what i'm feeling
sick of everything. sick of my never ending assignments. scara tiba2 itu mengambil alih smua hidup gueee..rasanya yg laen gak penting banget dalam sekejab!! hikss..yah kerjaan gue tiap ari cuma mencoba menyelesaikan hal2ituh. beban hidup. ckckck. honestly sometimes i enjoy doing it, but sometimes not!! get sick of it. now it's 9 way to go. it was 16 at the beginning. haha~
hmm..ok..i remember something just now. no..i made to remember something..by my friend. entah kenapa gue tiba2 pengen nangis pas dia bilang "makanya didoain dong". dengan segala kelemahan gue sebagai manusia, gue ngerasa itu percuma. yeah i'm running away from my real situation. from my family's real situation. and it's fucking selfish. why? because i don't know what to do. i don't know hot to feel about it. sometimes it feels like a normal situation for me. sometimes i don't feel anything. sometimes i do feel really sorry about that. what i do believe is when i grow up and make my own money, i don't want to see them like this any more. no. enough. i know i'm not supposed to underestimate the power of a pray, but i don't know.maybe i don't have strong relationship with God right now..maybe it's His way..maybe any other maybe..i don't know..
hmm..ok..i remember something just now. no..i made to remember something..by my friend. entah kenapa gue tiba2 pengen nangis pas dia bilang "makanya didoain dong". dengan segala kelemahan gue sebagai manusia, gue ngerasa itu percuma. yeah i'm running away from my real situation. from my family's real situation. and it's fucking selfish. why? because i don't know what to do. i don't know hot to feel about it. sometimes it feels like a normal situation for me. sometimes i don't feel anything. sometimes i do feel really sorry about that. what i do believe is when i grow up and make my own money, i don't want to see them like this any more. no. enough. i know i'm not supposed to underestimate the power of a pray, but i don't know.maybe i don't have strong relationship with God right now..maybe it's His way..maybe any other maybe..i don't know..
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