Pixie's Singing

didn't i say that i love you?

i remember there's a time my sister said, nothing's wrong. it's just the seed who doesn't match with the soil that it can't grow. it's my relationship.  i knew him one year ago. being friends, became closer, and finally be together. it's wonderful. not always smooth way, it's bumpy and hard, but i never will to give up and just walk away. it's between my feeling and my stubbornness :P we're having great and bad times. fought, love, laugh, cry, mad, anything. and i always thought it will work, somehow. i believe it will work if both of us are trying to make things work. and when both of us are committed on what we have. he's very different than other people. sometimes he's sooooo different that it's hard to understand him. he's human, he has good and bad sides. and i love him anyway. it doesn't mean i never get mad or upset, yes i did, many times. but after the storm, the feeling is still there, with the same willingness ...

"You have to be strong when you don't see me,  or when i'm not here"  I don't wanna be strong when you're not here.  I want you to be here :(

Your kisses and hugs are my favourite things :)

do you know somehow i wish i can always share this road with you with  your ultimate silliness but sharp insight with your unlimited annoyances but beautiful smile and laugh do you know i wish that we always have enough strength to conquer all of our problems all of our differences do you know somehow i wish we are never going to reach the end  i wish you will fight for me more than this and i wish i can always smile for us. you're like a unique metal material in the middle of ribbons don't ask me why, it's the only visual i can get when i'm thinking of you. :)

:) i just reread one writing, made by my favourite enemy. he's a guy. my best but stupid friends. hahaha. known him for.....years. 9 years i guess. he was my biggest enemy when i was in junior high. he's a person who never watched what he said and how he could affect people by his words. and one day we hurt each other so bad, which i still regret till now. but then one day everything changed. one of us apologizing and we start talking like normal people. and somehow we're getting closer and i realize he's not that bastard. hahaha. and somehow, we synchronize each other. still, he was still annoying and sometimes i just wanted to beat him with anything hard. just to make him awake and see what he can do with his words and acts. he's not as bad as the first time i met him, but still, annoying. haha. we're like growing up together, in different place in different circumstance. sometimes we didn't even talk for months just because one of us was getting hurt...

Ola..this is the 2nd series that i finish. hahahah..the story is just adorable! the casts, the jokes, so much fun in the middle of this working life. hahaa..and i'm happy the next season is coming. yeay! :D oh well, no, i watched cashmere mafia also :D that one is great also! different setting and story but the dialog is oh so smart ;) well, i'm still working here in malaysia. sometimes feel i wanna run away. but arghhh not so easy. just did some research about visa and well, hussles. really crave to go to bali, have a pina colada in my hand and watch the sunset. life can't be more beautiful than that, can it? hahahaha :D instead, now i'm here. one of the things that make me alive is my freelance jobs. somehow it's more interesting. hahahaha..i hope everything will just run well. :)