Pixie's Singing

Well, hi. hehe. another long pause. i turned 24 2 days ago. been great. i had a great time with myself at day and another great time with my friends at night. been dating myself for the whole day. it's supposed to be my time to reflect and think about my life and everything. what have i done..well i got over someone who doesnt really fit me well. i finally got over the bad relationship but i still have to move on with my life. learn again to build a relationship with new person. because i know it's not fair to judge them based on other people's fault. so yeah, i'm learning to trust and to build relationship with new person :) i hope it's gonna be well. i cant guarantee the result will be perfect but i think it's time for me to face my fear. and to come back to reality where you have to deal with other people especially man in my life. haha it seems like romance and man is a big deal in my life right now. oh well yes it is. besides my career that's going on...

:) i just reread one writing, made by my favourite enemy. he's a guy. my best but stupid friends. hahaha. known him for.....years. 9 years i guess. he was my biggest enemy when i was in junior high. he's a person who never watched what he said and how he could affect people by his words. and one day we hurt each other so bad, which i still regret till now. but then one day everything changed. one of us apologizing and we start talking like normal people. and somehow we're getting closer and i realize he's not that bastard. hahaha. and somehow, we synchronize each other. still, he was still annoying and sometimes i just wanted to beat him with anything hard. just to make him awake and see what he can do with his words and acts. he's not as bad as the first time i met him, but still, annoying. haha. we're like growing up together, in different place in different circumstance. sometimes we didn't even talk for months just because one of us was getting hurt...

just watched it on monday. another great movie anyway! i love the storyline, the problems, the settings, the characters, the acts. amazing. how holmes' thinking. and there are 2 holmes anyway, surprising hahahahhaa. i really enjoy watching this :) and it's good to finally touch the civilization. hehehhe..happy~ well, i had another teeth operation on monday. still had one more tooth to be taken out and it's harder than before. the dentist already said that it'll hurt more than before and yes it is. and brilliantly, when i met my friends at one shopping mall, i left the medicine at my sister's car and she went somewhere else. such a disaster! thx God my friends were there and I'm showed how much love i have and how many people do really care of me. sadly, someone who's close to my heart is the one who's breaking my heart to pieces that day. but anyway, probably we have to be in that situation to really see reality. :) well, my bro's wedding is coming a...

so yes i know it's been so long ago but i just have time (and internet) to post it here. i went to singapore because visa thing. so i was there for 2 days 1 night. i met my friends there and we went around together. nice thing :) well, i wish someone's there but apparently he's not. haha.. i already forget most of the places we went. i forget the exact name..but i stayed at the little red dot backpacker hostel. it's really nice! it's located at lavender street. it has good room with good bed and air cond. it's new also anyway. free breakfast. clean and nice bathroom. friendly staff. free internet and wifi! and it's just next to Lavender Bus Station, where I took a bus coming back to malaysia. just crossed the road and taraaa i'm there. the bus is transnasional :) well, i wasn't expecting to go there alone but with my bf. but damn thing happened and his visa isn't ready yet. to be honest i was really happy to have an idea to travel together with...

lately, i feel so damn bored. i mean..well, i like my study, my assignments, my life here, my dreams, but..okay that's all. not that i'm not thankful for the quite smooth situation i'm facing here. but somehow..it feels like one straight boring line. and after i think again, i'm not really fancy it. :\ for all my years of study, i've never felt this way. usually i always enjoy the learning process and doing my assignments was kinda fun. nowadays, yes it's still enjoyable. but that's all. like doing it..but that's all. kinda...boring. again. not interesting. but in the other hand, i'm a kinda workaholic person. doing nothing somehow makes me feel guilty. when i know i actually have works to do. but too lazy and too not interested in doing them. hummm..such a contradiction no? anyway i'm not asking you to understand my brain. hahaa. me myself can't understand it sometimes. :P my housemate said that maybe it's the time to move on from my lev...

so we have to make one showreel for multimedia class. this is what i come out with. it's actually my friend's idea to make stop motion, because at first i wanna make an animation for it. he said why do you have to make it harder, let's try something easier. so then he and another friend of mine helped me doing this video. have to shoot frame by frame one by one. sometimes it's kinda confusing to create the movement or transitions inside it, but in the end we made it yay! when i checked the results after that, there're few mistakes on them. not focus, blur, etc. but after i edited and put the song together, it looks nice! hahaha. i like it so much! :) will show my lecture next week. hope he's fine with it too. maybe have to edit it once again, but later. hahaha..happy for it! :)

taken with my friend's iphone..it uses somekind of application to make it looks like lomo.. i wan those kind of camera for so long! and now it's easily there inside an iphone. now iphone becomes interesting. hahaaa..

21 YEARS OLD! no..no fancy wish.. just a big thanks for this amazing 21 years :)

last night i had a movie night with my girls. the first movie is Life As We Know It. this is something i wanna watch from a long time, but i was failed catching this movie on theater. like the others drama romance movie, it's nice. nice actors, actresses, and story line. josh duhamel is charming. hahaa. but the greatest thing is the baby actress. she's soooooooo cute :D if this sentence comes from me, trust me it's true. i rarely say little kids to be cute. hehee.. perfect combination ;) the 2nd movie is Gulliver's Travels. funny and a bit drama movie. it tells about one mail man in a magazine company. he learned how to be 'bigger' than just his words. he's sent to a journey that changed his point of view and himself. yeah sometimes you have to go away from your cubicle to get to know a lot of things. even to know yourself. nice movie :D

and i'm officially 21 years old! hahaha..it's not the number that matters, it's the moment i have for the whole day! :D my friends gave me a surprise birthday party after 12 midnight. yes i know they're making something, but be in the moment is one of the most amazing feelings! to see that you're loved so much by people you love too :) people asked me about my wish, well it's no fancy wish, it's a big thanks for the most amazing 21 years of my life, including all people that have appeared in my life. all the lessons learned. all the teachers, friends, foes, everyone. they make myself today :) happy happy happy! :D "friends are family you choose"

have just talked with one of my friends here. one of the topics is about the future. what are we gonna do after the graduation. we're both unsure about what to do. we know the big plan, but realize in reaching certain level, we'll face problems and everything. yeah, normal thing to happen. me..what do i wanna do? i have the whole big plan in my mind. for 1 or 2 years, i wanna work here, or singapore, or maybe bali. just don't wanna come back to jakarta yet, except there's an interesting offer waiting for me. hehee. but so far jakarta is so unappealing for me. maybe the fee is the same with jakarta, but i'm willing to live in bali more than jakarta. haha. and i don't know when but i wanna go to uk and learn about surface pattern. related to pattern etc. i really love that kind of thing, since i'm crazy about details. and i was born at the country where batik was born. that's something i wanna do later on. i still believe that printing, 2d, and something t...

hellow again...*silent moment* i don't know what i wanna write. haha. well, i have lotsa things on my mind. in one hand i wanna scream it out loud, but in the other hand i just wanna keep it for myself because i know nothing can be done. maybe not really nothing, but it's a really really hard thing to do, and i seem like don't have enough energy, courage, and bravery to do or even think about what to do right now. if there's someone who's worrying about me, don't.it's just the most famous complicated thing but yet makes the world goes around too. something called love. but in my case, let's not talking about love. it's still far far away. let's say that i dear someone so much right now. and yes, when someone gets your heart, he or she will have the same power to make you to be the happiest person in the world and also the most suffering one. falling for someone is like giving a gun to them, let them point it right to your heart, give the power fo...

so i went to bali again last week :D i never think that i'll be back to this island before i have a job and save my money. i was once thinking that it's quite impossible to come back to the island this soon. but i just did! with my own money, and it makes me happy :) i was there from thursday till sunday. when i was planning this trip a month before, i thought it'd be enough to have 4 days and 3 nights in bali. i was definitely wrong! i was craving for more!!! :( but anyway, so yeah, that's how long i stayed there. boarding pass. we're ready to go! arrived in bali in the evening and we went straight to the hotel. TUNE HOTEL DOUBLE SIX. it's quite good hotel. pretty much cheap. you pay for what you use (aircond, toiletries, wifi, etc). the location is good, the bed's nice, and i pretty much like my room. hehehehe. it's Rp 300.000 per night, including the tax, but not aircond and blablabla. i think it's better to book from the internet than just walk i...