Pixie's Singing

so yeah this is going to be the end of this semester. another 2 weeks and i'll have my final exhibition. but yes i still have many things to do. tons actually. and yes i'm struggling with the time and those works. currently i still have 1 journal, 1 html website, 1 interactive portfolio, and one final exhibition. well that's a lot. andd i just hope i can finish it on time with a good result. damn me and my last minute habit. well yah i will finish what i have started, but when everything goes too smoothly, i get bored. my bad. hehe. want to watch x-men. it's said to be the best x-men movie so far. well, i the normal quality of those movies, so i expect to be really amazed by this one. we'll see. if i can we'll go on monday. hahaaa yeah good girl, in the middle of this hecticness you still have time for a movie. very nice. hmmm..and a little bit about my personal life. well yeah i'm impulsive and impatient, hate to be ignored or being an option. but yet i sti...

current condition..*sigh*

nyew..that's my playlist for today..hehe..hmm..what happened recently? well, not much. i'm still dealing with my final semester and all its assignments. wayfinding for graphic design class, showreel and interactive portfolio for multimedia, essay for design and culture, and prepare a website for web tech class. oh yah still working on the final exhibition too. good news..so far all the tutorials are fine. the lecturers like what i'm doing. and actually i do too. feel a bit bored but..yeah what else can i ask? hehe..for the exhibition, actually the process is quite smooth. we have got few sponsors including canon malaysia and still working on the rest of potential ones. will maybe print another exhibition t-shirt also. but still waiting till the vote finished and some confirmations from our lecture. bad news..i'm sick again. hahaa..coughing, migraine, diarrhea, etc etc etc. i have enough to make me not sleep well, can't do my assignment last night, and stressed me ou...

weekend already and..i'm trapped with boredom. well, gotta do a lot of assignments actually. and they're all interesting and i do enjoy doing them...but..somehow i lost the interest to do it. i guess there's something wrong in me, when everything goes smoothly, i loose interest on it. sounds arrogant? well, excuse me for that. it doesn't mean that i'm not being thankful for it, just..anything that's too flat doesn't get my interest. well, my bad. so yeahhh..this is one of those times when i get bored doing my routine, doing everything again and again and again and again..ck. once in a while i need a fresh air. unfortunately, all my money goes to the assignments and my daily expenses. quoted from my friend, deal with the situation when you don't have money. so cruel yet so true. *sigh* by the way i miss my bebe. *doublesigh*

i love this lady. she has the voice and attitude :) humm i've just come back. having fun without getting drunk. yes! love it. now i just wait till i'm sleepy. lalaa~ and good sleep will come. hurah! :D well, it's one of those times when i'm more sensitive than usual, easier to get angry and wanna slap anyone who annoys me. simply just to make them shut up. it's one of those times when i need a time up also. i can't do something too routine, need a fresh air every there and then. and nope, i can't deny that. if not, i'll stuck like i won't do that thing again. will stuck and don't know how to feel and think. that's worse. anyway i'm just blabbering, so ignore me if it annoys you. long long day with no sleep has started again. arghhhh~

have just watched this movie :D good one for a light movie time. the story is about the first friendship between fairies and human. change the only make believe thing into something so real for both of the parties. as another disney movie, it's nice, full of magical things,quite good graphics even though i hope there are more details. hehe. but yeah..good one :) i don't feel well at all this moment, since last night actually. dunno what's going on. too tired? i don't think i have done something so extreme. hemmm..udah lama ngga masuk angin sampe muntah. bete. don't like how it feels now. it's like my soul is flying high while my body is doing something..so unpleasant. T_T hope to get better reaaaalllyyy soon. *sigh*

There's someone I've been missing... seharian ngedit video dan seharian2nya dia erorrrr mulu klo ngerender sama export. selesai ngedit mah udah dari sore, sampe gini ari ngga berhasil dapet file outputnyaaaaaa! ish frustrating!!!! udah ah besok ajah nyoba lagi. oh my dear pc and adobe premiere, be good please :(

nonton ini di tempat temen gue kmaren malem..eh tadi pagi kali ya itungannya. seru filmnya. waktu itu ga sempet ntn di bioskop. meskipun subtitlenya acak2an dan agak2 ga denger dia pada ngmng apa, but i can say that this movie is good. lumayan deh bikin melek sampe jem 7 pagi. hehehe.. masih lohhh..gada inspirasi dan keinginan ngerjain semua2nya. oh kenapa yaaaa..susah banget sih mw ngapa2in. =_____= i hope it'll end soon! ga bisa deh lama2 bgini pusing. huwaaaa~ males mikir apa2.

suddenly miss this song. hehe. it's maybe the closest to the reality of the most i'm facing. ckck~ i'm planning my next holiday. not the lebaran one, i might be go to hk with my mom and sister. but dunno yet. for the end of the semester. i'm planning to go to bali to celebrate new year. but yet, it's too dangerous to be there. then i plan to move the dates before the high season, but still..it's a bit risky with all people on the street and also indonesia's condition right now. it's said that the poverty is getting worse and crime's everywhere. i'm really disappointed and sad to heart that. migod. what happens to my country??!! i love indonesia, seriously. but there're few parts i can't stand. what's going on there? oh my! what do people gain by doing crimes like that? money? and can they enjoy the money? above other people sufferings? c'mon! that's crazy. it's blocking my way to the holiday tau! i miss the place and every...

yes..it's once in a while when i get bored with what i'm doing, what i'm supposed to do, whatever needs me to think. sad. since i actually got things to think about and being done. arghh..BIG ARGH. life could be pretty much boring if you let it be huh? :( well..assignments. they're supposed to be interesting. oh yes they are actually. but why doesn't my brain be cooperative. waiiiiiii??! another big ARGH. got almost nothing on my mind. zero. someone's took out my interests and excitements. :( just wanna spill them out anyway. hhhhh~ even watching legally blonde 2 don't give me back my spirit and smiles. another argh. yah well, i don't say all movies like that make me smile sih. but..at least something can touch me. but..well, it doesn't really work now. :( life always hits you with something. either it's a small pinch or big punch.

my pc has problems once again. AHHHH pusing. td install the sims 3 setelah perjalanan yg memakan waktu dan biaya yg cukup oke. pulang2 install dan susaaaaaaaaah banget. oke awalnya gue salah nge crack sih. ternyata caranya salah dan harus di uninstall lgi. nyobain di tempat tam2 dan berhasil dengan sangat brilian oleh dirinya. turun lagi. install lagi. error. uninstall. install ulang. bisa. error. kayanya ketawan klo bajakan. akirnya pusing dah sudahhhh..diinstallin tam2. bisa sih. baru juga create sim, ngehang. matiin. nyalain. main. ngehang. loading. ngerestart sendiri. lemot. masuk sampe tulisan windows xp. kluar layar biru. belom sempet baca tulisan apa2. restart lgi. OH MAIIIIIII..cukup sudah. uninstall smua the simsnya. senin bakalan bawa ke sam hiew buat ngecek. mudah2an ga ditipu2. mudah2an rusaknya ga banyak. OH MAIIII!!! CUKUP SUDAH. T_T

current song when i'm in the gray feeling :) love it so much. above is the live version, i got the studio version and like that more than the live version. hehehe. the sound is clearer too. but that's the best i can find. will sail to tioman in few hours. :) hope to have great holiday there. i got bad dream today, woke up in blue feeling, then there's something wrong to all my gadgets then i couldn't come online, enough..to make me had bad feeling for all day. :( felt like there's something wrong, but nothing happens so far. just please don't be 'later'. :( yes, i was grateful to have you in my life. and i still am. *cup

so here i am. finally be back to malaysia and my lovely room. hahaha. meskipun disambut dengan debu dan lain lain dan kemalasan untuk beberes apalagi bongkar koper. arghhhh~ butuh ketabahan lebih itu nantinya. hahaha. biasa de komputer setelah 4 bulan ga dipake ngadat dulu. untung akirnya dia mau jalan dengan baik. *kiss to my powerful computer.. hehehehehe.. lucu sih balik ksini. setelah 4 bulan di bali. it's just hard to say goodbye to that beautiful place.brapa kali ampe mo nangis nginget2 hal disana. tpi lucu juga untuk balik ke malay. berasa pulang ke rumah. :) feeling yg sangat bertolak belakang. hehehehe... oh well dan brusan di tengah2 nulis komputer gue ngehang dan gue lupa td nulis sampe mana dan even nulis apaan. errrr~ ohhh gue lagi mo crita soal pengalaman bodoh airport itu. jd gue udah dateng 2 jam sebelum jam keberangkatan. masuk ke ruang check in dan check in tanpa ngantri. sdikit masalah karena visa student gue abis. tpi kan malaysia punya 30 days social visit visa...

yes it is. I will be back to malaysia in 2 weeks from now. *sigh. hehehheh. yah menurut gue hidup disini sebenernya lucu sih. hehe. beda banget dari hidup di jakarta (iya laaaa). disini semuanya kaya loose ajah. ngga tense kaya di jakarta. padat, rame, macet, polusi. disini semuanya lebih santai (even kerja aja pake kaos celana pendek), macet juga tempat2 dan jam2 tertentu ajah, orang2nya juga santai. well, it's a nice place to live. :) maybe later after i got enough money to be independent financially. hehehe. wikenan sama report nih. ckckck~ lama amad bikin ini report. mengarang bebas grak deh. heheheheh. tuz gtuh entah surat apalagi yg harusnya diterima sama company gue, tapi belom2 dateng juga sampe skarang. udah ampe males emailin orang di malay sana. ngga dibales2. ckckck~ gatau aaa~ lalala~ lagi sakit kepala sebenernya udah brapa hari. ngga tau mo pilek gatau gimana. skarang tiba2 menjadi migren. ckck! sebelah kanan doank. hadeuuhh..udah tidur cukup juga ga efek. bangun2 mas...

totally NOT in a good mood. pagi2 udah mati lampu jem 8 di kost. tiba2 panas. ngga tau mau ngapain. gelap. sebel. cabut ke kantor. lumayan dapet ac sama internet. trus gue mo moto sample tas buat dibenerin CAD nya. and there's something strange with my camera. hasilnya jadi gelap banget padahal udah balance di 0. milih fokusnya juga susah banget gue ampe bingung kenapa ga mau yg di tengah. pokoknya aneh. yakin sih gue itu udah di setting2. dan mungkin cuma tinggal dirubah apanyaaaa gtuh. nah apanya itu yg guega ngerti! bete!!!! mo moto jadinya gelap banget. harus pake flash. yah skarang sih gpp. tpi gue kesel aja kenapa jadi begituh dan gue ngga ngerti itu kenapa. udah gue ubek2 ampe males sendiri. @&#@*#!@#@ gatau ah ituh diapain! mana kabel datanya trnyata ngga ada. mana gue lupa waktu itu ngasih barengan kabel data atau ngga. damit!!!!!! pingin ngamuk rasanya. tuz skarang teteup aja gada kerjaan. mo bikin yg voucher, filenya belom dateng. tralala gatau ah. kesel!!!!!!

humph..not in my best condition to talk with. makan siang somay sama es teler. enak sih.deket kantor. pulangnya mampir ke outlet dewi sri liat2 barang sale. udah naksir tas dari dulu dan niat beli. dibawa ke kasir eh lagi ada yg bayar. kliling2 lagi nemu baju bagus banget. i changed my mind. i put the bag and took the shirt. then it was raining so damn hard. so alin and i waited at the store until it's getting better. we borrowed the store's umbrella and walked back to the office. i was half wet. damn. when i reached the office, i changed my cloth. thx God i put back the bag and chose the shirt. fyuh! but still..i felt a bit cold. it's getting worse through the evening. and now i don't fell anything well. hukx! naek darah tadi ga bisa2 onlen. sebel banget. skalinya udah bisa dan lancar, jadi ga mood. bete! so here i amm....misuh2 ga jelas. lala~ bodo ah. will go to bali tangi few hours from now.mo ngurut kaki yg waktu itu jatoh. mudah2an sembuh. amin! abis ntuh mw ntn a...

barusan ngantuq, tpi skarang ngga. hadoh ini maonya apa sih. @_@ dari kmaren ngga enak badan. kayanya mw pilek gtuh. udah 2 malem. baru malem ini mendingan. hehehe. td mau sok2 tidur cepet dan ga mw kuar2 gtuh..takut masuk angin lagi..ga guna..skarang segernya ga ampun2an. ckckckck~ emang dasar dah ni badan suka susah kooperatif.zzz~ akirnyaaa dikirimin duit juga. meskipun belom diambil sih. heheheh. besok ah besok. asik, punya duit buat beli aer galonan, buat bayar londry, sama buat makan dari hari sabtu! yessss~ klo ga duit gue bener2 pas buat makan warung 2 kali besok. =P lagi banyak kerjaan di kantor. hehehe. seru sih sebenernya daripada bengong2 geje. =D kmarenan bikin banner sama spanduk buat diskon 90% gtuh. ternyata dipajangnya di dewi sri. td pas ngantor ngeliat. tpi pas diliat spanduknya sunraynya ngga keliatan. @_@ padahal kayanya tes print kmaren masih kliatan oke deh. huwah~ jd td bg nya kaya flat pink. padahal harusnya ada kaya sinar matahari gtu garadasi. huhuuu~ tpi luc...

kmaren jalan seharian dan malemnya tepar segila2nya. asli tu badan gue nyeri ga ampun2an dari tulangnya. dipijit2 ga ngefek. gela deee gue ampe pusing. aneh banget. tiba2 aja kaya gituh. ih asli betenyaaaaa..untung diminumin panadol biz tu teler. =( untung hari ni kerja tpi ga teler. hahahhah. bntar lagi kelar magang yg disini. =) seneng juga sih. bikin macem2. hehe. tpi hari ni gi ga mood banget. agak asal tu kerjaan2 semuaa.. huhuu~ tgl 8 nanti mudah2an brangkat ke bali jadi. heheheh. belom beli tiket sih nih. si ibu tepar tu ga beli2 tiket. haahaah. mudah2an semuanya lancar disana. gada apa2 yg ngeganggu banget. mudah2an. =) God, i put my life in Your hand. whatever is Your way, it will be.

well..gue dah berapa hari gtuh kerja di hotel tmpat cc gue kerja. magang jadi graphic designernya. ga magang juga sih scara gue kerja kaya pegawai tetap baik waktu dan jumlah kerjaan tapi dibayar pake senyum sama makan doank. well..well..well...yah begituhlah. sebenernya kerjaannya cukup menyenangkan. bikin2 design gtuh deh buat xmas sama new year..gtuh2 lah. heheheheh...tpi yah gtuh deh..cape buanget dan td pagi gue cukup tepar. skarang dah biasa ajah sih. untung besok libur!!! saya girang! hahahhh... well..mempertanyakan friendship value orang2 disini. kenapa yah rasanya udah beda ajah semuanya. does it matter? started from now i hope the answer will be NO. thank you so much.

getting bored down here. krik! cape ngerjain tugas dan ga merasa excited sama tugas yang tersisa. tadi abis bikin ilustration. udah selesai. tpi lupa binding jurnalnyah. terus masih ada interactive cd buat minggu depan sama typography. dimana gue sama sekali tidak interested entah kenapa. maap yah miss. =( gak mood. lagi sakit juga sih. masuk angin akut. biasanya semalem smebuh inih ngga. hadoh! ada2 ajah sih lagi. ga suka sakit! sebel!!!pingin meluk orang tpi gada yg dipeluk. biasa deh orang jomblo gmn sih. =( get a life people. me: what life? curut! *being so cynical during these times. krik.susah lagi sakit kepala. ga bisa mikir apah2. doesn't help! ah cape deh.