Pixie's Singing

#nowplaying Beautiful Girl by Jose Marichan. ok forgive me if there's something wrong with the song title of the singer, it what appears in my winamp. anyway, it's been a long time i've never talked about my daily l ife (read : blabbering). hehe..so yeah, i finally turned on my old h dd that has never been turned on for...over a year. and wow, i was like findi ng a hidden treasure. it brings back my memory as i found a lot of old pictures, my song pla ylist s ( thank GOD!) and some of movies i' ve never been watching. so y eaayyyy! am hap py t o finally try to find the cable and turn it on. friends come and go. people come and go. everything come and go. lif e. it's sometimes unfair but it's alwa ys good in the end. i've been holding to something so hard before. until i hurt myself, and i hurt him. just to find out that without holding it, he will still be there. but we decide not to be on the same road anymore. well, i still love him in some ways. b...

I think it's time to sweep away few things I dont need for my future :)

"Segitu ngga beraninya kamu? segitu ngga percayanya?"

we bumped in again. we came back to this point again. when i'm asking you whether we're just friends and you answered me with no . i thought this time we'll be different. i thought this time we'll finally stop running away from our pr oblem and start to confront it. i thought finally things are getting right between us, well pr obabl y it is. i a m a person who will get out an d gra b anything i want. it's better for me to go outside , try to work things out, and fail. inste ad of sta ying inside my safety box and never try things out, and dont know what could happen. that 's the real fail for me. i somehow wish you just t old me 'yes i just want you to know my feeling for th ese years. and i want you to know that i choose my ambition over you'. that's quite simple and logical i suppose. well, again, probably i he ar d it wrong. probably i misinterpret it.  but anyway, here we are again. continuin g our li fe again . and i think this time is f...

finally started to watch movies again. so here's the first one. it's a drama romantic funny movie. thing that you would like to remind yourself somehow that there's still something sweet in this world. hehe. the story is about probably everyone's question about turning back time. or forwarding your life. the guy is sweet, as always :D and there's an happy ending of course. the message i got is, again, we don't know what we've got until we lose it. and what we want, is not really what we need. especially when you're so young you don't really know about real life :D

hellow again world :D wel l, it's been a very long break since my last post . since...around 1 month ago my life was ups ide down like roller coaster. i've been living for a round 3 months without my salary, which was promised to come but even i never s ee the shadow. i've been 'fighting' for my way out o f malaysia. i' ve been crying, laughing, being thankful, being hurt , stress to the max. hehehe. i lea rned a lot too.  first of all, for all fresh graduates , please get the black and white contract with your company you're about to join! no matter what they say no matter what circumstances it is. you must have that. easy for you easy for them. and it's your own damn right to have that. 2nd thing, keep your passport with yo u. they may need it to process the working visa, but please ask them to give it back to you whatever it is, soon! no one can a ctually hold your passport even single day. it's cou nt ry's document, unless you, no one can ...