As the year goes by...
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Doset daram
i remember there's a time my sister said, nothing's wrong. it's just the seed who doesn't match with the soil that it can't grow. it's my relationship. i knew him one year ago. being friends, became closer, and finally be together. it's wonderful. not always smooth way, it's bumpy and hard, but i never will to give up and just walk away. it's between my feeling and my stubbornness :P we're having great and bad times. fought, love, laugh, cry, mad, anything. and i always thought it will work, somehow. i believe it will work if both of us are trying to make things work. and when both of us are committed on what we have. he's very different than other people. sometimes he's sooooo different that it's hard to understand him. he's human, he has good and bad sides. and i love him anyway. it doesn't mean i never get mad or upset, yes i did, many times. but after the storm, the feeling is still there, with the same willingness ...
Little Note
do you know somehow i wish i can always share this road with you with your ultimate silliness but sharp insight with your unlimited annoyances but beautiful smile and laugh do you know i wish that we always have enough strength to conquer all of our problems all of our differences do you know somehow i wish we are never going to reach the end i wish you will fight for me more than this and i wish i can always smile for us. you're like a unique metal material in the middle of ribbons don't ask me why, it's the only visual i can get when i'm thinking of you. :)
Parachute by Ingrid Michaelson
i don't need a parachute, baby if i've got you, you're gonna catch me
Monthly Forecast
Hello. after, yes, another long pause. I'm now waiting for my files to be copied properly to my thumb drive. bought it around few days ago because i thought i need it. yes i need, but i need something that has more memory and faster! already used to external harddisk which can work very well and very fast. uhmph! i should buy a new xternal hdd than a thumb drive. but anyway...what's news? working life is just soooooooooooo busy. lotsa pressure, deadlines, people sometimes screaming, sometimes i feel so stupid that can't do any simple task properly, and all the lists go down and down and down and down. but anyway, somehow i still like it. well mostly because i do like what i'm doing. the not so good part is my payment doesn't really come on time. well, it's not a small matter anymore when you're depending on your own, not your parents anymore. bills, rent, daily living costs, everything is waiting for you. and that particular thing can distract your concent...
i didn't give you up so easy i did walk my extra miles for you 3 times don't you think it's enough? i'm not forgetting you i just can't stand to realize you're there before i come back that i can smell your perfume and i can imagine you're sleeping, like a baby i didn't reply you i don't wanna fall for you once again that will cause us another problem i'm picking up myself and walk away not because i don't appreciate you it's because you want to continue your life, changing your direction and i don't wanna be there clinging on you i love you azizam in the way you probably don't understand and you love me, i do believe in the way i probably don't understand also it's not my fault it's not yours as the seed and the ground sometimes it can produce a beautiful tree but sometimes nothing grows it's not the seed's fault, nor the ground's fault they're just not matching one another the seed isn't the seed ...
little note
after all i'm just like another girl that afraid of losing someone she loves and even more afraid if he ever finds somebody else to love this is the time when all theories are just like words, with no meaning and what i really care is to see him smile, and knowing the reason behind it is me.
He Won't Go by Adele
"Some say, I'll be better without you, but they don't know you like I do. Or at least the side I thought I knew"
