Pixie's Singing

Oh Happy New Year! Out of randomness I watched this movie titled Plus One. It's a light movie, realistic, and made me laugh. Typical case these days about finding the one and how...the concept we may have inside all this time doesn't really apply anymore in this reality. Or, we did pick a false understanding of what the one should be like. It also shows maybe too many of us are actually afraid of love, being together forever, etc etc etc because the ugly part of it. Even though it warms you, it brightens your day, it makes things are so much better, it may shake you, hurt you, shape you harshly, and basically everything you've known your thought might need to adjust. And nope, it's not an easy thing  to do. To let go, to accept, and to make peace. To show courage, to be brave and start over, to just have fun. I might be one of those. It's just too tiring to "keep losing", it's too tiring to get hurt. It needs a great deal of effort to tell ...

Oh life you’re always something. I fell in and out of love so many times to you, to myself, to my journey. But hey, you’re still a gem in the end. So many things to know, experience and understand. So many things I need to learn, re-learn, adjust my focus and perception. Sometimes I feel like it’s too many things at once and I’m not sure how I can handle all this. But hey...there you are, telling me that it’s okay and I’ll figure it out just in time. Life you’re something.

Ceritanya udah nganggur sekitar sebulanan. I received a lot of questions of "how does it feel after you resigned?" "so jealous of you" oh well you know. Sejujurnya baru berasa enak ga enaknya sekarang ini sih..hehe..After my resignation I was quite busy. I moved place (packing is like hell), unpacked my stuff, did all the stuff you need to do when you just move to a new place..with my current condition it aint' something easy to do. Then I travelled for a week. Jadi baru sekarang bener - bener punya ruang dan waktu untuk napas. Sincerely I'll say it's sooooooooo nice not to have wake up in the morning by alarm. Jam kantor ngga lagi bikin pusing dan takut, malah sebenernya bangunnya lebih pagi dari pas ngantor. Bangun tidur santai, guling2 di bawah sinar matahari, dan sarapan dengan tenang. Mau tidur lagi setelah itu atau mulai aktifitas, terserah kitanya. Bahagia banget. Apalagi kalau lagi hari ke dokter. Ngga ada rasa bersalah lagi karena ngantri dokt...

Few years have passed since I stopped writing. I used to write almost everyday, about my day, my feeling, my thoughts, a lot. Then life happened and I kinda stopped. Which I regret now...hehe I never realized how therapeutic blogging was. It gives me a place and time to feel, to swear, to be thankful, to create my world, to open my mask and basically to get in touch with myself. Now that I'm not 9-5 person anymore, I just got time to do a lot of things I've been wanting to do. No my life didn't turn 180 degree just in a snap. There are many things I have to take care inside. It's thousands baby steps I'm gonna go through. I started reading again, a real book. I started drawing again..and now writing. It's funny how simple things actually mean a lot to me. It brings me closer to myself and gosh...how far I've been leaving it. Because I'm busy, because other things are more important, because other things are more interesting. But really nothing is mor...

Hi cyberworld, it's been a while since I wrote the last time. My life has been...crazy and lively with all angles it can reach. And well, here I am, back to home closer than ever. Mix feeling..I like the new adventure, the new pages, and well just some changes. I miss the beach, sunset, and smoothie bowl. I finally found one around here tho, so yeah. hahaha.. It's funny how people's life evolves. I finally at the part to learn how to be chill, because that's a wise thing to do. It's either I'm getting wiser or I'm getting more ignorant I'm not too sure. I found someone I could only imagine. Someone I think don't exist in this world. And tada...there he is. Filled lots of my so called check lists. No it's not some unrealistic wishes, I just know what kind of person I'm interested with. And he has too many checked already. And of course life happens, distance happens, and people happens. I got to know him more and more, open one layer to th...

hellow again world :D wel l, it's been a very long break since my last post . since...around 1 month ago my life was ups ide down like roller coaster. i've been living for a round 3 months without my salary, which was promised to come but even i never s ee the shadow. i've been 'fighting' for my way out o f malaysia. i' ve been crying, laughing, being thankful, being hurt , stress to the max. hehehe. i lea rned a lot too.  first of all, for all fresh graduates , please get the black and white contract with your company you're about to join! no matter what they say no matter what circumstances it is. you must have that. easy for you easy for them. and it's your own damn right to have that. 2nd thing, keep your passport with yo u. they may need it to process the working visa, but please ask them to give it back to you whatever it is, soon! no one can a ctually hold your passport even single day. it's cou nt ry's document, unless you, no one can ...

Flying High Wawan Yap Lyrics with MP3

this is one of the most amazing books i've ever read. even if it's more intended to married couple, but i have gained a lot of useful information from this book. people usually have 5 languages to express their love : quality time, words of affirmation, gifts, acts of service, and physical touch. every people may have their preferred love language to express their feeling. and usually, a couple may have different love language one to another. well, it's probably a simple thing, but i never know it before. and it's really helpful. after being in a relationship with a person, usually we have fights and a lot of problems. that's something we can't skip in having a relationship with someone. but in the side of loving, there's a way to make it still blooms like in the beginning. just like having a car, if we always use it but never fill the tank, it will go nowhere. same thing like having a relationship with someone, if we don't fill their love tank, first it...

"i won't give up on us, even if the sky gets rough"

"Some say, I'll be better without you, but they don't know you like I do. Or at least the side I thought I knew"

Two of the hardest tests in life: The patience to wait for the right moment and the courage to accept that you've waited for nothing.

i'm dancing in the middle of the mist and running in the middle of teardrops of the sky i'm looking around and see the cloud i'm looking around and see the ground i'm slow dancing in the middle of the lake i'm daydreaming in the middle of the tree

so it was my brother's wedding on the 1st day of 2012! was a tiring but also exciting day :) i wish him a great full of love live until the last day of his journey :) and also the same wish for the bride :) have a happy life everyone! :)

just watched it on monday. another great movie anyway! i love the storyline, the problems, the settings, the characters, the acts. amazing. how holmes' thinking. and there are 2 holmes anyway, surprising hahahahhaa. i really enjoy watching this :) and it's good to finally touch the civilization. hehehhe..happy~ well, i had another teeth operation on monday. still had one more tooth to be taken out and it's harder than before. the dentist already said that it'll hurt more than before and yes it is. and brilliantly, when i met my friends at one shopping mall, i left the medicine at my sister's car and she went somewhere else. such a disaster! thx God my friends were there and I'm showed how much love i have and how many people do really care of me. sadly, someone who's close to my heart is the one who's breaking my heart to pieces that day. but anyway, probably we have to be in that situation to really see reality. :) well, my bro's wedding is coming a...