hope i have more money to be on holiday. but not, i don't. i bought a new handphone because i dropped the old one. and the new phone is lame. seriously, my 2nd hand E71 is still much better than this. big argh. and i missed my flight so i have to add more money to get the next flight. so yeah i'm pretty much broke. another big argh.

and i broke up with my bf. haha. yeah, it happened last week after a bad fight, with no strong reason actually. but i think the problem have been there for too long. so yeah we broke up. the next day we met. i thought to just let it go and wanted to end it well. i just don't want that the last thing i remember about him is just pain and sadness. but he come back with a flower and asked me not to break up now. he said he's sorry for that night. he wanted us to think about it once again.

well, not really perfect but i accept that. then we talked. i told him whatever i feel and think. and he listened. i hoped he understand and really listened. well, i'll be glad to give us another chance, only if we agree to start it all over again. i won't be able to continue that relationship, and this time, let's do it right, if. well, the day after breaking up is always bad. like the worst day ever. but you know God is good all the time. haha..He gave me companions, He gave me love and strength. :)

so yeah, now he's there and i'm here. sometimes we do contact each other. but fyuuhhh..till we meet again. and i hope whatever happens is for the best for both of us. amen :)

This Is It..

2011-11-28T04:39:00.003+08:00

Dear my love,

2011-11-22T18:55:00.001+08:00

sometimes you are so annoying

Gnomeo and Juliet

2011-11-22T18:52:00.002+08:00

here's another one i watch just few days ago. yeah simple classic romeo and juliet movie with gnomes as the character. the ending must be happy ending. just like everyone knows. but what i like from this movie is the visualisation. amazingly beautiful. the house, the garden, even the gnomes. hehe. that poster is i don't know which country version but i think that's very cute so i put it here. hehehe..

The Adventures of Tin Tin

2011-11-22T18:42:00.002+08:00

i watched it few weeks ago in jakarta actually. oh gosh this working life kinda burdens me doing few things i always do. and yes, have a boyfriend plays such a big role also. but anyway..i'm waiting for my friend to finish her work while i just finished mine, got nothing to do and kinda miss my blog. so here i am. hehehe..

this is a totally great movie with such a splendid 3d. they move like real human but it's cartoon after all. great thing to execute this kind of legend among people around the world. just imagine if they change your 'picture' of tintin to be somebody else. such a disappointment if they don't match. so in my opinion they use the right execution for this movie.

the story was also great! my friend said it's following the book exactly. appreciate :) it's entertaining and exciting. can't wait to see the sequel. hehehe. my fave scene is the opening one, where tin tin and snowy was in a street market. i always love that kind of market. full of 2nd hand antique things. wihiii~ great reason to visit europe ;P

Little Reminder

2011-11-16T10:57:00.001+08:00

stupid little thing called love

2011-11-11T17:46:00.003+08:00

love. 1 word that has a very strong meaning and affects, everywhere. it's said world goes round because of this thing, and people died because of the same thing. being in love, being loved, and loving someone is probably the best thing you can do and feel. but as everything always has 2 sides, it's also something that will destroy you the most. not the true form of love, but maybe what's playing inside our mind and heart does. people may love in different ways. people may see it as different thing. world goes so mad huh? that to describe and feel one thing seems to be so difficult.

i feel like i'm riding on a carousel, seeing the world spinning around me, or is it me who's spinning around the world? seeing everything quite blur. while the lights look like many interesting bulbs. i close my eyes and feel the spinning. exhale. inhale. breath. i open my eyes, and the world seems to be as blur as before.

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2011-11-02T15:18:00.003+08:00

“If you love something let it go, if it comes back to you it's yours, if it doesn't it never was.”

2011-11-02T15:18:00.001+08:00

We're all in the same game, just different levels. Dealing with the same hell. Just different devils.

2011-10-29T11:14:00.001+08:00

Aries passion also fosters selfishness and quick-tempers, but this same fire fosters their generosity and enthusiasm

We Found Love by Rihanna

2011-10-29T11:13:00.001+08:00

2011-10-25T20:36:00.001+08:00

i don't give a fuck for people who's looking down at me. people who do care of me never look me in such a way

Lovely

2011-10-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

Here Comes the Light

2011-10-21T21:52:00.002+08:00

and when the night comes and the moon rises. while dreaming about the beauty of the world. she was laying down and staring at the ceiling. imagining a room with too many lights to count. and the only thing she can do is just starring. happily. and she closes her eyes. and meets the dream.

My Dear

2011-10-13T21:04:00.000+08:00

someone i (still) can called mine

2011-10-12T21:22:00.003+08:00

bad bad girl

2011-10-12T12:47:00.002+08:00

Aries are very impulsive and usually do not think before they act - or speak.

laziness

2011-10-12T12:41:00.002+08:00

sometimes i do act like this :D

working forecast

2011-10-12T12:30:00.004+08:00

so hi..this is something i don't like when i'm working. no time for blogging. when i reach back home, i just don't wanna touch the laptop anymore, besides have to tidy up the room, do some laundry, wash some dishes. after everything it's night already and just wanna sleep at once. oh life...why you no more exciting? hehee..it's not that i don't like my working life. it is different than my student life before. but yeah it has its own benefit and things to lose also. so far i like what i'm doing. even sometimes i think i like other field of career.

*oh damn blogger was crashed and i have to rewrite everything*

so yeah, i seems to like other career field. i like being involved with something going on. well, like maintaining facebook account when i had the final exhibition. updating the status, seeing the comments, replying..there's always something new everyday. fun! and for designing itself, i like doing things for restaurants, hotels, hostels, any not really big company actually. designing their collateral, promotional items, promotions, blablabla..i don't know why but i do like doing those things :D but yeah since i'm here, i'm working on what's in front of me. fyuh~

btw will move out again this weekend. hope it'll be great. amen :)

2011-10-09T21:54:00.002+08:00

precious is
every single time i have with you
every single moment i have with you
everything i feel when i'm with you
it's you, in shorter word

Set Fire to the Rain - Adele

2011-09-25T22:20:00.002+08:00

But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew
All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true
And the games you'd play, you would always win, always win

oh hellow again

2011-09-21T22:02:00.002+08:00

oh yeah hi everyone after a really really long time. what happened? i moved out from cyberjaya to oug (old klang road), started to work, went back to indonesia, came back here again, started to work, and now is looking for a new place to live. well it's really different to live as a worker than a student, both good and bad things. i can't wake up 11 in the morning, apparently with my current place to live i can't go anywhere after i go back home from work, transportation problem (quite acute), have to be in a new place with new people. i'm not the easy going queen so forget the quick progress. i mean all my coworkers are good, just..it's just me with my silent lips when i'm being dragged to a new environment. good thing is, you're working within the working hours (so far), u're being paid of what u're doing. hmmm..yeah i can say that student and working life is way different. we have different things to be thought, worried, and graced. so far i still enjoying what i'm doing and what i have. i hope everything will be just good until the end. fyuhhh.

uh and it's my current watch, cashmere mafia. maybe looks like sex and the city with 4 women casts but i like this one. for i don't know how, it makes me feel normal as a female creature. really, how we're so insecure sometimes, but have sharp feelings, and who said women don't have brain? this is just something good to be watched. really :)

well, to be honest sometimes i don't know what i should do and what i shouldn't do as a female. depending and people will see me as a weak person, demanding will be worse, independent will conquer the men' confidence, like seriously what should i do actually? i ask for help and attention they say get your own life. i go my own way and they say i don't need them, i don't love them. that's pretty much confusing. people will say follow your heart, man who loves u will love you as you are. but cmon, how many people are left like that now? arghhh..this is just confusing and rotting my brain.

life : still messy

azizam

2011-09-17T01:25:00.003+08:00

to male man, man male to.

man

2011-09-10T19:18:00.001+08:00

Hazy by Rosi Golan ft William Fitzsimmons

2011-08-24T02:24:00.004+08:00

somehow..i remember you :)

Moves Like Jagger by Maroon 5 ft Christina Aguilera

2011-08-22T21:59:00.005+08:00

heyhow. so yeah it's been almost a week that i've been working. so far so good :D well i still like my internship office by the way :P spend 1,5 - 2 hours on the road one way everyday. working for around 8 hours with 1 hour lunch time, that i usually spend with facebooking and twittering. hahaa. i plan to work until wednesday, coz i have to pack my things, blablabla before i go back to jakarta to wait for my working visa, that i really hope will be issued soon with no harm *gulp*. it's so hard to get the working visa nowadays for a graphic designer. but anyway, finger crossed ;D

you are maybe someone i didn't prefer to be with, but yet i stay.. :)

Look What's on the Wall!

2011-08-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

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Cupboard Cuteness

2011-08-18T22:36:00.000+08:00

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and not

2011-08-18T22:30:00.002+08:00

yeah i've just thought that the lazy days are coming but nope i was wrong. this is my 2nd day of working in the company. well, i plan to work only for 1 week until next wednesday. but i have to finish the project by then. well, wish me luck. i'm making something like a pocket book which reminds me of biology class on high school a lot. haha. still got pages to go. ufff..and i don't know why it's more tiring to work than to have internship (oh well, you think?) but seriously, i did quite the same thing, sitting in front of the computer all day long and doing things. now my ankle sometimes hurts, especially when i've just stood up.ughh..feels like so old :[ i spent 2 hours to reach the office since it's like in the other side of the world from cyberjaya. *sigh* hope it'll be better when i have moved nearby. yay! :D so far i like what i'm doing and i hope it'll last long. amen :)

back to lazy days

2011-08-16T01:02:00.003+08:00

not really sih. yeah i've got the job here in malaysia but i haven't got the visa and the company said it's a really hard time to get one. so yeah, pray for the best that everything will be just fine in the end. i hope the visa will be done within 2 months and i'll be back here soon. damn, it's so hard to leave such a place you've been living for 3,5 years.

in the other hand, now it's time for the lazy days again. lalala~ since okay i don't have anything particular to be done. so let's enjoy the last 2 weeks i have here. it doesn't even sound good anyway but..arghhh..yeah so i plan to enjoy day by day i have here until my flight back to jakarta. Kane Chronicle by Rick Riordan is still waiting for me. ;)

Amazingness

2011-08-10T00:51:00.003+08:00

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"Wonderful work for Unimed Porto Alegre by Romeo e Juliet. Romeo e Juliet defined the elements and, once approved with the agency Escala, made the composition of the piece.
Everything was drawn in pencil, traced, and transformed into 3D volumes and folds as if it were paper. In the end, the result is a piece rich and full of nice details."

Nyum

2011-08-10T00:48:00.004+08:00

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With Love to All Designer

2011-08-10T00:39:00.002+08:00

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My Kind of Room

2011-08-10T00:36:00.001+08:00

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2011-08-10T00:33:00.002+08:00

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"If you work for a living, why do you kill yourself working?" -The Good, the Bad and the Ugly (1966)

and the story goes

2011-08-07T22:20:00.004+08:00

so yeah hi, the after graduation story is still going on. i'm still waiting for my fix and first job to come. there's one company who has accepted me and fortunately i like to work there also, but i haven't receive the contract. so..there's no work before there's contract agreement. i hope everything will be just good in time. i still need to settle lotsa things before i can start working without any distraction. by next week everything should be settle. i hope. arghhh..

life's kinda different when you have someone to share your life with. no, i'm not married. i'm being closed to someone. i'm happy yes. but it needs a lot of efforts that i have never imagined. we come from different country, culture, and the way of life. we have a lot of similarities but also differences. and once again, theory is so much more easier than the practical acts. it's hard to not let someone else just because of your ego. it's hard to know each other and understand each other without arguing. it needs a lot of efforts and strong heart to be in a real relationship with someone else. and..i don't know but it never happen years before, but it happens now. well life in high school and college is different yes. i can see now what people say as 'cinta monyet' when you're young. haha. real thing needs real effort. and it's not easy. to be honest when i have boyfriend in high school, i can do what i want. sometimes i don't want to compromise things and it's still fine. now..hmmm not really. haha. life..it can be bittersweat at the same time :)

Life Recently

2011-08-03T01:40:00.002+08:00

heyhooo...hehee..well it's been quite a long time i never write anything here. my life's kinda busy..well euphoria and happiness after graduation only last for 1 week and then the stress came to find a job. since i'm a foreigner, there are a lot of problems on the process. the most highlighted is visa and working permit. it's expensive and sometimes company don't wanna take the risk to apply for you, in case you'll run away and don't wanna work with them again. but if u have to apply it by yourself, it's hard to be issued too. so yeah, complicated. and for my field as graphic designer, here in malaysia there are lotsa graduated graphic designers and the government wants the companies to give priority to the local first. well, that's a good policy to be honest. but yeah, be a problem for me also, since again i'm a foreigner.

but so far, thx God, i have 2 job offerings. one of them will probably give me the 2nd interview, which i really hope that it'll happen. hehee..i like the company, the boss, their products. and i believe i'll learn a lot there. they're looking for long term staff, yah for me if it's great, why not? the problem is i have to move from cyberjaya and have to find my own transport. so far my plan is to move somewhere near and go to office by taxi. since it's so expensive to rent a car per month, not counting the petrol. and things that would happen. well, i have to count my living cost once again but i think i'll be fine with my expected salary. i hope. hehe..

the 2nd offer. i haven't had any interview and still waiting for further notice, even they said that my resume has been endorsed by the head of the agency. but yeah, the further notice hasn't come yet and i just wanna have few options to be chosen.

i still don't know which one i will take. or where i'll be next month. maybe i won't be here in malaysia, but i don't know. i hope it'll be good. anything i'll do or anywhere i'll be. amen :)

Broken Angel by Boyce Avenue

2011-07-30T18:27:00.001+08:00

I'll Be - Edwin McCain (cover by Boyce Avenue)

2011-07-29T00:46:00.001+08:00

iris by goo goo dolls (cover by boyce avenue)

2011-07-29T00:19:00.002+08:00

and i don't want the world to see me, coz i don't feel that they will understand.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2

2011-07-27T18:48:00.003+08:00

and this is really great! the last movie follows the book really well so the story flow is awesome with a little bit details left. above is my favourite scene, where voldemort was trying to invade hogwarts and all students and teachers were defense their school. harry potter is not just a movie. it's something memorable for people in my age because it's like we're growing up together. more or less the main characters are the same age as we are. and the first time we knew about it, harry is at the same age also. the end of harry potter is the end of one amazing era. i hope it will remain great until later :) can't say anything that can describe the movie well. it's amazing and memorable. every scenes and characters. you'll live in my memory..

fave characters :D weasley twins!

Transformer 3 : Dark of the Moon

2011-07-27T18:41:00.003+08:00

i watched this one at genting. well, it's kinda disappointing. i love its 2 previous movies. but this one, the story doesn't make sense, the conflict doesn't make sense, and even the characters are changing so much. autobots on blood? c'mon. sam's character is changing to be so emotional with no reason. well, maybe i can understand the pressure of being fresh graduate and doesn't have a job. but er..and also the girl..yah well she's supposed to be interesting because she's beautiful and smart. but..well i can't see it really clearly. she looks like a beautiful lady. that's it. the conflict is also..weird. and all the autobots become so revengeful and harsh. er..i don't know even the battle is so repetitive. i don't enjoy watching this one. and i hope it won't continue with another stupid thing. i love transformer, don't make me hate it :\

Family Tripping - July 2011

2011-07-27T18:18:00.002+08:00

so yeah heyho! after quite a long time..well you may see the photos of my family tripping to china town KL, melacca, and genting. they came here because of my graduation. :) we spent 2 days in KL and stayed in one hotel at china town. the hotel name's hotel china town 2. surprisingly, it's quite good with a cheap price but clean place. wihiii~

my father's favourite noodle stall

we're at another noodle restaurant near china town

then we spent 1 day at melacca. my father was happy to be there because of the buildings etc but he hates the hot weather. we tried the melacca river cruise. one person is for RM10 if i'm not mistaken. i enjoy the ride very much since i saw many interesting buildings around. and we got the whole ship for us. hahaa..

melacca river cruise!

on the board

other than tons of interesting buildings, their bridges are beautiful also :)

after taking the cruise we went to one restoran peranakan at jonker walk. it's not the one i tried on december but it's great also. it's more into family restaurant where you can pick few meals and eat together with your family or friends.i was amazed by their interior. it's just great. i can't say anything beautiful enough to describe it.

the entrance

even the tiles are beautiful..so beautiful. arghh..

family lunch!

this is the first room after the entrance before the seatings

washroom area..

look at those beauty!

after that we went to genting highland. different environment and temperature for sure. we stayed at theme park hotel. and amazingly the room price is not that expensive that i thought. one room is only around RM200. mine is family room for 4 people. if you're going with your friends, just book one room and sleep together there. i think 8 people can fit on this room. hehe..spent 2 days at genting. on 2nd day me and my siblings watched harry potter 7 the 2nd part and transformer 3. standing applause for the first title but not for the 2nd one. hehee..

theme park hotel entrance

this is where we spent our days

they have gone back to jakarta now anyway. and i'm happy that they're here :)

Shoot the Moon by Norah Jones

2011-07-27T18:17:00.001+08:00

daddy!

2011-07-18T15:51:00.000+08:00

me, with the most handsome guy on earth :P

Graduation Day!

2011-07-18T15:40:00.004+08:00

Finda Ayu, Bachelor of Design (Hons) in Professional Design (Visual Communication)

so yeah, last saturday was the big day! festive feeling is in the air! thx God me and my friends got the second section which is in the afternoon. so we have to arrive at campus around 12 to register ourself. enter the waiting room around 1 and waited until 2 and we have to march to enter the hall of fame. it's a really happy day but half of our energy was consumed in the waiting room since there's no aircond, there are 500plus students, and we kept ourself busy with taking pictures. hehee..

then we entered the hall of fame. speeches blabla and it's time to hand the scroll. we marched to get to the stage. okay i was afraid that i will fall down or something. hahaa. but everything went well. even it's really tiring day, but i was happy.

after 4 years of my study, finally i get my bachelor degree. not the end of the story, just to enter the next and harder level of my life. i hope i can go through it well :)

i love the years of my study. even there are sooo many bad things happened along the way, but i can't enough count the good things return. i learned many things not only whatever i get from school. well, life is still the best school :)

i'm now still traveling with my family. while looking for job. wish me luck! :)

Graduated Student of 2011 (BPD)

the big day is coming

2011-07-15T19:19:00.002+08:00

yeah, tomorrow is my graduation day. i don't know but i don't feel anything now. maybe not yet. since everything will be so different on the spot. so yeah..my family is coming tonight but they're staying in KL so we'll meet tomorrow. i miss my dad anyway. :) then we'll spend 1 week to hang around together with my brother, grandparents, and my sister. i hope everything will be so great.

after 4 years of my study and here we go. well, not the end and then hippy hippy yeyeyey..no..will step into wilder area which is working field. well, i'm still waiting for the answer from my university. i'm also looking for job by myself outside the campus. we'll see anyway. i still don't have any plan to work in jakarta. still wanna work here or singapore. yah well..i don't know yet.

there are a lot of things bugging me right now and i hate the feeling. why should it happen one day before my graduation anyway =__=

2011-07-05T13:32:00.001+08:00

And I'm done with this semester yihayyy!

Runaway by Maroon 5

2011-07-04T18:47:00.001+08:00

2011-07-02T03:23:00.002+08:00

This heart is beating just the same without you. but it needs double effort at nights.

Don't You Remember by Adele

2011-06-30T01:21:00.001+08:00

Rendeer 2011 is happening!

2011-06-30T00:32:00.003+08:00

hellow everyone! so my final exhibition entitled Rendeer Exhibition 2011 is now happening at Branding Gallery, Limkokwing University, Malaysia until this Saturday. we have opened for 2 days and gained 100+ visitors in 2 days. pretty amazing! :D it's tiring but exciting days to go! we've succeeded in selling our t-shirts (only 3 left now) and our sponsor goods. it's pretty much interesting to be a finance in promo team. a lot of works but we still can ask for other's help. hehee..so..yeah hope everything will be fine until the last day! yay! :D

it's been a while

2011-06-26T03:26:00.002+08:00

image source

X-Men : First Class

2011-06-24T21:53:00.004+08:00

have just watched this movie. finally! hahaa..well it's interesting to know how they began and everything. the relationship between magneto, professor x, and mystique. i respect her more now. hehehe. i really like the story, the casts, and all the acts inside it. greaaaattttt. they were teenagers and they acted like one. quite realistic. hehe. well, the ending of course leads to magneto's movie that will come..i guess. so will see it of course. xmen is a movie series that i like to watch. well, it's not sitcom for television so the episodes are still reasonable. great movie yippieee :D

well, now back to work. still have one web tech journal and one interactive to be done. okay see you~ oh by the way, the 3rd picture is havok, kinda feels like cyclopes. well, he's charming :P

Another Love Story Movie

2011-06-23T17:05:00.003+08:00

so this is my assignment 1 semester ago. it's a short movie starring my friends as the talents. hehe. it's about one girl who's walking down the street. she met many people. she felt many things. some she liked. sometimes she's hurt. until in the end of the road, when she met someone she's been dreaming of, someone she's saved the last dance for. :)

Showreel

2011-06-23T15:34:00.007+08:00

bigger size. enjoy! :D

beautiful by eminem

2011-06-22T21:10:00.002+08:00

"But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful.They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you."

current work

2011-06-22T16:43:00.005+08:00

so yeah, this is what i have been doing for almost one week. and finally it's almost over now! yay! hehe..but i still have one interactive portfolio to be done. well, a lot of works but i hope everything will be just fine in the end. so that's a html website. i like the design but some may say it's too packed. hehee..well, i'm taking a day off today. gotta rest after all the pressure :)

Nothing Lasts Forever by Maroon 5

2011-06-21T04:48:00.001+08:00

Rumah Kita by God Bless

2011-06-19T04:09:00.002+08:00

2011-06-19T03:09:00.009+08:00

One of the oldest human needs is having someone to wonder where you are when you don't come home at night. - Margaret Mead

another daily forecast

2011-06-19T02:57:00.003+08:00

so yeah this is going to be the end of this semester. another 2 weeks and i'll have my final exhibition. but yes i still have many things to do. tons actually. and yes i'm struggling with the time and those works. currently i still have 1 journal, 1 html website, 1 interactive portfolio, and one final exhibition. well that's a lot. andd i just hope i can finish it on time with a good result. damn me and my last minute habit. well yah i will finish what i have started, but when everything goes too smoothly, i get bored. my bad. hehe.

want to watch x-men. it's said to be the best x-men movie so far. well, i the normal quality of those movies, so i expect to be really amazed by this one. we'll see. if i can we'll go on monday. hahaaa yeah good girl, in the middle of this hecticness you still have time for a movie. very nice.

hmmm..and a little bit about my personal life. well yeah i'm impulsive and impatient, hate to be ignored or being an option. but yet i stick with someone i choose even it makes me bleed a lot. that stubborn head. i can wait, only for something that i think is worth to be waited for. or with a very logical reason. but yet again, it kills me somehow, still. knowing that he must have something logical as the reason ain't make it any easier. competing with a job is maybe the hardest thing to do because it ain't human. how can you compete a rock with a door? they are 2 different things with different purpose. and i'm easily provoked by a situation when there's no words to be said, than something else is coming. like i always say, know something, understand it, and apply it in your life are 3 different things. even when you're already in level 1, it ain't make you easier to do the next level. damn thing.

happy leaping!

2011-06-17T17:25:00.002+08:00

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Rhythm of Love by Plain White T's

2011-06-17T01:22:00.005+08:00

my soundtrack for these 2 days. well, i'm working with the web tech project. i'm designing a new website for me, portfolio. because i realized that my previous project was soooo messy. now i hope it's better hehe. and so far i have done 3 pages and still have to do another 3. but the last 3 hasn't had any layout. gotta think about it later fyuh..and yes, it's 2 last weeks for this semester. all submissions are next week and the next week we'll have final exhibition. well, wish me luck! :D

2011-06-12T02:36:00.001+08:00

my best friend while waiting a flight few months ago.
tribute to my lovely sister ;)

Unspoken Wish and Promise

2011-06-09T05:38:00.007+08:00

distance is not easy and life is unknown but we will see

2011-06-08T00:12:00.005+08:00

Behind every beautiful girl, there is a dumbass guy who did her wrong and made her strong.

rolling in the Deeee-ee-eer

2011-06-08T00:00:00.005+08:00

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2011-06-06T23:12:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, the world works in a way that the more you want something to happen, it won't happen.

Empire State of Mind - Jay Z ft Alicia Keys

2011-06-04T00:25:00.000+08:00

one of my fave vid clip..

2011-06-04T00:12:00.006+08:00

I hate waiting for zero result. More over when I can do nothing even to make it 50.

kung fu panda 2

2011-06-03T23:59:00.003+08:00

have just watched it today. another AWESOMENESS from dreamworks! *hand clapped* the story, the characters, the animation, everything inside it is just awesome! :D the moral of the movie is also great. it doesn't matter where you come from. our beginning might not be good, but it's the rest that counts. who we choose to be. 'now' is the most important time, neither past nor future, but now. it teaches us not to really depend on the fortune prediction blabla. it might be good to hear, but everything happens in our own hand, especially when it's your own life. in terms of reach that, you might gain inner peace. make peace with your fears and doubts, and make peace with who you are. that's actually an ideal thought of life, while we face a lot of difficulties of course.

this movie has a lot of touchy scenes. po's childhood memory, sincerity of his father, when Tigress hugged Po, a lot. and when i see the ending, i believe there's anothe awesomeness is coming up. yay! can't wait :D

2011-06-03T04:24:00.003+08:00

on my last step and i go down, he came up and lifted me up a bit. not really high, just enough to make me stand

cuap cuip fase 2

2011-06-02T04:20:00.007+08:00

from i don't know when, patience is the biggest issue in my life. coz i almost has nothing of it. i rush everything at most of the times. i don't have patience to let it works slower than i expect. and get upset when i have to wait for something. i don't like sitting calmly and wait till something happens by itself. coz somehow, i don't believe in doing nothing and let miracle happens by itself. i want and i should be a part of it. i have to do something with intention to reach and achieve something. so yeah, it's kinda hard to just sit and watch. in some cases, yes i do that. but that means the things isn't really important or affecting me at once. so i prefer so sit and watch. but for something i really appreciate and think it's valuable for me, i'd better do something to make it happens.

those things help me reach my goal and ease my path. i will have something i want, and be sure that i will have it by my effort. something like, guaranteed. and i have learned a lot about that since i was a kid. that i have to work it out to make things happen. nothing will come to reality without any effort.

sounds normal? well yeah maybe. but well, life's never be predictable so easy, right? it introduces me to another word name 'patience' instead of 'rush'. and it's totally a new thing for me, and something that has a different direction that what i have believed for so long. it's like someone asking me to swim in the middle of oil instead of water. i probably can do that but it feels wrong. and it's hard. but i have to know it also. and..that happens years ago.

and here i am. still struggling with my biggest enemy and achievement called patience. many things have happened in my life. and i have learned a lot too about that word. but again, sometimes i 'forget' and do things with my own way. and at some cases, it doesn't work anymore. especially when you're dealing with someone else. patience is one of the keywords to make something happen.

there are a lot of things running around my mind at these times. i don't know what i should feel since i don't know what's going on. the person that can tell me is gone for now. i hope he'll come back soon since i start to think strangely now. in terms in bringing my logic and mind again, well i guess i need to talk with him. there are a lot of contradictions on my mind. between my mind and brain and heart. between my fear, my feeling, and my hope. classic. but yet it happens on and on and on and on..sometimes i'm tired of walking and running and jumping and clinging. in the end i just wanna sit and stare. hoping that miracle doesn't think i'm their enemy in the end.

2011-06-02T04:16:00.006+08:00

"Different flowers look good to different people."
-Chinese Proverbs

2011-06-02T01:06:00.005+08:00

be thankful for what you have,
or you won't ever get enough

Straight Line

2011-05-30T01:37:00.004+08:00

lately, i feel so damn bored. i mean..well, i like my study, my assignments, my life here, my dreams, but..okay that's all. not that i'm not thankful for the quite smooth situation i'm facing here. but somehow..it feels like one straight boring line. and after i think again, i'm not really fancy it. :\

for all my years of study, i've never felt this way. usually i always enjoy the learning process and doing my assignments was kinda fun. nowadays, yes it's still enjoyable. but that's all. like doing it..but that's all. kinda...boring. again. not interesting.

but in the other hand, i'm a kinda workaholic person. doing nothing somehow makes me feel guilty. when i know i actually have works to do. but too lazy and too not interested in doing them. hummm..such a contradiction no? anyway i'm not asking you to understand my brain. hahaa. me myself can't understand it sometimes. :P

my housemate said that maybe it's the time to move on from my level of life. she meant from student into a working person. maybe it's just about the time. hemmm..yeah makes sense. but without doing my assignments i won't be graduated right? hahaah. but i think she's right. maybe i'm just getting bored become a student. even there are still a lot of things i should learn and know. but in this way, i think 4 years is enough.

i'm excited about my life after graduation. where i will work. which company and which colleagues i will deal with. hmm..kinda interesting. a bit scary. hahaha. but yeah, i'm looking forward to it.

but if i can be honest, my biggest desire to do after graduation is traveling around for a while. before i'm signing to a new job, i want to enjoy my life and my interests for a while. relax my mind and recharge my energy. i really wanna fly somewhere nice. somewhere i've never been. or actually anywhere but here and jakarta. haha. want to see new things. want to be amazed. needs to get back my passion and interests.

the biggest rock : money. i want to travel around and do stuffs that i like. but i'm also thinking about the money. starting a new life in a new place will cost me a lot of bucks, won't it? renting a new place, moving, maybe airlines ticket, and how if i'm not enough money for it? *sigh*

but anyway, that's the update from my brain. again, i'm not expecting you to read all the rumbles. haha. cheers!

Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri Cover by KarminMusic

2011-05-29T01:12:00.005+08:00

who do you think you are?

2011-05-29T01:09:00.004+08:00

Aries people love challenges, if everything is running smoothly, they are of going out and doing something to rock the boat.-ZodiacZone

Rendeer 2011 Teaser

2011-05-29T00:58:00.002+08:00

Video teaser is finally on! stay tuned and hope for the best for our exhibition! :D

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