Pixie's Singing

A blinding flash of white light Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight People running for cover Not knowing whether they’re dead or alive They came with their tanks and their planes With ravaging fiery flames And nothing remains Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze We will not go down In the night, without a fight You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools But our spirit will never die We will not go down In Gaza tonight Women and children alike Murdered and massacred night after night While the so-called leaders of countries afar Debated on who’s wrong or right But their powerless words were in vain And the bombs fell down like acid rain But through the tears and the blood and the pain ...

another goodbye =) finally everything is done. since i have a different standard to finish something. hehe. i don't know how i can be this way. again and again. another lesson. another pain and another new day. hehe. i recognize this circumstance. just don't know how many times i should be in. i don't know what it will cause. just hope everythint will be allright. =) i am not a perfect girl. maybe i don't know how to live well also. at least, i'm true to my heart. i can't hide what's inside it for a very long time alone. i know myself so well related to that thing =) i realize many things after that. if it's not meant to be, it won't. for a good reason. for my own good. amen =) bunch of assignments are waiting for me. hahahaha. i know i haven't done anything recently. =) hope i'll start doing them and finish it. heheheh. it's gonna be alright...

i'm doing my ilustration assignment and feel a bit tired so i stop. hehe. it's quite fun actually. but i don't like using marker on water color paper. it's not nice. ckckck. i got many assignments to do actually. which i know i won't finish it on time. so yeah, leave it.....

er....i'll be feedless for the rest of the month. hahahhah. i met my lecture this morning and he asked me to change the WHOLE thing of my invitation and door gift assignment. in 1 hand i'm so glad because of the event. remember my packaging assignment? now i have to make the product launch. since i LOVE to do that things. hehe. but in the other hand....he asked me to make the invitation like a booklet, which means contain some pages. and he also asked me to put pop ups in every pages. EVERY pages everyone. while i'm busy thinking what information should i put there, i also have to think about what kind of pop up i wanna put inside. and HOW TO CUT IT NICELY. yea. kinda thing XD and also..for the door gift..it's the complete dining set for children. have to deal with sticker then T_T i don't know how functional it is. hehe. so yea, let's see... i am a BIG spender. maybe i have spent more than 200RM today. more than how much i'll spend at pasar seni with all th...

okei. uhm. so..yeah..i have one assignment coming to be submitted next thursday. it's another crazy thing since..i don't really feel to do it. that means..a great disaster. if i don't feel like doing something, i won't do that with my heart. seems like it's just so normal and boring task. thas't one. haha. i know after this college i will meet so more annoying people who doesn't know what a word called "time" is exist. hahah. so..i hope i will pas it well =) i.......sometimes call myself a spoiled little princess. haaha. when i do feel gulity of my acts and so on to other people especially them who are close with me. since i always hope that they're always there for me and so on. and the fact that it doesn't really come true every time. hehe. sometimes i mad. not at them. at me and at situation that causes me to do so. somehow sometimes..i know it's annoying XD not to everyone actually..heheeh.. er...oh yeah...why i'm so mad at this...

okei. i have so many things on my mind. currently. hehe. oh..before it..it may be one of the honest postings originally comes from my head and heart. so..it will be long XD and not done in straight forward style. hehe. boys. haha. it's a never ending topic in my life ;D yes, i'm looking for someone who loves me and i love. someone to care of me and i do so. someone who can make me laugh, appreciate me, and share things with me. bad and good. just wanna feel someone here beside me. haha. once, i felt like i found someone. he's just like a new beginning after an ending. fresh new green leaf after a long long winter. little shine after the darkness. whatever u want to describe it. hehe. it affected me quite a lot. and felt a lot. haha. i have been up and down for many reasons and many times. and once, he amazed me amazingly. haha. then i felt he's worth to wait for. to be honest maybe i can find thousand reasons why he won't share the same pathway with me..maybe now ma...

udah lama yak gak upload2 ni blog. hahahah. eniwey...kemaren sempet ngerasa suntuk tuk tuk tuk banget sama kehidupan gue. bosen abisnya. serumah pada pulang. pacarannya ma tugas. wakakak.. males banget lama2 XD kemaren uda cukup sih refreshingnya. dan bru tw mg depan ternyata tugas cuma 1 dikumpul. haha. horee..meskipun yg laen harus berprogres juga sih sebenernya XD seneng2in diri aja dulu lah. hahhaahah....tar da mule kliah lagi. hehe. kembali ke kehidupan nyata XD duh mudah2an bisa kelar semua tugasnya amin =) if it's another chance. if it's another way. and if it's true. let it be true. let it be real. let me know the answer. let me know what i do want too. amen =D

are you afraid of losing me by the way? even i know i'm afraid of the answer....

is there something i can do to understand you? to get you. to know you better. because i'm feeling like running in a circle. walking in a maze. the never ending thoughts. and get confused by everything. because i don't know what's going on and what i should do. as usual. if you're not bored with that sentence. because i have seem been saying it thousands times. maybe i can't be like anyone on your mind. of your hope. i'm not that chicks. i'm not that hip. i'm not that nice. i'm not that...things...i know i can't be talkative with many interesting topics and words. i know there's always silent times between me and you. i know sometimes we're sitting with transparent wall in the middle. when i can't feel you. when i can't touch you. am i wrong to have that feeling? am i wrong to keep that faith? am i wrong to hope you're here? right now? because it seems like i'm wasting my and your time. my and your mind. me and you. just.....

mulai bozan. haha. gtw gtuh mo ngapain. eneg juga lama2 ma tugas. ckck. pingin gila2an deh. hayahh~ bingung deh. gtw ah...apa yah. hahahha..tw ah..lalalal~

okei...it should be the first day. but in a few hours i'll meet my lecturers to have tutorial since i have to submit a lot of assignments next week. yeah. another tiring week. hehe. just don't have any formal class this week. slighthy diffrerent since i always skipped some classes in a week. hehe.so far i've got 9 assignments to go. wew. pretty heavy. haha. they sound exciting. but also...tiring and stressful. haha. let's see what it will cause next next days. hehe. actually i want come back to jakarta for maybe one day. playing around. having great times. laughing out loud. just get some fresh air. since i never had such moment like that here. ckck. i don't know why. haha. i love my life here. but...there're some missing parts. hehe. i know it should be different with one in jakarta. but yeah..somehow i miss those moments. hehe. live goes in many abstract ways. i always amazed by what it's doing and playing on me. awesome by its own way. hehe.

a small girl with too many things on my head. haha. my bad. if i can seperate my memory like computer hardisks. haha. just finished one class exercise. actually it's fun. but dunno..just feel like i'm trapped with everything here. don't really like this routine. it sucks. i love doing what i'm doing. but not in this way. ck. my egois side. even i know when i'm working in real company later, it will be the same. same job desks, same things, for everyday. and i can't complain. becaus it's my job. phew. dunno what the future will bring me into. ckckc. got...quite many assignments. okeeiiiii....yea again i like doing them. but not now. i need some fresh air. wanna go back to jakarta for 1 day. i want spend it playing around the whole day. and coming back here and back to my works. just miss those silly things. silly smile and laughs. just being free and smile again. ckckc. what kind of what i'm facing here! ewww~ so yeah..this is my artwork. using marker. my...

gila uda brapa lama yahhh..jem tidur geje. skarang ga tidur lagi. ngerjain packaging sama essay. haha. parah ah. takut tepar aja sih =( dunno la. untung mg depan udah libur tengah semester. haha. sipsip =D pingin tutor fotografi tpi males @_@ suddenly..miss your way to laugh. that sometimes makes me want to stare at you and enjoy every positive vibrant that comes from you. sometimes laugh with you and because of you. enjoy the rhythm that is created by mine and yours. think that it's mine. your voice. your silly jokes. your crazy ideas. your light steps. your answers. your mumbling. your jerk acts. you. you and every single things on you. suddenly i miss all that stuffs...

hahaah...lagi deh tugasnya gambreng gila. parah banget XD tpi gak pingin ngerjainnya. haez. kumpul mg depan semua. hadoh2. kapan yak kerjainnya. hehehehe. bingung deh. ni aja pingin tidur abis ini. heheheh. emank dasar males aja. XD kemaren abis dari mosaic indonesia. acaranya mpc di kampus. ada band2 gtu performances. keren2 sih =) apalagi drummer2nya. haizzzz..keren2 banget. haha. pingin dong drummernya balawan suruh konser gtuh. hahaahah. keren banget ^^ mayan sih acaranya lama. gue baru balik jam 11 gtu klo ga salah dari sore jam 6 an. hehe. cuma5RM pula bayarnya. horee. hehehehe. ada yg jual somay kemaren. asik2. daripada gada.ahahahaha. tuz ada sate padang. enak. tpi makannya susah. males makan ndiri. huwaaaa T_T padahal pingin =D hiyah gtuh dehhh..mayan si represing dikit. hehehehee.. okei..once again life amazed me. =) whatever i thought. life just twisted it a little bit. and made me amazed. =) something is worth to wait for. i think. hehe. but since i'm an unpatient one.....