Pixie's Singing

yep..after a very very long tiring journey..i've finished my assignments up and submitted all of them. yahaaaa~ finally!! gila banget kerjain jurnal kemaren sampe ga tidur2. mana gue sakit pilek batuk sakit kepala semuanya deh lengkap abis. dan tetep ga bisa tidur karena lagi2 belom selesai tuh semua kerjaan gue. ckckckc..parah abis deh. mana pas mo di print tinta gue low dan gue ngebuat tintanya tam2 low juga. hduhhhh~ depan2 sih masih bagus warnanya..belakang2 dah ckckck~ tipis abisss...parah deh. yah selesai sih selesai tpi gtw berapa dinilai ma si aaron tuh. not my standard artwork at all. parah deh. gue ga mo lagi ah smster depan kek gini. terancam failed. cuma gara2 ga ngerjain tugas gue dan kebanyakan main. ckckckc. enough. gada lagi kaya gini smster depan. balance deh antara main dan ngerjain tugas. gue juga yg ujung2nya stress gila gara2 ini smua. ckckck~ abis ngumpulin jurnal gue itu, gue tidur 7 jam dah kaya orang pingsan. dan selama 7 jam itu gue mimpi serem2 banget sem...

sumpah deh stresssss..banyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkkkkk banget kerjaannn..monyongggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

ehm..yahh critanya sih abis pindahan gtuh deh. tuz cuapeeeeeee banget. ditambah dengan sgala tugas bejibun monyong begituh. jadinya yaaaaaaaaa cuapenya gila2an. hmm..kamar baru nih. mayan enak sih. hehe. tpi gue kangen desa yg kemana2 tinggal ngesot. hehe. senangnyah. =P tuzzz barusan k londry. beh elaaa jauhh..hahah..dibandingin sama desa sih ituh jauh yah. dan kayanya sih gue bisa ilank tuh klo ksana sendirian especially malem2. ckckckc..gak banget deh ah. huh~ besok kumpul ernesto tpi keknya lom siap deh. haha. gtw lah pusing sayah juga. ni aja masih mo edit aaron nih. biar besok bisa kumpul hehe. yah begituhlah. ga da tenaga banyak2 buat nulis. ckckck~

sick of everything. sick of my never ending assignments. scara tiba2 itu mengambil alih smua hidup gueee..rasanya yg laen gak penting banget dalam sekejab!! hikss..yah kerjaan gue tiap ari cuma mencoba menyelesaikan hal2ituh. beban hidup. ckckck. honestly sometimes i enjoy doing it, but sometimes not!! get sick of it. now it's 9 way to go. it was 16 at the beginning. haha~ hmm..ok..i remember something just now. no..i made to remember something..by my friend. entah kenapa gue tiba2 pengen nangis pas dia bilang "makanya didoain dong". dengan segala kelemahan gue sebagai manusia, gue ngerasa itu percuma. yeah i'm running away from my real situation. from my family's real situation. and it's fucking selfish. why? because i don't know what to do. i don't know hot to feel about it. sometimes it feels like a normal situation for me. sometimes i don't feel anything. sometimes i do feel really sorry about that. what i do believe is when i grow up and make ...

not the WHOLE world i mean. but MY world. my small little tiny bitty..anything but small..world. haha. hmm..why small? because my life is just going through assignments..my room..my computer..food..campus..and lecturers. ahh yeahh..hmm..don't accept any critics of my english.hahahha..i know it's not perfect anyway..just feeling like to write in this kind of way..any way. =P i've just realized many things today. one of them is..don't ever print at Vista Prima. i swear. this is the place that my lecture and a thousand people outside talking about. this SUPPOSED to be a good printing shop. but NOT. a big NOOOOOOOO. i prefer to come back to miso even it's more expensive than to that place where i have to wait for ages and *honestly thx God i'm not the one who did the printing..sorry anyway =P* i don't have any word to explain the result. hmm..one thing is..it makes me feel like dejavu, when i printed my STRAWBERRY milk packagin and got a HALF CHOCOLATE one inst...

padahal lagi banyak2nya. haha. biz turun makan di bawah bareng andrew, kepin, wewei, ma tepen. tuz ketawa2kaya orang tolol. hahaha..apa aja diketawain. versi heboh. hahaha. geblek deh. yg uda pada stress ma tugas. yg udah pada gila. nyampur smuaaa..sip abis. hehehhe. parah deh. smuaaa dibahas. haha. asli bego gila. tpi gpp deh. refreshing di tengah lautan tugas yg makin lama makin dikit waktunya. hahaha. tuz skarang balik lagi k kamar, mo bikin poster. dan masih ada sejuta tugas menunggu. cihuy abisss.. i just wanna close my eyes and find you. standing there. waiting for me. to come home. to be with you. ever and ever. and never let go. with smiles and tears. with everything happens. you know i'll be there. like you have been one for me. ever and ever. one thing remains. it's you and whatever you've done. for every reason i want to hug you tightly. and never let go. for years and months. for me and you. and smile and joy.

Well do ya wanna dance and-a hold my hand Call me your lover man Oh baby do you wanna dance? Well do you wanna dance under the moonlight Squeeze and hug me all through the night Oh baby do you wanna dance? Well do you wanna dance and make romance Squeeze me all through the night Oh baby do you wanna dance? Hey! Well do you wanna dance and-a hold my hand Call me your lover man Oh baby do you wanna dance? Well do you wanna dance under the moonlight Squeeze and hug me all through the night Oh baby do you wanna dance? Well do you wanna dance and-a make romance A kiss and squeeze umm baby Do you wanna dance? Well do you wanna dance and-a hold my hand Call me your lover man Oh baby do you wanna dance? Oh do you wanna dance under the moonlight Squeeze and hug me all through the night Oh baby do you wanna dance? Well do-you do-you do-you do-you Wanna dance? Do-you do-you do-you do-you Wanna dance? Do-you do-you do-youa do-you Wanna dance? ini lagu yg nemenin gue ngulang segala sesuatunya male...

sangat deh sangat gue stress banget. kenapa? gue bikin greeting card yg udah tlat seminggu kumpulinnya. dan ada apa gerangan dengan itu? RUSAK. sumpah rusak. kan gue bikin tulisannya pake glass deco. dan lengket kalo uda kering. jadinyaaaa..kemaren gue batesin pake kertas yg ga bisa ditempelin glass deco scara baik. tuz tdi gue pilox pake pilox transparan dan dah gue tes gue buka tutup gpp. ga nempel. tuz gue tutup beneran. pas gue mo buka lagi. NEMPEL DONG SMUA DAN KERTASNYA ROBEK. gue pas liat dah speechless. mo diapain juga bingung. mo ngulang bahannya udah gada. mo k artshop udah tutup. gada yg punya kertas kado yg sesuai. gada mounting board. akirnya gue ngulang bener2 pake bahan yg ada di gue doank. selesai sih. dan gue membuang bagian glass deco scara nunggu keringanya aja 2 hari. gada waktu lagi. udah gituh gue ga suka sama hasilnya. ga nyatu.beda banget dan ga keliatan bagus. duh gue dah mo mampus liatnya. pusing setengah mati. parah. dan dengan baiknya kalo gue lagi panik gue...

hanya kau yang kupeluk saat kurasakan sedih hati hanya kau yang terindah di cintaku betapa yang terdalam semua tlah kucurahkan untukmu betapa yang tersentuh tlah kau miliki mungkinkah kau kan pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri salahkah hatiku yang inginkan slalu kau bertahan di redupnya cinta setia hingga di akhir hidupku tak banyak kuberi hanya sebuah kisah abadi denganmu smua terlewati tanpamu ku hanya sebuah mimpi mungkinkah kau kan pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri salahkah hatiku yang inginkan slalu kau bertahan di redupnya cinta setia hingga di akhir hidupku tak banyak kuberi hanya sebuah kisah abadi denganmu smua terlewati tanpamu ku hanya sebuah mimpi =) gatau kenapa tapi lagunya enak banget d kuping gue. hehehhe..mengingatkan gue sama seseorang tapi beda term and situations...hahahhaa

tidur pagi 2 hari itu gak bae ternyata. ckckckc. scara mungkin udah keseringan juga sih. tiba2 hari ni gue tepar setengah mati. biz presentasi tadi. pas abis gue maju langsung ngegeletak di meja. bener2 ngantuk banget dan lama2 sakit kepala karena ga bisa tidur banget di kelas. tidur2 bangun2 ga penting. hhhmm~ yah gituh deh. tuz siangnya kepanasan, keringetan, keujanan, kepanasan lagi, siklus gak bae deh. =( dan skarang abis gue tidur pun ga membaik. pala gue masih aja sakit tuz ga pengen ngapa2in. ni aja gue nitip makan k yg di bawah. hhhh~ bener2 gak pengen turun sendiri k bawah. gak kuatttt..dan tugas gue masih banyak. ga usah khawatir soal tugas gue sih. haha. sakit ati abis liat jumlahnya. phew~ yahh gituh deh kehidupan. keknya belakangan ni gue sakit mulu. au nape. sebel banget. =(

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love. Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high I don’t want to let go, girl I just need you to know girl I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight, No promises Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms Here tonight Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high I don’t want to let go, girl I just need you to know girl I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight, No promises Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, through time and time No promises I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone No Promises Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love No promises I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight, No promises Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in y...

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table, and make sure that your coffee has its sugar and cream Your eggs are over easy, your toast done lithely, all that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me Now you say the juice is sour, it used to be so sweet, and I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me We don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting so deep, I've got my pride, I will not cry, but it's making me weak I'm not your superwoman I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down, and think that everything's okay Boy I am only human... This girl needs more than occasional hugs as a token of love from you to me I fought my way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you But when you get there, you just tell me you're not hungry at all, you said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk You li...

I used to think I had the answers to everything Mm but now I know That life doesn't always go my way. yeah Feels like I'm caught in the middle Thats when I realize I'm not a girl Not yet a woman All I need is time A moment that is mine While I'm in between I'm not a girl There is no need to protect me It's time that I Learn to face up to this on my own I've seen so much more than you know now So don't tell me to shut my eyes I'm not a girl Not yet a woman All I need is time A moment that is mine While I'm in between I'm not a girl But if you look at me closely You will see it in my eyes This girl will always find her way I'm not a girl I'm not a girl dont tell me what to believe Not yet a woman I'm just trying to find the woman in me yeah All I need is time Whoa, all I need is time... A moment that is mine thats mine While I'm in between Im not a girl Not yet a woman Not now All I need is time A moment that is mine While I...

biz makan cheese naan sama ayam tandori ampe eneg2 bega gituh deh. biz gue ga tau ternyata banyaknya ga wajar. tuz..ngantuk. hahahhha. asli ngantuk gila deh =P sebelom makan gue gi bikin essaynya mohana. 3rebu kata. mantep tuh yee..baru jadi 1500 kata. tu ude 5 halaman. dasar sarap tuh tugas. gue gtw dah gmana kelarnya. kelar sih..tpi males banget ajah. mana bahan batik malay itu susah dicari. ampun dehhh =( yah gituh deh. ngantuk. hahaha. gi banyak2nya tugas. tdi gue ngelist dengan kurang kerjaannya dan ada 11 tugas sampe 2 minggu k depan. dan nampaknya ga lucu smua tugasnya. hahahaha. asli parah2. mudah2an kelarrr..amin~ =P

pernah dong yah denger frasa ituh. halah..frasa..apaan sih bahasa gue. hehehe. yah biz gmana yah tiba2 itu doang yg nongol di otak =P gue biz chatting sama temen gue..tiba2 pengen nulis hal ini. hehe. kenapa? karena inilah yg sedang gue hadapi saat ini. dimana diri gue sendiri yg ngasih limit atas segala sesuatunya dan malah ngebuat gue susah karena gue terbatas pada limit itu. emang ada kalanya hanya kita yg tau limit untuk diri kita sendiri. seberapa lama kita tahan nangkring depan komputer dan kutak katik disana. ada orang yg tahan seminggu ga kemana2 ada yg sejam aja udah pengen terbang saking bosennya. banyak hal yg emang hanya diri kita sendiri yg tau sampe mana limitnya dan itu bukan hal yg jelek. tapi ada kalanya limit yg kita bentuk sendiri adalah senjata makan tuan. kembali ke diri kta sendiri dan malah jadi disaster. dan yah..itu yg sedang gue alami. the power of mind. apa yang gue pikirkan tersalur ke diri gue dan timbul reaksi dari diri gue tanpa gue sadari dan itu berpeng...

asli dehhh..ini tempat yg kaga bakal gue lupain seumur idup gue. jadii..ceritanya ini kuil orang India, Tamil, gtu2 lah. berarti..Hindu kayanya. tempatnya jauhhh seujung2 entah dimana. gue gtw jalan. haha. tpi tiba2 jalanannya kaya di tangerang sana gue lupa apa namanya. hahahaha. tempatnya rada2 sepi gituh. tiba2 di pinggir jalan raya ada gunung batu guedeee banget tuz ada patung dewanya juga gedeee banget. dan ngapain gue kesana?? ceritanya mo foto buat final project fotografi gue yg ampir failed!! kan lagi deepavali, tuz katanya disana ada perayaan gtuh deh. pas sampe sana..gada apa2. asli dehhh..mana kudu naek tangga sejauh2nya. 275 anak tangga? entah berapa gue lupa. tuz nyampe atas gue kaya uda mo pingsan. asli gilaaa..dingin dan keringetan. sebuah perpaduan gak baik! tuz sampe atas yah udah gada apa2 juga. malah banyak monyet kecil2. yg entah gimana pas nurunin gunung mengingatkan gue akan tikus yg turun dari tiang. ih amit2. serem gue liatnya. tuz gue dah mo pingsan karena di a...

i should have been sleeping now..but because of something i am not. the something that i don't know what actually. really. i don't know why i can't sleep as i have had a dream and it was soo funny. and made me missed someone. haha. so here i am. in front of my lovely computer. writing things that i don't know what's for. haha. ahh..enough with the english. haha. yah begituh deh..ga bisa tidur. padahal gi ga enak badan. belagu gila badan gue! hahaha~ geblek. hmmm...manusia itu pasti punya masalahnya sendiri2. sebagaimanapun keadaan manusia itu. kaya dan sehat ngga jadi jaminan juga. karena masih banyak aspek di hidup ini yang bisa digempur sama yg namanya masalah. dan kalo diliat2 lebih dalam lagi emank setiap orang pasti punya masalah tapi emank beda2. dan kadarnya pun keliatan beda2. tapi kadang2 kadar itu sebenernya sama aja. karena ketahanan setiap orang dalam menghadapi masalah itu juga beda2. jadi..*wait gue ketelak ricola! ahhh* ok yak lanjut..jadi..sebenernya...

dia berdiri di tengah segalanya di tengah ramai orang berjalan di sekelilingnya di tengah semua bisikan dan teriakan dia berdiri di tengah keramaian dan berdiam memandang dunianya memandang orang lain memandang dunianya dan dia masih disana berdiri di tengah segalanya memandang segalanya dan dia tidak beranjak hanya karena dia tidak ingin dan karena dia tidak bisa dan karena dia tidak tahu kemana dia akan pergi kemana dia akan menuju kemana dia akan melangkah kalau dia masih ingin ada disana di persimpangan jalan dia berdiam memandang semuanya dari matanya dan orang lain berlari menari berdiam tertawa menangis terpukau berbalik di sekitarnya dan dia berdiri di tengah segalanya entah ingin beranjak dan berdiam entah ingin memandang dan terpejam dia berdiri dan entah ingin kemana..

jadi nih udah brapa malem ini gue nginep di tempatnya hasan rame2.. hehe. dan baru skarang balik..piuh~ happy to come back to my lovely bantal. hahaha. kemaren tuh..iya kemaren padahal baru beberapa jam yg lalu. hahaha..yah gituh. gue ngeprint ulank tugas gue..dan..jengjeng..ga bisa ngebinding ulang karena jenis lobang buat masukin bindingannya beda. dan dimana2 gada yg sama. dan di tempat kemaren gue binding gada yg lebih gede lagi. sial abiz. tuz pas sampe rumah gue baru tau cd labelnya ga keprint. jadiii..gue kudu balik ke miso dan print lagi dan binding lagi. dll. sebel gilaaaa~ pheww~ dan mahal! asli mahal! kampret! tuz..hmmm..yeah..gue sempet chatting sama mantan lecture gue di jakarta. yahh intinya sampai pada pembicaraan bahwa..gapapa liar asal produktip. jleb. heheheh.. yahhh pokoknya gue tiba2 menyadari bahwa seneng2 dan kerja itu harus diimbangin..emank sih disini enak. gada yg ngawasin. bisa sneng2 terus. disini kan lingkungannya sama temen semua. jadi yahhh enak banget dib...

i 've just seen my illustration lecture's website and gallery . and..it's quite shocking and amazing at the same time.. okay..let me introduce him. his name is Ernesto Pujazon. he's a Peruvian. his class is on Monday. 9.30. sharp. sometimes he tolerates a few minutes. sometimes he asks them who are late to wait until class is finish. i prefer to meet him in the other day.hehehe. at the first time i entered his class. i felt so nervous and thought that he's a very neat and stiff lecture. as he has RULES in his class. and it's quite strict. i was afraid that i will fail in this class. since i still believe that i can not draw properly. and he looked like a porcelain-type-of-drawing lecture. it pissed me off at once. but then...i learn that..first impression sometimes isn't right 100%. we have so much assignments in his class. and it looks like very impossible to be done on time. 56 figure drawings. lines and colors. 2 weeks. 8 portraits. pencil, pencil colors...