Doset daram

i remember there's a time my sister said, nothing's wrong. it's just the seed who doesn't match with the soil that it can't grow. it's my relationship. 

i knew him one year ago. being friends, became closer, and finally be together. it's wonderful. not always smooth way, it's bumpy and hard, but i never will to give up and just walk away. it's between my feeling and my stubbornness :P

we're having great and bad times. fought, love, laugh, cry, mad, anything. and i always thought it will work, somehow. i believe it will work if both of us are trying to make things work. and when both of us are committed on what we have.

he's very different than other people. sometimes he's sooooo different that it's hard to understand him. he's human, he has good and bad sides. and i love him anyway. it doesn't mean i never get mad or upset, yes i did, many times. but after the storm, the feeling is still there, with the same willingness to fight for it, again. that what makes me coming back. give it another try. give it another hope.

i've been doing that for months. i'm not perfect, i did many things wrong and thought in wrong way. but i've been trying my best for him and for us. but when things aren't meant to be, we can't do anything :)

it ends up to hurt both of us. i don't like seeing him hurt, and i don't like seeing myself hurt. i wanna be with him, i will miss our. but somehow, something tells me to stop. and it's enough.

i don't get what i expect, and i don't know what it will be in the future. but i believe everything will turn to be the best, on time. :)

Azizam, you're just so different that i love you :) will always do, like you said