time to give up is coming..

i've got this feeling since few weeks ago. and it's bothered me. now it becomes reality. yaya he likes her, as he said so. and it made me feel so...strange. hahahaha..dunno lah. i'm sad and so disappointed. the only question appeared was why must her????? and also why mustn't me??? bodo deh. bilang aja egois n narsis. manusiawi gituh..=P yaa begituhlah. dan dia masih ragu becoz kata2 gue. that i don't like her so much. dunno why yah. based on my feeling and what had happened. biasa lah itu semuah. makanya dia masih begituh. arghh..it drives me crazy! in one side i want him to be happy and glad and be free to like any girls he wants to like. in other hand, gue gak rela. sungguh gue gak rela. i don't like that girl. besides i still loves him and keep my hope. but maybe it's the time that i must let him go. because it's useless to keep hope for anyone who won't give you any chance anyway. but it still makes me feel so..strange. semuanya campur aduk gak jelas dan yaa begituhlah. feeling gue begitu cepat berubah dari 1 waktu ke waktu yg lain. gue tau apa yg harus gue lakukan. tapi gue gak tau apa gue sanggup ngelakuin itu semua. hari ni padahal gue lagi senang. semua final projects gue udah kelar. tapi semuanya ilank gitu aja. waw...it's so amazing, isn't it? hehe. dan gue sebel tadi sama kata2 temen gue "emank apa bagusnya elu dibandingin ce itu?" ok..gue tau maxudnya dia gak jelek. tapi sungguh kata2 itu nancep bener gituh yah. seems like he never saw something good on me. oh my. i hate that sentence. kesannya kaya i'm nothing gituh. hikx. sebel banget rasanya. yaa gituh deh. tapi malam ini mata gue kebuka buat banyak hal. that i'm not his type of girlfriend..dan mungkin caranya dia liad this kind of relationship is different from me. dia sepertinya ngeliat dari skill n opportunity orang itu. yaa sudah lah. seems that it's the time to go..