Pixie's Singing

It started out as a feeling Which then grew into hope Which then turned into a quiet thought Which then turned into a quiet word And then that word grew louder and louder Till it was a battle cry I'll come back when you call me No need to say goodbye Just because everything's changing Doesn't mean it's never been this way before All you can do is try to know who your friends are As you head off to war Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light You'll come back when it's over No need to say goodbye You'll come back when it's over No need to say goodbye Now we're back to the beginning It's just a feeling and no one knows yet But just because they can't feel it, too Doesn't means that you have to forget Let your memories grow stronger and stronger Till they're before your eyes You'll come back when they call you No need to say goodbye You'll come back when they call you No need to say goodbye...

Look at the stars Look how they shine for you And everything you do Yeah, they were all yellow I came along I wrote a song for you And all the things you do And it was called "Yellow" So then I took my turn Oh what a thing to have done And it was all "Yellow" Your skin Oh yeah, your skin and bones Turn into something beautiful You know, you know I love you so You know I love you so I swam across I jumped across for you Oh what a thing to do 'Cause you were all "Yellow" I drew a line I drew a line for you Oh what a thing to do And it was all "Yellow" Your skin Oh yeah your skin and bones Turn into something beautiful And you know For you I'd bleed myself dry For you I'd bleed myself dry It's true, look how they shine for you Look how they shine for you Look how they shine for Look how they shine for you Look how they shine for you Look how they shine Look at the stars Look how they shine...

no i don't want you to change. no i don't want you to let me go. no i don't want you to leave. yes i miss your smile. yes i miss your laugh. yes i miss you. yes i want you to look at my eyes when you're talking to me. no i hate when you walk away and will never look back again. yes i want you to be here. even you do nothing. even i just can see you eyers. even i just can imagine your smile. yes love and live are still the same thing. complicated.

ga enak banget nih lagi pilek. dari tadi kepala gue sangat pusing dan ngga bisa mikir. sampe tadi gue ga ikut rapat integrated yg siangnya. ga nahan banget. sakit semua badan gue, leher gue, pala gue. ahhhh sudahlah~ emank begituh kalo mo pilek. au pileknya kapan. yg gue sebel kalo lagi saat2 kaya gini ajah. ngga mempan dikasih obat apaan ajah. huwa~ dia terdiam dan melihat ke dalam hatinya ke dalam dirinya bahwa kelamnya masih ada dan kembali datang menghampirinya dia bukan seorang yg paling indah dia bukan seorang pahlawan yang berperang dan kalah dan kembali berperang dia berdiam dalam sendirinya kala ragu menyambutnya dan kala langkah itu kembali beranjak dia melihat dari jauh tanpa tahu apa yang harus dia lakukan dia akan kehilangan lagi atau tidak dia hanya berdiam terlalu takut untuk kembali mengenakan jubahnya dan berlari ke medan perang bukan untuk membunuh dia bukan pembunuh dia hanya seorang yang berusaha mempertahankan dirinya dan segala yang ada yang mempertahankan cintany...

Temen gue barusan bilang kalo orang yg ngga bias mendeskripsikan dirinya sendiri itu orang yg perfeksionis. Aha..am i? ahahahaah~ gtw deh. Mungkin. Yg pasti gue emank ngga bisa mendeskripsikan diri gue coz gue sendiri bingung sama diri gue. Gtw mau mulai dari mana gtw musti bilang apa. Rasanya abstrak bener euy. Hehe. Makanya gue bingung gtw mo bikin apa. Dan sangat susah emank mencari yg bener2 gue. Makanya jurnal creative tuh bagian self biography paling ujung dibuatnya. Coz gue tidak menemukan apapun yg bisa mendeskripsikan diri gue dengan baik dan benar. Ahahah. Secara gue sangat2 moody dan unpredictable. Berbahagialah orang yg bisa dan tahan mengerti saya. Hehehehe~ yah begituhlah gue. Gue ngga pernah merasa bisa deskripsiin diri gue dengan benar dan tepat selaen paka 1 kata “unpredictable” karena gue ngerasa gue sangat2 abstrak dan suka2 banget. Gue mau ngelakuin sesuatu y ague lakuin, gue ga mau bisa gue lakuin bisa ngga. Yg pasti gue ngga sukacita deh.hehe. egois? Mungkin. Hehe...

Turn my mic up louder I got to say something Light weights steppin aside when we comin' Feel it in your chest the syllables get pumping People on the street they panic and start running Words on loose leaf sheet complete coming I jump on my mind, I summon the rhyme, I'm dumping Healing the blind I promise to let the sun in Sick of the dark ways we marched to the drummin' Jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping Fuck that I wanna see some fists pumping Risk something, take back what's yours Say something that you know they might attack you for Cause I'm sick of being treated like I have before Like it's stupid standing for what I'm standing for Like this war's really just a different brand of war Like it doesn't cater the rich and abandon poor Like they understand you in the back of the jet When you can't put gas in your tank These fuckers are laughing their way to the bank and cashing their check Asking you t...

gue sedang sangat tidak mood. au ngapa. bawaannya males ngapa2in. pengen marah2 ajah. lalala~ begituhlah. ga mood..ga mood..ga mood...gaaa moood.