Pixie's Singing

Oh well, who would guess that I’d appreciate a simple supermarket shopping soooo much! In this quarantine time, I limit my going out activity as the issue hasn’t been resolved yet. So I only go out once a week approximately to refill my fridge. I tried different supermarket, noticed different meat type on each place, price differences etc. I learn a new thing from every place 😂 Denpasar is crowded again, not as crowded as usual, but it’s quite a lot. I understand people still need to make some living somehow. Hopefully things will be normal again soon! I got a surprise this morning, I’m losing weight. Quite a lot 🤣🤣 it must be from the cooking I’ve made myself for the past few weeks. Since I don’t exercise anyway 🙊 quite happy about it, and it proves that tummy is made in the kitchen. 

Well I heard it long time ago that love is a decision. Decision one made to love the other everyday. Decision that is taken everyday. Decision that you choose this person to be together with. Decision to still be there when the person seems like pushing you away. Decision to not leave the other person hanging.  It’s a verb and it’s something we choose everyday, every hour, all day all week all year as long as we still wanna be that person.  I also heard that when a man wanna be with you, he’ll make that happen. But if he doesn’t wanna be with you, no amount of effort and so called love will make him stay.  That stuff becomes real and more real in my life everyday. I don’t think it applies only for men and only about relationship. I think that applies to any ship to anyone.   And the hardest part from my point of view, is to let that thing go, without hurting you too deep. I’m really slow at leaving and walking away. So slow. Too stubborn. I think that’s my aries and ...

Ceritanya udah nganggur sekitar sebulanan. I received a lot of questions of "how does it feel after you resigned?" "so jealous of you" oh well you know. Sejujurnya baru berasa enak ga enaknya sekarang ini sih..hehe..After my resignation I was quite busy. I moved place (packing is like hell), unpacked my stuff, did all the stuff you need to do when you just move to a new place..with my current condition it aint' something easy to do. Then I travelled for a week. Jadi baru sekarang bener - bener punya ruang dan waktu untuk napas. Sincerely I'll say it's sooooooooo nice not to have wake up in the morning by alarm. Jam kantor ngga lagi bikin pusing dan takut, malah sebenernya bangunnya lebih pagi dari pas ngantor. Bangun tidur santai, guling2 di bawah sinar matahari, dan sarapan dengan tenang. Mau tidur lagi setelah itu atau mulai aktifitas, terserah kitanya. Bahagia banget. Apalagi kalau lagi hari ke dokter. Ngga ada rasa bersalah lagi karena ngantri dokt...

it's the last day of 2014. and it's been months since my last writing. things changed a bit, but i actually miss blabbering on my blog. hehe.. well, this year was amazing. ups and downs like roller coaster. sometimes i screamed, sometimes i hid, sometimes i enjoyed the ride. few things happened, a lot of interesting people. well, what a year :) few things i wish i can say it directly to the person but it seems impossible now without getting over reaction, so yeah let me spill it out here. guardian, i somehow wish we can still be friend. with whatever reason, reason i can't even explain. it's easier to get angry with you, or with myself by making bad choices. but i'm not accustomed to stray away people from my life. you were something, now or long time ago im not sure, to me. in a cheesy way, i was like mirroring myself when i saw you. negative and positive pole. something. i wish you were really happy when we share some moments. and of course i wish you the best...

I just lost my phone. again. and tired of question 'how come?'. just shut up (after being asked 20 times). anyway i got a new phone. samsung galaxy chat. finally i left nokia. hahaa. it's nice. but the keypad sucks, to be honest. i hope it will last for 1 year or more. and the battery is crazy. need to charge it once a day, and it's a new phone. well. sickness of smartphone :P *playing with new gadget* jimbaran as its best :*

It's been ages that i've never been writing. my life...is going as it is. having a job, trying to save money to buy a new mobile or if i cant resist, to buy another tickets. hehe. i dont have that much saving. gotta work on myself for that. i've just getting over someone. some people said i must move on earlier. but damn, it's a whole lot process. you cant just forget someone whom give you so much to remember. read that somewhere on pinterest. well but in the end of the day, it's not about the other people. it's bout you and what you want. about you and how you take yourself. about you and how you see yourself. about you and how you value your life and mostly yourself. easier to say than done. hehe. but i'm thankful for every single thing that happened to me. every single smiles and tears i've been through. i am not a perfect person, never will be one. but yeah i am happy and should be happy with my life. sometimes i have tons of things on my mind. a...

#nowplaying Beautiful Girl by Jose Marichan. ok forgive me if there's something wrong with the song title of the singer, it what appears in my winamp. anyway, it's been a long time i've never talked about my daily l ife (read : blabbering). hehe..so yeah, i finally turned on my old h dd that has never been turned on for...over a year. and wow, i was like findi ng a hidden treasure. it brings back my memory as i found a lot of old pictures, my song pla ylist s ( thank GOD!) and some of movies i' ve never been watching. so y eaayyyy! am hap py t o finally try to find the cable and turn it on. friends come and go. people come and go. everything come and go. lif e. it's sometimes unfair but it's alwa ys good in the end. i've been holding to something so hard before. until i hurt myself, and i hurt him. just to find out that without holding it, he will still be there. but we decide not to be on the same road anymore. well, i still love him in some ways. b...

Ola..this is the 2nd series that i finish. hahahah..the story is just adorable! the casts, the jokes, so much fun in the middle of this working life. hahaa..and i'm happy the next season is coming. yeay! :D oh well, no, i watched cashmere mafia also :D that one is great also! different setting and story but the dialog is oh so smart ;) well, i'm still working here in malaysia. sometimes feel i wanna run away. but arghhh not so easy. just did some research about visa and well, hussles. really crave to go to bali, have a pina colada in my hand and watch the sunset. life can't be more beautiful than that, can it? hahahaha :D instead, now i'm here. one of the things that make me alive is my freelance jobs. somehow it's more interesting. hahahaha..i hope everything will just run well. :)

Hello. after, yes, another long pause. I'm now waiting for my files to be copied properly to my thumb drive. bought it around few days ago because i thought i need it. yes i need, but i need something that has more memory and faster! already used to external harddisk which can work very well and very fast. uhmph! i should buy a new xternal hdd than a thumb drive. but anyway...what's news? working life is just soooooooooooo busy. lotsa pressure, deadlines, people sometimes screaming, sometimes i feel so stupid that can't do any simple task properly, and all the lists go down and down and down and down. but anyway, somehow i still like it. well mostly because i do like what i'm doing. the not so good part is my payment doesn't really come on time. well, it's not a small matter anymore when you're depending on your own, not your parents anymore. bills, rent, daily living costs, everything is waiting for you. and that particular thing can distract your concent...

just watched it on monday. another great movie anyway! i love the storyline, the problems, the settings, the characters, the acts. amazing. how holmes' thinking. and there are 2 holmes anyway, surprising hahahahhaa. i really enjoy watching this :) and it's good to finally touch the civilization. hehehhe..happy~ well, i had another teeth operation on monday. still had one more tooth to be taken out and it's harder than before. the dentist already said that it'll hurt more than before and yes it is. and brilliantly, when i met my friends at one shopping mall, i left the medicine at my sister's car and she went somewhere else. such a disaster! thx God my friends were there and I'm showed how much love i have and how many people do really care of me. sadly, someone who's close to my heart is the one who's breaking my heart to pieces that day. but anyway, probably we have to be in that situation to really see reality. :) well, my bro's wedding is coming a...

yeah, hellow. after a very long pause. i'm in jakarta. have just reached 2 days ago. waiting for my working visa while i'm working at home via online. disaster. i left 300 file links at my office and really wanted to teleport at once! even i have a way out not to leave it as missing links (which is very very fatal) but it needs a lot of works! 300 links! it's the same like putting a new images as much as 300. yeah, crazy. it took me 2 days to finish everything. but anyway i did it yay! so now waiting for my boss to comment on that project. anyhow..i still don't like living in jakarta. hahaha..the dust, flies, transportation, anything. well there are few things i like actually; my family, my bed, the food. hehe..somehow i miss bali quite bad. walking for 5 minutes and you'll find a lot of interesting things. beach, foreigner, food, anything to see and enjoy. here, you walk 5 minutes and end up in the middle of the road full of vehicles and dust, again. arghhhh~ well,...

sometimes i do act like this :D

so hi..this is something i don't like when i'm working. no time for blogging. when i reach back home, i just don't wanna touch the laptop anymore, besides have to tidy up the room, do some laundry, wash some dishes. after everything it's night already and just wanna sleep at once. oh life...why you no more exciting? hehee..it's not that i don't like my working life. it is different than my student life before. but yeah it has its own benefit and things to lose also. so far i like what i'm doing. even sometimes i think i like other field of career. *oh damn blogger was crashed and i have to rewrite everything* so yeah, i seems to like other career field. i like being involved with something going on. well, like maintaining facebook account when i had the final exhibition. updating the status, seeing the comments, replying..there's always something new everyday. fun! and for designing itself, i like doing things for restaurants, hotels, hostels, any not re...

yeah i've just thought that the lazy days are coming but nope i was wrong. this is my 2nd day of working in the company. well, i plan to work only for 1 week until next wednesday. but i have to finish the project by then. well, wish me luck. i'm making something like a pocket book which reminds me of biology class on high school a lot. haha. still got pages to go. ufff..and i don't know why it's more tiring to work than to have internship (oh well, you think?) but seriously, i did quite the same thing, sitting in front of the computer all day long and doing things. now my ankle sometimes hurts, especially when i've just stood up.ughh..feels like so old :[ i spent 2 hours to reach the office since it's like in the other side of the world from cyberjaya. *sigh* hope it'll be better when i have moved nearby. yay! :D so far i like what i'm doing and i hope it'll last long. amen :)

not really sih. yeah i've got the job here in malaysia but i haven't got the visa and the company said it's a really hard time to get one. so yeah, pray for the best that everything will be just fine in the end. i hope the visa will be done within 2 months and i'll be back here soon. damn, it's so hard to leave such a place you've been living for 3,5 years. in the other hand, now it's time for the lazy days again. lalala~ since okay i don't have anything particular to be done. so let's enjoy the last 2 weeks i have here. it doesn't even sound good anyway but..arghhh..yeah so i plan to enjoy day by day i have here until my flight back to jakarta. Kane Chronicle by Rick Riordan is still waiting for me. ;)

heyhooo...hehee..well it's been quite a long time i never write anything here. my life's kinda busy..well euphoria and happiness after graduation only last for 1 week and then the stress came to find a job. since i'm a foreigner, there are a lot of problems on the process. the most highlighted is visa and working permit. it's expensive and sometimes company don't wanna take the risk to apply for you, in case you'll run away and don't wanna work with them again. but if u have to apply it by yourself, it's hard to be issued too. so yeah, complicated. and for my field as graphic designer, here in malaysia there are lotsa graduated graphic designers and the government wants the companies to give priority to the local first. well, that's a good policy to be honest. but yeah, be a problem for me also, since again i'm a foreigner. but so far, thx God, i have 2 job offerings. one of them will probably give me the 2nd interview, which i really hope that i...

have just watched this movie. finally! hahaa..well it's interesting to know how they began and everything. the relationship between magneto, professor x, and mystique. i respect her more now. hehehe. i really like the story, the casts, and all the acts inside it. greaaaattttt. they were teenagers and they acted like one. quite realistic. hehe. well, the ending of course leads to magneto's movie that will come..i guess. so will see it of course. xmen is a movie series that i like to watch. well, it's not sitcom for television so the episodes are still reasonable. great movie yippieee :D well, now back to work. still have one web tech journal and one interactive to be done. okay see you~ oh by the way, the 3rd picture is havok, kinda feels like cyclopes. well, he's charming :P

so yeah, this is what i have been doing for almost one week. and finally it's almost over now! yay! hehe..but i still have one interactive portfolio to be done. well, a lot of works but i hope everything will be just fine in the end. so that's a html website. i like the design but some may say it's too packed. hehee..well, i'm taking a day off today. gotta rest after all the pressure :)

so yeah this is going to be the end of this semester. another 2 weeks and i'll have my final exhibition. but yes i still have many things to do. tons actually. and yes i'm struggling with the time and those works. currently i still have 1 journal, 1 html website, 1 interactive portfolio, and one final exhibition. well that's a lot. andd i just hope i can finish it on time with a good result. damn me and my last minute habit. well yah i will finish what i have started, but when everything goes too smoothly, i get bored. my bad. hehe. want to watch x-men. it's said to be the best x-men movie so far. well, i the normal quality of those movies, so i expect to be really amazed by this one. we'll see. if i can we'll go on monday. hahaaa yeah good girl, in the middle of this hecticness you still have time for a movie. very nice. hmmm..and a little bit about my personal life. well yeah i'm impulsive and impatient, hate to be ignored or being an option. but yet i sti...

lately, i feel so damn bored. i mean..well, i like my study, my assignments, my life here, my dreams, but..okay that's all. not that i'm not thankful for the quite smooth situation i'm facing here. but somehow..it feels like one straight boring line. and after i think again, i'm not really fancy it. :\ for all my years of study, i've never felt this way. usually i always enjoy the learning process and doing my assignments was kinda fun. nowadays, yes it's still enjoyable. but that's all. like doing it..but that's all. kinda...boring. again. not interesting. but in the other hand, i'm a kinda workaholic person. doing nothing somehow makes me feel guilty. when i know i actually have works to do. but too lazy and too not interested in doing them. hummm..such a contradiction no? anyway i'm not asking you to understand my brain. hahaa. me myself can't understand it sometimes. :P my housemate said that maybe it's the time to move on from my lev...