Pixie's Singing

So there's this silver lining between a lot of things. That silver lining of your very own. That stands between being egoist and fighting for what you care. Between falling in love and staying real. Between forgiving and letting go. Between a lot..a lot of every damn little things. Between you and other people. Between what you believe and what other says. Between..a lot. And every single day I learn how to recognize that silver lining, learn to dance between a lot of stuffs that touch our life. Something you can't do by just listening to others, but eventually you gotta choose, fall, run, raise, feel helpless, feel incredibly happy, and thousands other things that may happen. Life, a complete jokes and happiness and tears. There's no exact instructions but somehow by doing it you realize there are some clues hidden waiting for you to see and recognize. Between those smiles and tears and everything in between. There's this silver lining that will just continue to somewh...

So i got this from a website. That's my zodiac from Mayan calendar system. It's surprisingly true :D 

"Because you are the stars and the moon. And the sunshine during the day"

it's the last day of 2014. and it's been months since my last writing. things changed a bit, but i actually miss blabbering on my blog. hehe.. well, this year was amazing. ups and downs like roller coaster. sometimes i screamed, sometimes i hid, sometimes i enjoyed the ride. few things happened, a lot of interesting people. well, what a year :) few things i wish i can say it directly to the person but it seems impossible now without getting over reaction, so yeah let me spill it out here. guardian, i somehow wish we can still be friend. with whatever reason, reason i can't even explain. it's easier to get angry with you, or with myself by making bad choices. but i'm not accustomed to stray away people from my life. you were something, now or long time ago im not sure, to me. in a cheesy way, i was like mirroring myself when i saw you. negative and positive pole. something. i wish you were really happy when we share some moments. and of course i wish you the best...

I know some people wish that I'm better than what I am now. Well, i sometimes wish to be someone else. to be better, to be more understanding, to be more...i dont know. better to fit in. after a long ups and downs and pauses, in the end you can't lie of who you are. you are what you are, what you carry inside your mind, and what you decide to do. actions you take, actions you believe in. your heart, your mind, your soul, there's nothing really wrong about it. it aint easy to accept who you are and be happy about it. especially when you lost somebody, you hurt somebody you really care, and those kind of things. but what can we do about that? we will hurt somebody eventually, we will be off guard once in a while, but you know what? someone who really matters, whether they're family, friends, or your significant other will understand it somehow. or even someone who hurt you, betray you, leave you, somehow..they will understand who you really are. it's just they know th...