Pixie's Singing

tidak seperti apa yg gue sangka tadi pagi! hahahahahahah...jam 10 an gue udah senyum2 kembali. kenapa? coz dia sms dan nanya kenapa nada sms gue bgituh. dia gak marah koq ma gue. hahahahhaahah...dengan begonya gue cengar cengir di busway! heheheeh....yaaa gimana yah gituh. seneng sih gue. =P love is blind. maybe yes it's true. hehehehe..dari apa yg telah terjadi sih iya. ckckckc..sukses membuat gue berasa jadi orang paling bego. ckckckc..eca. yaa secara yaa..gue marah2 sama dia pun gue masih bisa cengar cengir goblok gituh. heheheh..pernah sih ya sampe gue marah banget dan ga mo ngomong sama dia. tapi biz itu dia say sorry dan ngaku salah. udah deh. abiz itu tamat sudah. hehehe..baikan lagi. gue juga sih. kalo misal gue salah yaaa gue say sorry ma dia dan bilang kenapa gue begituh. udah sih selesai ^^ senangnyah. hehehehe...seneng kenal sama orang kaya dia. even banyak yg ngga sepaham juga sama gue. tapi karena ngga sepaham itu gue jadi suka ngobrol sama dia. abiz enak aja gituh. m...

hmmm..dapet sms hari ni tadi pagi. cukup bikin shock dan yaa gituh. mungkin emang lebih baik begituh yah? jujurnya sih emang gue ngga pernah rela 100% sampe detik ini. ngerelain seseorang itu ngga akan pernah mudah. apalagi kalau dia berarti banget buat kita. apalagi kalau dia udah punya part yg gede di hidup kita. akan makin susah kalau ternyata emang kita merelakan bukan karena ingin merelakan tapi karena harus merelakan. susahnya double sodara sodari. tapi emang kapan sih manusia merelakan sesuatu yang berharga dari dirinya diambil? ngga akan pernah sih sepertinya. tapi ngga akan pernah itu pun suatu saat pasti akan datang juga. jadi sama aja. sepaket deh. mungkin itu yg harus gue inget2. segimananyapun gue benci kehilangan orang yg gue sayang, toh saat2 gue kehilangan itu pun juga akan dateng. heheheh...hidup, mendapatkan dan kehilangan. sangat normal. hehehe..tapi ngga semudah itu sih buat ngelewatin masa2 kehilangan itu. tapi gue sendiri ngga bisa sebel 100% sama dia. terlalu ban...

i'm reading my fs blog. and guess what i've found? that i have really really changed a lot. into the bad side. hahahahaha..it's all clear now why i feel like an idiot nowadays. i don't believe that i've written that such things. it's amazing. hahahaha...now i look into myself and find that there are a lot of missing pieces there. that i've forgotten a lot of precious things that i've realized and accepted and changed all things into the bad ones. seems like i've closed my mind and it became narrower than ever. is it? i don't know. maybe yeah. because i've been hypnotized with a lot of stupid things on my mind...that i live my own life. hahaha..the next question is "what kind of life do u live in?" i know it sounds silly, maybe..hehehe. i'll continue reading my blog. and maybe i could find lights there..hehehe...

When the idea is not right, God says, "NO". No - when the idea is not the best. No - when the idea is absolutely wrong. No - when though it may help you, It would create problems for someoneelse. When the time is not right, God says, "SLOW". What a catastrophe it would be if God answered every prayer at the snap of your fingers. Do you know what would happen? God would become your servant, not your master. Suddenly God would be working for you instead of you working for God. When you are not right, God says,"GROW". The selfish person has to grow in unselfishness. The cautious person must grow in courage. The timid person must grow in confidence, The dominating person must grow in sensitivity. The critical person must grow in tolerance. The negative person must grow in positive attitudes. The pleasure-seeking person must grow in compas sion for suffering people. When everything is all right, God says,"GO". Then miracles happen: A hopeless alcoholi...

ceritanya sih sjak dipasangin astro di rumah jadi sering nonton. dan kemaren nemu film ni di Disney Channel. judulnya Jump in. ceritanya ttg 1 co namanya Izzy yg jadi boxer. dia punya tetangga ce namanya Mary. kalau Izzy itu boxer, Mary itu double dutcher. pertamanya sih Izzy cuma ngeliat itu sebagai permainan aja. tapi lama2 dia sadar kalau ternyata dia suka sama double dutch dan mulai mandang itu sebagai sesuatu yang serius dan olahraga yang layak, even buat co. dan someday dia bener2 harus milih antara boxing (yang diliatnya cool abiz) atau double dutch (dimana dia sempet diledekin sama temen2nya karena mereka nganggep double dutch itu ngga ada co2nya sama sekali). ceritanya sih simple. tapi filmnya bagus. sukses deh mereka bisa bikin double dutch jadi keren banget diliat. pertamanya gue mikir, gila, lompat tali doang? tapi pas liad gimana caranya Mary ngelakuin itu, cuma 1 kata "wow". jadi keren banget. udah kaya gabung sama break dance gituh. gilaa..hebat banget deh. heh...

lagi berpikir2 nih. mo masuk graphic design apa interior. i love both of them. hikx. hidup ini penuh pilihan. dan kadang2 semuanya sama2 menarik. yah kaya begini deh. bingung ada juga. kayanya dah banyak gitu orang graphic. begitu umum dimana2. tapi kalo interior gue ga tau krjaannya gimana tar dapetnya. lebih susah sepertinyah. lalala~ bingung euy.. tar sih katanya anak2 mo berangkat bareng ke malay. tapi itu tanggal 14 ato 15 gituh. hmmm..bisa gak ya. bentrok ni sama jadwal sidangnya si cc. (-.-")

[ ] The dark *sometimez..tuz??* =P [ ] Staying single forever * not really =P* [ ] Being a parent *dunno..hahahaha* [ ] Giving birth[Dont tick if ure a boy..] *i dunno..teknologi semakin maju bukan?? heheeh* [ ] Being myself in front of others *i am not. but sometimes i don't want* [ ] Open spaces *not really..hahaha* [x] Closed spaces *yaya..i hate this one* [ ] Heights *hmm..tak* [x] Cats *hate it...hahahaha* [ ] Dogs *sometimez* [ ] Birds *nope..kecuali burung gede banget di utan ngjar2 gue* [ ] Fish *kecuali hiu dan ikan2 ganas lainnya..piranha? yes i'm afraid* [ ] Spiders *nope..haha..* [ ] Driving or being in cars *love it babe* [ ] Flying * i wish i could* [ ] Flowers or other plants *they're beautiful please* [ ] Being touched *hee?? maxud lo?* [ ] Fire *i'm tired of giving comments..hahaha* * ni hari kamis n gue mo lanjut kasih komen..hahahaha...i like fire..anget ^^* [ ] Deep water * nope..love swimming..but i hate dark n cold water* [ ] The ocean * love it.....

biz nonton Quickie Express di CL. hmm..mayan sih. filmnya dodol gituh. hahahah..lucu. tapi bahasanya lebih gila n gak disensor. mayang sering bikin ketawa2. tapi belakang2nya ngga juga sih. biasa ajah. hehehe..settingan ntah taun kapan. hehehe..kaya jaman nenek moyang gituh. hmm..tuz yg gue sebel pake nge hang segala. ampun de tuh. tiba2 layar jadi item tuz jadi merah n ada tulisan "maaf kenyamanan anda terganggu" hahahaha...filmnya kaya minjem =P perjuangan sampe CL sana deh. nungguin dari rumah gue nun lama begitu. sejam ada kali tuh. gila. sampe Clnya sih gak lama2 banget. langsung dapet yg Pulogadung Kali Deres. heheheh..senangnyah ^^ tuz tadi pulangnya juga gak rame sih. ^^ mayan lah. senang senang. hehehe sekarang sih yah dah senang2 lagi. tadi gue bete banget. dunno lah. dari kemaren sih sebenernya. tak taw kenapa. sekarang dah mendingan biz ngomong2 ma lydia ^^ mood gue sangat2 sungguh mudah berubah. =P

Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing Especially when I have to watch other people kissing And I remember when you started calling me your Mrs All the play fighting All the flirtatious disses I’d tell you sad stories about my childhood I dunno why I trusted you but I knew that I could We’d spend the whole weekend Lying in our own dirt I was just so happy In your boxers and your t-shirt Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things Dreams of you and me It seems, it seems That I can’t shake those memories I wonder if you have the same dreams too The littlest things that take me there I know it sounds lame but it’s so true I know it’s not right but it seems unfair That thing’s are reminding me of you Sometimes I wish we could just pretend Even if only for one weekend So come on Tell me Is this the end? Drinkin’ tea in bed, watchin’ DVD’s When I discovered all your dirty, grotty magazines You’d take me out shopping And all we’d buy is trainer...

Riding through the city on my bike all day Cause the filth took away my license It doesn't get me down and I feel ok Cause the sights that I'm seeing are priceless Everything seems to look as it should But I wonder what goes on behind doors A fella looking dapper, but he's sittin with a slapper Then I see it's a pimp and his crack whore You might laugh you might frown Walkin' round London town Chorus Sun is in the sky oh why oh why ? Would I wanna be anywhere else Sun is in the sky oh why oh why ? Would I wanna be anywhere else When you look with your eyes Everything seems nice But if you look twice You can see it's all lies There was a little old lady, who was walkin down the road She was struggling with bags from Tesco There were people from the city havin lunch in the park I believe that it's called al fresco Then a kid came along to offer a hand But before she had time to accept it Hits her over the head, doesn't care if she...

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku Dan anggap ku tak ada Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku Kepadamu Kuyakin pasti suatu saat Semua kan terjadi Kau kan mencintaiku Dan tak akan pernah melepasku Aku mau mendampingi dirimu Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu Apapun terjadi Kujanjikan aku ada Kau boleh jauhi diriku Namun kupercaya Kau kan mencintaiku Dan tak akan pernah melepasku Aku mau mendampingi dirimu Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu Aku yang rela terluka Untukmu selalu tadi siang gue denger lagu ni jadi theme songnya sinetron guruku jagoan apa apalah gue gak tau sih lupa judulnya. hahahaha...ceritanya mayan bagus dan lucu sih ^^. yg main juga bagus. ada si bobby joseph *lupa gimana nulis namanya*..ganteng. hahahaah..ni baru dapet lagunya. ngembat di 4shared.com ^^ senangnyaaaaaaaa..heheheeh...lagunya enak euy. *daydreaming* lagi gak mood banget hari ni. ngga ada final project lagi. bingung mau ngapain. hahahaha *sok gaya banget* phew..ntahlah. sedang bingung. dunno what to do....

gue suka banget lagu itu. baru denger kemaren. pas gue naik metromini ke cempaka mas. ada pengamen cewe 2 orang. nyanyi lagu itu versi indonya. dan gue suka liad mereka nyanyi. coz actually the sang with their heart. it sounds amazing. ^^ hari ni udah final presentation. i think we did it well.heheheheeh....tadi dateng calon guru2 semester depan gitu. tuz ada senior dikit. hehehehe..senang sih hari ni. segalanya udahan. beban gila2an itu udah keangkat. heheheeh...tinggal final project life drawing nih ^^

1. Mengapa kamu membiarkan aku pergi? ++ kenapa harus bertahan kalo udah gak bisa? 2. Aku masih mencintai kamu. ++ gue ngga 3. Kapan terakhir kali kita ngobrol? ++ lwaduh gak tau deh yah gue 4. Jalan yuk. Mau ga? ++ ngga ah,,, 5. Aku antar jemput kamu mau ga? ++ ngga usah..ngapain? 6. Apa kamu bisa ngejalanin semua ini di saat aku masih ga bisa? ++ hmm..ya bisa. it's my choice.. 7. Aku ga bisa menepati janji ke kamu. ++ janji apa? 8. Ortu aku ga suka ama kamu. ++ emang kenal? ya sudah biarin aja 9. Temen2 aku bilang kita berdua ga cocok. ++ oh iyah sih temen2 gue juga bilang. 10 .Kamu sudah berubah. ++ ya begituhlah.. 11. Kita bisa balikan lagi ga? ++ ngga sih 12 .Oh, aku tau ada apa dengan semua ++ oh ya? apa? 13.Kamu sadar ga kalau kamu nyakitin aku? ++ oh masa sih? coba ngaca dulu. 14. Bagaimana bisa kamu melupakan semua kenangan kita berdua? ++ ha? lupa sih ngga. but there's nothing special any more 15.Aku akan selalu mencintai kamu. ++ terserah aja. but i don't 16. Da...

tomorrow is the final presentation. oh my..i hope i'll do it well. hehehe..i like my artwork..it's so nice. heheheh..especially when the light is turn on. ^^ i wanna to take it home, but i dunno whether my mom will allow me or not. because we'll move to somewhere else as this house will be renovated. and i think it'll be soo hectic if i take my artwork home. it'll be moved, and i'm afraid it'll destroy it. *sigh* don't feel well today. dunno why. feel sleepy also. hehehehe...not in the mood to write longer =)

[verse 1] Whats up? I know we haven't spoken for a while But I was thinkin bout you And it kinda made me smile So many things to say And I'll put em in a letter Thought it might be easier The words might come out better How's your mother, how's your little brother? Does he still look just like you? So many things I wanna know the answers too Wish I could press rewind And rewrite every line To the story of me and you [chorus] Don't you know I've tried and I've tried To get you out my mind But it don't get no better As each day goes by And I'm lost and confused I've got nothin to lose Hope to hear from you soon P.S. I'm still not over you Still not over you [verse 2] Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me Like a sil...

*lagi senang* akhirnya kerjaan gue kelar j uga. yaa ngga kelar2 sampe semuanya gituh sih. cuma yaaa gak kaya kemaren ajah ^^ mayan senang liad hasilnya ^^ hari ni mayan gila, masang bekgron item di belakangnya gituh. waaaa...sir jo jagoan dahhh..gue sih takut naek2 bangku begituh. mending disuruh ngeliat ke bawah dari lante 20. heheheheeh...pas dah jadi bagus gituh sih hasilnya ^^ senang. tuz bikin rel tadi. tapi gak kaya rel. cape dee..heheheeh...lagi mo bikin tangki aer ni kayanya. wiwh..hehehe ^^ mudah2an sih teori gue bener dan jadi nantinya. hehehehe...mo nambahin detil2 kecilnya nih. mudah2an sih keburu. hehehehe..tadi awannya akhirnya jadi juga. setelah gue panasin di teflon dengan gilanya. hahahahhah..parah bener tuh. tadi gue pulang dah pada kering sisanya. besok bawa ahhh ^^ hari ni mo tidur cepet. kemaren gue dah tidur gak jelas. baru tidur jam 2, jam 4 bangun, jam setengah 6 tidur lagi, bangun2 jam 8 apa stgh 8 gituh deh. hehehehe..ngantuknya gillaaaaa banget. >.

duh pusing. sungguh deh. final project gue gak kelar2. padahal gue dah ngerjain ampe malem mulu. bingung deh gue. hikx..frustasi lama2 begini ceritanya mah! arhhhghhh...ni ari mo bikin awan, mo bikin atep, ngecatin juga. wew kelar dunkz ya harusnya mah ^^ pingin tidur dengan tenang nih. ih parah bener deh gue. kalo makin banyak pikiran makin susah tidur. secara keadaan lagi aman tentram aja susah tidur. apalagi begini??? kyaa...hikx. masih gak dibales tuh sms gue. ah eca..sudahlah suka2 lah. bingung lama2. lalala~ emang kayanya ngga bakalan mungkin balik kaya dulu. intensitas ketemu aja nurun mampus begituh. arhhh..sudahlah. relakanlah relakan..bingung mau gimana lagi biznya. uhuhuh~ liad aja, nanti gue di malay juga pasti lost contact. au ah..*pusink*

dan setiap kali langkahnya berjalan menjauh setiap kali itulah namanya seolah memanggil dan setiap kali itu pula dia berbalik dan berpaling melihatnya jauh melihatnya seolah memanggil dan melihat bahwa di sana dia hanya terdiam entah bersandar pada apa dan menatap jauh entah kemana seolah matanya tertuju pada seluruh hal lain di sekitarnya kecuali dia yang terhenti dan berpaling dia termangu menatap angin bertanya tentang apa yang berteriak memanggilnya kembali menatap jalan yang telah ia lalui menjauh dan setiap kali namanya memanggilnya pulang seolah ia berkata "akulah rumahmu, hendak kemana dirimu bila tidak pulang kembali" dan setiap kali kata itu bergaung merdu di sekitarnya setiap kali itu juga dia kembali seakan dia tak akan dapat ditinggalkan seakan dia terlalu berharga untuk digantikan dan setiap kali dia mencari jawabannya tanpa tahu mana yang benar dan salah mana kenyataan dan hanya tipu daya sungguhkah dia akan selalu menengok dan melihatnya sungguhkah selamanya d...

ahh gila gue ngantuk bener. lagi ga enak badan nih. heheh..gak tau de kayanya kecapean. minggu ni pulang jam setengah 9 dah 2 kali sih. huh~ mudah2an ga makin parah deh yah ^^ my final project is nearly finished. ^^ mudah2an sih cepet kelar dan ngga keburu2 banget sama deadline. mudah2an sih. cuma agak ga yakin aja. kayanya kerjaannya masih banyak. huh..mari berjuang deh. hectic dunia. hahahahaha i've got the asnwer. dia katanya gak mo jadian ce itu. yaaa mayan lega sih. cuma entah kenapa masih ada yg ngeganjel. dunno why. mungkin karena gue belom sempet ngomong lagi sama dia. yayaya i miss him so much. i miss talking to him, sharing my thoughts and my problems, ledek2an sama dia, even berantem sama dia. jangankan itu semua. gue kangen saat gue masih sekolah dan always duduk di belakangnya dia. enak aja gituh. mau apa2 tinggal nowel. hahahaha...sounds silly, doesn't it? ya. but i dunno why. i can't hate him and forget him that easy. he still sticks on my mind. i dunno till ...

sedang dying off. gila banget ni final project. gue lagi stress nian secara yaa..dunno lah. kerjaan gue begituh deh. susah nian. pala gue pusing banget sekarang. hikx..baru aja pas hari senen gue seneng2 coz gedung gue dah bediri 4 biji. ehhh sekarang ancur nian sudah hatikuh! tau ah pusing banget.arghhhh..just wanna screamm!!!! tuz gituh, tu orang ngilang dah lama bener. my last conversation is about Riris. oh my. dia respek sama riris sekarang coz dia nganggep si riris ngga seperti apa yg gue bilang. terserah lah. i just don't like her. tau deh pusing banget. dia ngomong dengan nada nuduh begituh. gue udah ga tau mau nyaut apa. tuz dia nanya emang gue masih berantem sama riris. ya berantem si ngga. cuma ga suka aja emang sama orangnya. gue pusing. it's so hard to lose him. lagi suka dengerin lagunya Rihanna sama Neyo. enak banget. nih bagian Rihanna nya. every words in this song remind me of him! oh gosh! That’s how much I love you (yeah) That’s how much I need you (yeah, yea...

barusan chat sama lydia. si belalang nangka! wakakakakak..yaahh cerita2 gituh deh. dan ceritanya dia sangat2 mirip gue. that i found someone special 4 me too. that i thought he's the one who understood me well like he said. and i really2 trusted him. but maybe yaa..he's not the one for me like i think before. maybe my Father has a better one for me later. this is what i wanna believe in my life. that He never leaves me alone in this hectic world. no i can't face it by myself, i can't deserve everything in my life, i'm not that though and strong. maybe i have never opened my eyes and still stood alone by my own feet. and i don't open my eyes though i am who i am right now. dunno. i feel like i'm lost. that i don't have any place i could call it home. i dunno since when i've lost everything like this. and i dunno how to come back. this makes me afraid. like i'm really lost and don't know how to reach home again. God, show me the way because th...

biz ngerjain final project nih. dari siang. cuma bikin gedung doang sebiji gak kelar2. phew. besok harus kerja keras nih. hikx...hmmm..merasa sedikit cape tapi senang sih ^^ besok gak dateng de kayanya ke partynya vega. orang yg katanya "mo mikirin dulu" aja ngga kasih2 kabar. udah ah bodo deh. eca juga. hmmm..kenapa ya orang selalu ingin didengar tapi tidak ingin mendengar? bingung. menemukan banyak contoh di sekeliling gue. bingung aja..orang2 bilang jangan egois. apakah mereka sendiri ngga egois? orang2 bilang jangan mau menang sendiri. apa mereka cukup rendah hati untuk menerima kemenangan orang lain dan menerima kenyataan bahwa orang lain lebih mampu? kenapa ya orang selalu nasehatin orang lain sebelum becermin dulu? yaaa ngga semuanya sih. tapi tetep lah ada yg begitu juga. heran kenapa begitu. lah kalo yg nasehatinnya aja begitu, gimana yg dinasehatin mau merasa itu benar?? heran...dunia ini semakin menggila rupanya. ah yaa..kemaren gue cukup senang sih sekaligus gila....