Pixie's Singing

i just wonder how you can survive with all those loneliness. i've been sick for today, just sleeping and resting the whole day. noone's around, just talked few times with my sister. and a bit with my friends. i can't bear how lonely it is. i can't imagine how you can survive with that, in jakarta, with your job. wow. another thought came to my mind. i can't ever have the life you have now. i can't keep up with your type of life. a lot of people said you aren't mine. and if i wanna open my eyes that big, i will see reasons why i should be happy with what we have now. walking in different path. it will be such a miracle if one day we will cross each other's path once more. but well, for now i think i should be happy with our situation. i am happy for you and your career. i hope you will never be the bad guy. :)

I dreamed about you few days ago. we went to one reception together. i can see you're walking besides me. and i can see all of our high school friends, staring at us. i was nervous for a reason i can't remember. i was afraid they're talking bad about me or something. i can see their eyes are looking for a fact whether we're together or no. and you gave your hand to me. like in some old movies. and we're holding hands. you told me "now you're not worry anymore right". and i was shocked. i told you i never think it will happen. and you told me that it's finally happening. i was so happy. the scenes were changing and we're meeting my bali friends. we're getting along so well. and we're in another scene. you're eating something and somebody told me "oh he liked it too, just like you. even both of you are different, you're alike in few things" and i just smiled while you're still eating. it was a perfect dream. exactl