Pixie's Singing

this is new year eve everyone..hehehe..hmmm..gi di rumah ajah. gada rencana khusus mo kemana. yah as usual year by year..hehe. hmmm...kiri kanan heboh dan banyak acara. tpi yahhhh bhubung susah mo ngapa2in yaa sudahlah..ckckck..ok i know it's kinda ironic when other people are happy and preparing themselves for the new year event..i'm here and don't feel too much of it. ng...gtw ah~ lalala~ this is the last day of this year. of this lunatic year. hahaha. really. if i recall all of my memory, there're too many things there. i have so much memories, good and bad. =) yah seperti semua tahun lainnya yg nyimpen kenangan sendiri dan punya cerita sendiri, this is another year =P just say i'm having like a flat feeling right now. hehehe~ but yeah..the new year is knocking at your front door. waiting for the right time to finally explode your door and yell "SURPRISED!! I'M HERE EVERYONE!! BE HAPPY!!" ^0^ thx for this year =) and hope the next one will be good a...

I'm here give me a glance, been following you like a shadow This is how I spent my time dreaming about our days tomorrow Another day has gone by another moon another sun I can wait for you my love Don't want to do any harm just find a gate to your attention Sometimes I walk away cause I know that we can't ever be together Sometimes I close my mind I can't keep this love for myself any longer Somehow I have to find the right time to say that I want you to want me, Even in my dreams I hope you know who I am through all the letters I have sent you I know I'm not the only one wanting and dreaming about you Two different world between us, you're on the spotlights far from my touch I can't wait here forever For a sign from your eyes the magic I wish I could have Should've walked away 'cause I knew that we can't ever be together Should've closed my mind should've known that this love can't go any further Should've stop...

biz baca recto verso nih tdi subuh. ng..gmana yah..bukunya sih bagus banget. one of my fave deh =P yah emank buku2 demenan gue sih. it's mild but touchy as well. hmmm..tuz tdi gue donlot lagu2nya. ngga gtuh enak sih. not my type of songs. agak terlalu datar dan..yah bosenin lama2. dan kata2nya ngga gampang ditangkep. gtw posisi speaker gue yg salah to gmana. yah intinya gue ga nyesel ga beli cdnya. hehe. kemarenan k pim tuz ke toko buku karisma. gtw kenapa even tu toko buku keliatan lebih kecil dan sepi daripada gramed, ternyata gue lebih enjoy isinya. gramed terlalu penuh dan rame. jadinya agak2 susah deh nyari apa2. klo disana enak, lubisa jalan2 sepi2 gtuh..ngeliatin atu2 tanpa harus eneg sama jejeran rak berjubel buku. hehehe. jadinya lebih enjoy. gue malah banyak menemukan buku2 indah disana. yg ga bisa kebeli karena gada duit. arghh~ gtuh dehh~ T.T this year is about to end. just hope that everything will be better starting from the new year =) new year, new beginning, new ev...

oh so you see.. * gue baru nyadar berapa puluh buku terjemahan yg dah gue baca. dan salah 1 faktor yg menentukan buku terjemahan itu bagus atau ngga adalah penterjemahnya. so glory for all translator that can make the book still good or even be better maybe than if i have to read all those thick books in English. moron! so..glory for all of you! cheers =P

i'm not saying that i have lied for these past few months. i really felt it. i just felt that i can't escape and make everything to be allright. and now..i think i can. i realized that i have had the same words like what i am having right now. all of them are true. the different is one is clear and the other is still not. and maybe..that's why everything happens. and i feel like an idiot to think that it's complicated. hahah. maybe it's not that bad and complicated. =P i have once passed this kind of situation, and i don't have any reasons why i can't pass this one =) yeah, it's true that i just have to let it flow. because i can't do much about it. that time will give me the answer later. we'll see. hehe.

it's gonna be long =D i...just read some words that i've written somewhere out there..long long time ago~ banyak part dari kata2 itu jadi kenyataan sekarang2 ini, sebelomnya cuma nangkring ajah di penghujung otak dan logic dan hati gue yg bareng2 menyuarakan pendapat. sinkron. haha. dan sekarang..a lil bit harder. to let go. untuk mengerti dan memahami. and to move on. gue dahgtw berapa kali nulis hal ini. tapi nyata banget gue yg sekarang dan gue yg dulu sangat beda. sesuatu yg entah harus gue syukuri atau ngga. gue ngeliat gue dulu sangat...yakin sama diri gue sendiri, sama pikiran2 gue, dan sama semuanya yg ada di diri gue. gue yakin untuk ngapa2in. dan yakin mempertahankan semua pendapat gue. semuanya. buah pikiran2 gue di setiap saat. yang sekarang..mungkin gue udah jarang mempertanyakan banyak hal di hidup gue. mungkin sekarang gue udah ga pernah bepikir sekritis dulu. dan hidup gue lebih plain daripada gue yg dulu2. kenapa yah? sometimes gue berpikir karena ya...gue suda...

I have got so much to give, I swear I do. I may not have nine lives, this one feels brand new Yes I've lived a good one I have tried to be true There are some things I never realized, till I met you How the wind feels on my cheeks, when I am barking at the moon [chorus] There is no home like the one you've got, coz that home belongs to you Woo Woo! Here I come. Woo Woo! Back to you. There is no home like the one you've got, coz that home belongs to you Well I was in trouble bad I was so confused. I may not see in color babe, but I sure can feel blue. I have been a lot of things, they may not all be true. My experience was so mysterious, till I met you. Now the sun may rise in the east, but I'm barking at the moon. [Chorus] There is no home like the one you've got, coz that home belongs to you. Woo Woo! Here I come. Woo Woo! Back to you. There is no home like the one you've got, coz that home belongs to you. There is no home like the one yo...

ni judul buku barunya Dewi Lestari. Recto Verso . gue suka banget sama webnya. bagus dan interaktif. heheeh. dah gtuh gue emank demen buku2 kek gtuh. tuz lagu2nya juga enak. sayangnyaaa gue nyari kemana2 dan habisss melulu. hiks. sedih banget. dah 2 kali balik k GI dan habis mulu jawabannya. gogirl gue juga abis. arghhhh~ damn! huh~ pengen banget baca buku ituh. ckckckc~ tdi ntn bolt. filmnya bagus sih. hehehe..pertama2nya adegannya kek james bond versi anak kecil. terlalu keren. hahaha. tuz yahhh ternyata itu cuma film doank. bagus sih konsep critanya. si bolt akhirnya sadar dia bukan super dog, tapi meskipun dia bukan super dog, dia tetep bisa ngelakuin hal - hal yg luar biasa. hehehe..nice movie =P plus..doggienya lucu banget! hahha. gue gtw yg kaya gtuh eksis apa ngga di dunia. tpi asli lucu banget =P gue gemes banget pas pertama liat dia masih kecil. hehe. pas dah gede juga lucu sih. tpi entah kenapa keknya palanya gede abis. =P dah mo taon baru nih. gtw mo kemana. tdi pagi nyokap...

how many times you wanna be hurt by the one that you love? how many times to say he/she's right and you're wrong, even sometimes it's not like that? how many times do you wanna sacrifice for him/her? how long can you keep your reason that he/she's worthed? Worthed for you, worthed for everything that you've done. Do you amazed by the numbers? Do you amazed what a man can do for the one that he/she loves? Or for them whom, they believe, they love? have you ever imagine how far and how hard a man can go for that love. *i'm not talking that the 'man' here is a male. it refers to human. both female and male. =) * have you ever realized? have you ever noticed? that sometimes man does something and gets nothing as the rewards? but do you now that he/she will come back later. try again. and maybe gets a better result. or the same result. but yet, try again is still in their agenda. it sounds like a foulness. it feels like useless things. but yet, man does it. m...

i was asked to make a logo for a coal trading company. and I'M STUCKED. okay i start to think i just wasted my time and my parent's money to get nothing for the whole semester. ARGHHHHHH!!!! feel so frustrated. i..actually don't know what to make. really. none of my idea looks good. there's always something wrong about this. something unfits. and i hate this so much. i don't know if this kind of company is not under my skills. since it's a serious one and i usually makes something 'cute'. but i realize that if i wanna be a graphic designer i can't use that excuse. or i can? arghh..it is not professional. argh!!! i want it to be simple but gives enough feeling related to the company. i want it looks simple, strong, and promising. since the symbol is sun i want it to gives a new hope feeling. a new good beginning. yeah something like that. and i plan to make it like a modern logo. 3d stuffs. but ng..so far i can't get that feeling. heard easy right...

kk gue baru balik dari HK nih..and i got many things. hahaha. dapet gelang, boneka yg sekarang namanya SI BULET. he's a seagull actually with egg-shape head. hehe. hmmm..dapet kek mug to apa gtuh Pooh yg bakal gue lungsurin ke cc gue. =) hmm..dan makanan. horeeeeeeeeee~ senang =D ok ga bakal kurus klo begini. hahahaha. hmm..katanya tar malem pd mo ntn. gtw deh jadi to kaga. hehe. i've just read something that made me wanna write these things down. I don't believe anymore with age. everyone in any age could act like anyone in any age. depends on your experience, your choice, your needs, and many other things. and i'm someone like that. i can be anyone i wanna be at certain times. don't ask me how i do that coz i don't know. sometimes it's bad sometimes it's good. but i rarely regret it. related how you deal with your own self and what you' ve done i guess. but not 100% like that. many things turn into one. here comes the complication. not everyone doe...

I always turn both of my computer and winamp at once. *can I? haha..yah gtuh lah* dan belakangan ini..ngga lagi. kenapa? karena entah kenapa cc gue selalu ga nyalain speaker di rumah dan entah kenapa gue juga ikut2an. ahahaha. yah gituh deh. jadi..gada lagu gada suara apa2. pertamanya sih gue ngerasa sangat aneh. iyah lah yaaa..tuz ternyata enak juga. hehe. yah tunggu ajah kapan gue bosen dengan kesunyian ituh. =D ehm..abiz bikin poster perayaan natal di kantor kk gue. love it so much. hiihihiii~ =P tpi filenya guedeeeeeeeeeee banget. posternya 4x4 m. arghhh..i'm running out of space now..=( gtw dah tuh berapa gig..lupa. hehe. hmm..pertamanya gue bingung setengah mati mo bikin apa. dan gue bolak balik cari referensi..dan tiba2 idenya pop up di otak gue. wahaha. gue seneng banget. pertamanya mo bikin lebih detil. dan ternyata ga sanggup. hahaahah. oh my~ ga kebayang bikin detil orang sbiji2 sedangkan itu aja ada brapa baris gtw. wahahaha..parah. but finally it's done =P udah dar...

udah lamaaa banget yah kaga nulis. hahaha. yah scara semenjak pulang ksini sibuk banget tuh gara2 kawinan kk gue yg paling gede. Amin acaranya lancar2 ajah dan dengan sejuta umat yg kawin tgl 7, it's just a luck to have all that crowd. hehehe. yahhh..gue bangun dari pagi. tuz ke gereja di pluit, Stella Maris. tuz dandan ke yohanes bridal dan resepsi deh. dan kena macet. dan dandanan gue pertama kali kaya setan saking pucetnya dan setelah di touch up ngga membaik. ckckck..muka gue deh emank milih banget klo make up. wahhahaahha~ yahh gtuh deh..wara wiri wara wiri dan kaki gue sakit banget. parah. kapan2 kalo kawinan pake yg teplek ajah ga boleh yah? pheww~ yah gituh deh. haha. sampe skarang lom liat hasil fotonya.gtw kapang dateng. weheheh..yah gituh2 ajah sih kebanyakan. belom ngapa2in lagi. masih nyante2. dapet project sih lagi bikin ituh. tpi gtw sampe kapan. hehe. mudah2an hasilnya bagus =)

yepzz..here i am. jakarta. rumah gue. kamar gue. depan komp. hehe. yg ternyata koq ga cepet2 amad yah skarang. hehehe. hmm..cape banget sih belakangan nih. kemaren biz k mangdu nyari bju buat kawinan kk gue. nemu sih. tpi kata nyokap gue ada yg cacat sama tu baju. sialan. padahal gue dah demen banget. hmm..rasanya aneh balik ke indo dan denger semua orang ngomong indo. yah bukan karena disana gue ngomngnya ing terus sih. gaya gila gue. tpi biasanya tukang2 jualan itu kan ngomngnya malay. dan orang2 sekeliling2 gue klo di tempat2 umum juga ngomongnya malay. jadi agak aneh aja denger smua orang disini ngomong indo. dan kadang2 gue masih suka pengen ngomong ing sama orang2 di restoran, supermarket, mana aja lah. hahaha. dodol deh. dan finally gue tidur di kasur. spring bed. wahahahahha..norak abis. scara slama ni gue tidurnya di lante dengan kasur 5 senti. gmana yaaaaa..hehehehe..nanti ah balik sana baru beli kasur. itu juga kalo gue ga failed. ckckckc. au deh. mudah2an aja ngga ada yg fa...

yep..after a very very long tiring journey..i've finished my assignments up and submitted all of them. yahaaaa~ finally!! gila banget kerjain jurnal kemaren sampe ga tidur2. mana gue sakit pilek batuk sakit kepala semuanya deh lengkap abis. dan tetep ga bisa tidur karena lagi2 belom selesai tuh semua kerjaan gue. ckckckc..parah abis deh. mana pas mo di print tinta gue low dan gue ngebuat tintanya tam2 low juga. hduhhhh~ depan2 sih masih bagus warnanya..belakang2 dah ckckck~ tipis abisss...parah deh. yah selesai sih selesai tpi gtw berapa dinilai ma si aaron tuh. not my standard artwork at all. parah deh. gue ga mo lagi ah smster depan kek gini. terancam failed. cuma gara2 ga ngerjain tugas gue dan kebanyakan main. ckckckc. enough. gada lagi kaya gini smster depan. balance deh antara main dan ngerjain tugas. gue juga yg ujung2nya stress gila gara2 ini smua. ckckck~ abis ngumpulin jurnal gue itu, gue tidur 7 jam dah kaya orang pingsan. dan selama 7 jam itu gue mimpi serem2 banget sem...

sumpah deh stresssss..banyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkkkkk banget kerjaannn..monyongggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

ehm..yahh critanya sih abis pindahan gtuh deh. tuz cuapeeeeeee banget. ditambah dengan sgala tugas bejibun monyong begituh. jadinya yaaaaaaaaa cuapenya gila2an. hmm..kamar baru nih. mayan enak sih. hehe. tpi gue kangen desa yg kemana2 tinggal ngesot. hehe. senangnyah. =P tuzzz barusan k londry. beh elaaa jauhh..hahah..dibandingin sama desa sih ituh jauh yah. dan kayanya sih gue bisa ilank tuh klo ksana sendirian especially malem2. ckckckc..gak banget deh ah. huh~ besok kumpul ernesto tpi keknya lom siap deh. haha. gtw lah pusing sayah juga. ni aja masih mo edit aaron nih. biar besok bisa kumpul hehe. yah begituhlah. ga da tenaga banyak2 buat nulis. ckckck~

sick of everything. sick of my never ending assignments. scara tiba2 itu mengambil alih smua hidup gueee..rasanya yg laen gak penting banget dalam sekejab!! hikss..yah kerjaan gue tiap ari cuma mencoba menyelesaikan hal2ituh. beban hidup. ckckck. honestly sometimes i enjoy doing it, but sometimes not!! get sick of it. now it's 9 way to go. it was 16 at the beginning. haha~ hmm..ok..i remember something just now. no..i made to remember something..by my friend. entah kenapa gue tiba2 pengen nangis pas dia bilang "makanya didoain dong". dengan segala kelemahan gue sebagai manusia, gue ngerasa itu percuma. yeah i'm running away from my real situation. from my family's real situation. and it's fucking selfish. why? because i don't know what to do. i don't know hot to feel about it. sometimes it feels like a normal situation for me. sometimes i don't feel anything. sometimes i do feel really sorry about that. what i do believe is when i grow up and make ...

not the WHOLE world i mean. but MY world. my small little tiny bitty..anything but small..world. haha. hmm..why small? because my life is just going through assignments..my room..my computer..food..campus..and lecturers. ahh yeahh..hmm..don't accept any critics of my english.hahahha..i know it's not perfect anyway..just feeling like to write in this kind of way..any way. =P i've just realized many things today. one of them is..don't ever print at Vista Prima. i swear. this is the place that my lecture and a thousand people outside talking about. this SUPPOSED to be a good printing shop. but NOT. a big NOOOOOOOO. i prefer to come back to miso even it's more expensive than to that place where i have to wait for ages and *honestly thx God i'm not the one who did the printing..sorry anyway =P* i don't have any word to explain the result. hmm..one thing is..it makes me feel like dejavu, when i printed my STRAWBERRY milk packagin and got a HALF CHOCOLATE one inst...

padahal lagi banyak2nya. haha. biz turun makan di bawah bareng andrew, kepin, wewei, ma tepen. tuz ketawa2kaya orang tolol. hahaha..apa aja diketawain. versi heboh. hahaha. geblek deh. yg uda pada stress ma tugas. yg udah pada gila. nyampur smuaaa..sip abis. hehehhe. parah deh. smuaaa dibahas. haha. asli bego gila. tpi gpp deh. refreshing di tengah lautan tugas yg makin lama makin dikit waktunya. hahaha. tuz skarang balik lagi k kamar, mo bikin poster. dan masih ada sejuta tugas menunggu. cihuy abisss.. i just wanna close my eyes and find you. standing there. waiting for me. to come home. to be with you. ever and ever. and never let go. with smiles and tears. with everything happens. you know i'll be there. like you have been one for me. ever and ever. one thing remains. it's you and whatever you've done. for every reason i want to hug you tightly. and never let go. for years and months. for me and you. and smile and joy.

Well do ya wanna dance and-a hold my hand Call me your lover man Oh baby do you wanna dance? Well do you wanna dance under the moonlight Squeeze and hug me all through the night Oh baby do you wanna dance? Well do you wanna dance and make romance Squeeze me all through the night Oh baby do you wanna dance? Hey! Well do you wanna dance and-a hold my hand Call me your lover man Oh baby do you wanna dance? Well do you wanna dance under the moonlight Squeeze and hug me all through the night Oh baby do you wanna dance? Well do you wanna dance and-a make romance A kiss and squeeze umm baby Do you wanna dance? Well do you wanna dance and-a hold my hand Call me your lover man Oh baby do you wanna dance? Oh do you wanna dance under the moonlight Squeeze and hug me all through the night Oh baby do you wanna dance? Well do-you do-you do-you do-you Wanna dance? Do-you do-you do-you do-you Wanna dance? Do-you do-you do-youa do-you Wanna dance? ini lagu yg nemenin gue ngulang segala sesuatunya male...

sangat deh sangat gue stress banget. kenapa? gue bikin greeting card yg udah tlat seminggu kumpulinnya. dan ada apa gerangan dengan itu? RUSAK. sumpah rusak. kan gue bikin tulisannya pake glass deco. dan lengket kalo uda kering. jadinyaaaa..kemaren gue batesin pake kertas yg ga bisa ditempelin glass deco scara baik. tuz tdi gue pilox pake pilox transparan dan dah gue tes gue buka tutup gpp. ga nempel. tuz gue tutup beneran. pas gue mo buka lagi. NEMPEL DONG SMUA DAN KERTASNYA ROBEK. gue pas liat dah speechless. mo diapain juga bingung. mo ngulang bahannya udah gada. mo k artshop udah tutup. gada yg punya kertas kado yg sesuai. gada mounting board. akirnya gue ngulang bener2 pake bahan yg ada di gue doank. selesai sih. dan gue membuang bagian glass deco scara nunggu keringanya aja 2 hari. gada waktu lagi. udah gituh gue ga suka sama hasilnya. ga nyatu.beda banget dan ga keliatan bagus. duh gue dah mo mampus liatnya. pusing setengah mati. parah. dan dengan baiknya kalo gue lagi panik gue...

hanya kau yang kupeluk saat kurasakan sedih hati hanya kau yang terindah di cintaku betapa yang terdalam semua tlah kucurahkan untukmu betapa yang tersentuh tlah kau miliki mungkinkah kau kan pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri salahkah hatiku yang inginkan slalu kau bertahan di redupnya cinta setia hingga di akhir hidupku tak banyak kuberi hanya sebuah kisah abadi denganmu smua terlewati tanpamu ku hanya sebuah mimpi mungkinkah kau kan pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri salahkah hatiku yang inginkan slalu kau bertahan di redupnya cinta setia hingga di akhir hidupku tak banyak kuberi hanya sebuah kisah abadi denganmu smua terlewati tanpamu ku hanya sebuah mimpi =) gatau kenapa tapi lagunya enak banget d kuping gue. hehehhe..mengingatkan gue sama seseorang tapi beda term and situations...hahahhaa

tidur pagi 2 hari itu gak bae ternyata. ckckckc. scara mungkin udah keseringan juga sih. tiba2 hari ni gue tepar setengah mati. biz presentasi tadi. pas abis gue maju langsung ngegeletak di meja. bener2 ngantuk banget dan lama2 sakit kepala karena ga bisa tidur banget di kelas. tidur2 bangun2 ga penting. hhhmm~ yah gituh deh. tuz siangnya kepanasan, keringetan, keujanan, kepanasan lagi, siklus gak bae deh. =( dan skarang abis gue tidur pun ga membaik. pala gue masih aja sakit tuz ga pengen ngapa2in. ni aja gue nitip makan k yg di bawah. hhhh~ bener2 gak pengen turun sendiri k bawah. gak kuatttt..dan tugas gue masih banyak. ga usah khawatir soal tugas gue sih. haha. sakit ati abis liat jumlahnya. phew~ yahh gituh deh kehidupan. keknya belakangan ni gue sakit mulu. au nape. sebel banget. =(

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love. Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high I don’t want to let go, girl I just need you to know girl I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight, No promises Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms Here tonight Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high I don’t want to let go, girl I just need you to know girl I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight, No promises Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, through time and time No promises I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone No Promises Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love No promises I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight, No promises Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in y...

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table, and make sure that your coffee has its sugar and cream Your eggs are over easy, your toast done lithely, all that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me Now you say the juice is sour, it used to be so sweet, and I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me We don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting so deep, I've got my pride, I will not cry, but it's making me weak I'm not your superwoman I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down, and think that everything's okay Boy I am only human... This girl needs more than occasional hugs as a token of love from you to me I fought my way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you But when you get there, you just tell me you're not hungry at all, you said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk You li...

I used to think I had the answers to everything Mm but now I know That life doesn't always go my way. yeah Feels like I'm caught in the middle Thats when I realize I'm not a girl Not yet a woman All I need is time A moment that is mine While I'm in between I'm not a girl There is no need to protect me It's time that I Learn to face up to this on my own I've seen so much more than you know now So don't tell me to shut my eyes I'm not a girl Not yet a woman All I need is time A moment that is mine While I'm in between I'm not a girl But if you look at me closely You will see it in my eyes This girl will always find her way I'm not a girl I'm not a girl dont tell me what to believe Not yet a woman I'm just trying to find the woman in me yeah All I need is time Whoa, all I need is time... A moment that is mine thats mine While I'm in between Im not a girl Not yet a woman Not now All I need is time A moment that is mine While I...

biz makan cheese naan sama ayam tandori ampe eneg2 bega gituh deh. biz gue ga tau ternyata banyaknya ga wajar. tuz..ngantuk. hahahhha. asli ngantuk gila deh =P sebelom makan gue gi bikin essaynya mohana. 3rebu kata. mantep tuh yee..baru jadi 1500 kata. tu ude 5 halaman. dasar sarap tuh tugas. gue gtw dah gmana kelarnya. kelar sih..tpi males banget ajah. mana bahan batik malay itu susah dicari. ampun dehhh =( yah gituh deh. ngantuk. hahaha. gi banyak2nya tugas. tdi gue ngelist dengan kurang kerjaannya dan ada 11 tugas sampe 2 minggu k depan. dan nampaknya ga lucu smua tugasnya. hahahaha. asli parah2. mudah2an kelarrr..amin~ =P

pernah dong yah denger frasa ituh. halah..frasa..apaan sih bahasa gue. hehehe. yah biz gmana yah tiba2 itu doang yg nongol di otak =P gue biz chatting sama temen gue..tiba2 pengen nulis hal ini. hehe. kenapa? karena inilah yg sedang gue hadapi saat ini. dimana diri gue sendiri yg ngasih limit atas segala sesuatunya dan malah ngebuat gue susah karena gue terbatas pada limit itu. emang ada kalanya hanya kita yg tau limit untuk diri kita sendiri. seberapa lama kita tahan nangkring depan komputer dan kutak katik disana. ada orang yg tahan seminggu ga kemana2 ada yg sejam aja udah pengen terbang saking bosennya. banyak hal yg emang hanya diri kita sendiri yg tau sampe mana limitnya dan itu bukan hal yg jelek. tapi ada kalanya limit yg kita bentuk sendiri adalah senjata makan tuan. kembali ke diri kta sendiri dan malah jadi disaster. dan yah..itu yg sedang gue alami. the power of mind. apa yang gue pikirkan tersalur ke diri gue dan timbul reaksi dari diri gue tanpa gue sadari dan itu berpeng...

asli dehhh..ini tempat yg kaga bakal gue lupain seumur idup gue. jadii..ceritanya ini kuil orang India, Tamil, gtu2 lah. berarti..Hindu kayanya. tempatnya jauhhh seujung2 entah dimana. gue gtw jalan. haha. tpi tiba2 jalanannya kaya di tangerang sana gue lupa apa namanya. hahahaha. tempatnya rada2 sepi gituh. tiba2 di pinggir jalan raya ada gunung batu guedeee banget tuz ada patung dewanya juga gedeee banget. dan ngapain gue kesana?? ceritanya mo foto buat final project fotografi gue yg ampir failed!! kan lagi deepavali, tuz katanya disana ada perayaan gtuh deh. pas sampe sana..gada apa2. asli dehhh..mana kudu naek tangga sejauh2nya. 275 anak tangga? entah berapa gue lupa. tuz nyampe atas gue kaya uda mo pingsan. asli gilaaa..dingin dan keringetan. sebuah perpaduan gak baik! tuz sampe atas yah udah gada apa2 juga. malah banyak monyet kecil2. yg entah gimana pas nurunin gunung mengingatkan gue akan tikus yg turun dari tiang. ih amit2. serem gue liatnya. tuz gue dah mo pingsan karena di a...

i should have been sleeping now..but because of something i am not. the something that i don't know what actually. really. i don't know why i can't sleep as i have had a dream and it was soo funny. and made me missed someone. haha. so here i am. in front of my lovely computer. writing things that i don't know what's for. haha. ahh..enough with the english. haha. yah begituh deh..ga bisa tidur. padahal gi ga enak badan. belagu gila badan gue! hahaha~ geblek. hmmm...manusia itu pasti punya masalahnya sendiri2. sebagaimanapun keadaan manusia itu. kaya dan sehat ngga jadi jaminan juga. karena masih banyak aspek di hidup ini yang bisa digempur sama yg namanya masalah. dan kalo diliat2 lebih dalam lagi emank setiap orang pasti punya masalah tapi emank beda2. dan kadarnya pun keliatan beda2. tapi kadang2 kadar itu sebenernya sama aja. karena ketahanan setiap orang dalam menghadapi masalah itu juga beda2. jadi..*wait gue ketelak ricola! ahhh* ok yak lanjut..jadi..sebenernya...

dia berdiri di tengah segalanya di tengah ramai orang berjalan di sekelilingnya di tengah semua bisikan dan teriakan dia berdiri di tengah keramaian dan berdiam memandang dunianya memandang orang lain memandang dunianya dan dia masih disana berdiri di tengah segalanya memandang segalanya dan dia tidak beranjak hanya karena dia tidak ingin dan karena dia tidak bisa dan karena dia tidak tahu kemana dia akan pergi kemana dia akan menuju kemana dia akan melangkah kalau dia masih ingin ada disana di persimpangan jalan dia berdiam memandang semuanya dari matanya dan orang lain berlari menari berdiam tertawa menangis terpukau berbalik di sekitarnya dan dia berdiri di tengah segalanya entah ingin beranjak dan berdiam entah ingin memandang dan terpejam dia berdiri dan entah ingin kemana..

jadi nih udah brapa malem ini gue nginep di tempatnya hasan rame2.. hehe. dan baru skarang balik..piuh~ happy to come back to my lovely bantal. hahaha. kemaren tuh..iya kemaren padahal baru beberapa jam yg lalu. hahaha..yah gituh. gue ngeprint ulank tugas gue..dan..jengjeng..ga bisa ngebinding ulang karena jenis lobang buat masukin bindingannya beda. dan dimana2 gada yg sama. dan di tempat kemaren gue binding gada yg lebih gede lagi. sial abiz. tuz pas sampe rumah gue baru tau cd labelnya ga keprint. jadiii..gue kudu balik ke miso dan print lagi dan binding lagi. dll. sebel gilaaaa~ pheww~ dan mahal! asli mahal! kampret! tuz..hmmm..yeah..gue sempet chatting sama mantan lecture gue di jakarta. yahh intinya sampai pada pembicaraan bahwa..gapapa liar asal produktip. jleb. heheheh.. yahhh pokoknya gue tiba2 menyadari bahwa seneng2 dan kerja itu harus diimbangin..emank sih disini enak. gada yg ngawasin. bisa sneng2 terus. disini kan lingkungannya sama temen semua. jadi yahhh enak banget dib...

i 've just seen my illustration lecture's website and gallery . and..it's quite shocking and amazing at the same time.. okay..let me introduce him. his name is Ernesto Pujazon. he's a Peruvian. his class is on Monday. 9.30. sharp. sometimes he tolerates a few minutes. sometimes he asks them who are late to wait until class is finish. i prefer to meet him in the other day.hehehe. at the first time i entered his class. i felt so nervous and thought that he's a very neat and stiff lecture. as he has RULES in his class. and it's quite strict. i was afraid that i will fail in this class. since i still believe that i can not draw properly. and he looked like a porcelain-type-of-drawing lecture. it pissed me off at once. but then...i learn that..first impression sometimes isn't right 100%. we have so much assignments in his class. and it looks like very impossible to be done on time. 56 figure drawings. lines and colors. 2 weeks. 8 portraits. pencil, pencil colors...

lagi rusuh2nya nih kuliah. tugas segambreng. kesannya kaga kelar2. songongg gilaaaaa~ kerjaan begadang mulu. pagi2nya tepar mampus. ahh parah deh nih jam tidur..=( hari ni presentasi cd packaging. good finishing sih dia bilank. dan overall nilai gue bagus sih. makasih Tuhan. =) tapi kudu redo dan rebind. lagian bindingnya kekecilan gituh jadi susah dibuka dan ditutup. seeebeeeell~ tpi tadi lom tutor ma aaron. besok. eh entar deh. hahaha..hope everything will be fine =) tuz mo k ernesto juga tutor illustration..hehehe. dannn masih banyak tugas tugas tugas tugas menunggu..huwahhh~ lucu deh emank dasar.. yah pokoknya gituh deh hidup saat ini..rusuh2 berbahagia..hahahaha~

I'm about to lose control I, I don't know why Why you need some reason to feel lost inside You, you know that I'm alright You know that I'm just the kind of girl that feels so hurt and smiles I don't need excuses Don't ask why It's just a breakdown It happens all the time So get out of my face Don't even try You wanna help me, just let me cry Yeah I loved you all my life You don't even know a thing I feel inside No, by the look in my eye That I'm just fine but I might need you to hold me tight I don't need excuses Don't ask why It's just a breakdown It happens all the time So get out of my face Don't even try You wanna help me, just let me I don't need excuses Don't ask why It's just a breakdown It happens all the time So get out of my face Don't even try You wanna help me, just let me I had a bad day, I'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry I had a bad day, I'll cry if I...

just done some 'psikotest' stuffs. hehehehe..hmm... i pass the plastic bag means that i know that person is a bad one for me but i just walk walk through it, but i don't do revenge. haha.. then i see leaves falling down from tree and i stop and see the leaves. means that i am living with my past. i can't forget it easily and still remember it again and again and again. yeah true =P i wanna be a wolf. since he's an individual creature but he's strong and smart. but he'll never leave his friends, his companion. it reminds me about one thing. how i describe my self when i have business with guys. hahahhaa~ when i walk alone in the forest, i want to be accompanied by a wolf too. it represents what i look for a couple. haha. my couple will hard to be had. hard to be tamed. but i hope he has the bright sides of wolf. =P while i'm walking, i meet a monkey. i'll leave it. it means i can't blend easily with new people. and IT'S TRUE. ahhahahah.. the m...

i'm so thankful that i have real angels in my life. who save me when i'm down. who heal me when i'm sick. who listen to me when i'm depressed. and who tell me the truth and make me think further. who make me breath again and continue my life with smile. who give me all the blessings and never ask for feedbacks. who always tell me not to be down but to stand up bravely to face the world. who take care of me like they take care of themselves. who always be there even i don't to the same thing. you're my everything guys..LOVE YOU TILL THE END. they're just too precious to for me =)

sleep..sleeeepppp as much as u can. hehe. tdi malem gue tidur jam 12. sangat2 ngga wajar scara biasanya jam 7 pagi aja masih melek. dan apa efeknya? bangun2 gue sangat senang. haha. gtw deh tpi rasanya enak ajah cukup tidur. meskipun gue bangun2 di jam2 tertentu tpi biz ntuh tidur lagi. enak banget pagi2nya. hehehe. senang ^^v tuz akirnya hari ni gue ngerubah seluruh ide buat digipack gue. rubah konsep, rubah design, rubah smuanya. tpi gue suka banget sama yg baru ini. dan bener2 kaya gue. hahaha. senang gila ^^v mudah2an ajah bisa selesai secaraaa dikumpulnya selasa depan pake presentasi pula. uixx..mudah2an baik2 ajah sampe nantinya. hehe..kayanya emank harus cukup tidur deh ngapa2in. soalnya kemarenan gak enak banget. mood gue jelek, cepet ngantuk tpi ga bisa tidur, pokoknya badmood abiz. huwhhh~ skarang gue ngantuk lagi nih. hoawmm~ jadi pengen tidur lagi ^^v

there's a name there's always a name around me on my mind in my eyes there's always a name calling my name while i say it seems like sounded by the earth there's always a name that follows me wherever i go whenever i walk there's always a name that the wind blows near me on me there's a name that i believe for me for you for everyone the name that never leave you that never get you lost that helps you whatever you do whatever you say there's always a name that not only a name but everything that gives you life that gives you smile and tears there's a name that protects you wherever you are whom you with there's always a name that the wind tells you that the earth tells praise that the sky lets us know.. there's always a name.. so you believe...

once..there's someone..one of my friends actually..said..that..i DO think tooooo much. haha. of something i ACTUALLY don't have to think about. of something ACTUALLY i don't have to worry. yeah. and i just said that i couldn't help it. it's flowing on my blood. it's there. and will always be there. even i know it just makes me sick..sick..and sicker every time i can't control..haha. it's automatic. and i can't stop it especially when i'm down. when i can't control my feeling. it just comes up. and yeah it's too complicated to be told to anyone else. because it connects one to another with a very strange connection. and it's hard for me to say... i am an easily get bored person. but no, i don't mean to hurt anyone else. i don't wanna make 'em feel sorry. when i get bored, really, i don't know how to make it better. especially when i'm sick like this. no, really. i don't know what to do. if i'm in normal cond...

hmm..bosen. gak mood bikin tugas. padahal tugas gue numpuknya lucu banget. huwhh~ bingung deh nanti mo diapain. agak kurang mungkin juga kalo ga kelar. tpi sangat mungkin gue ngerjainnya last minutes dan entah gmana nantinya. yah gituh dehh.. batuk..again. gue sakit leher. gak penting gituh. scara udaranya malaysia sangat membahagiakan dengan panas terik siang2 dan ujan deres sore2. iya bangetttt...gak indah. sakit kepala. kebanyakan tidur tpi ngantuk terus. dan gue skarang ga punya kerjaan dikit langsung ngantuk. duhduhduhduhdd... life is just like a maze. pertamanya sih itu ide cd packaging gue. tpi tiba2 ituh nongol aja jadi headlines diri gue dan hidup gue sendiri. scara life is always a maze. dimanapun dan kapanpun berada. dan apapun yang terjadi. yah begituhlah. apa yang kadang2 dipikirin justru ngga bener dan kadang2 apa yg ngga kepikiran justru yang terjadi. hmm..yah begituhlah. kadang2 hidup ini terlalu rumit untuk disimpulkan sendiri. dan segimana berkembangnya otak manusia d...

manusia berjuang untuk segala sesuatunya. untuk hidup. untuk memiliki. untuk belajar. untuk merelakan. untuk mendapatkan apa yang dia mau. untuk segalanya. kadang kala perjuangan itu akan berakhir. sia2? ngga juga. karena selalu ada hal baik di setiap hal buruk. selalu ada 2 sisi pada setiap apapun yang kita lihat, kita rasakan, kita ketahui. dan itulah hidup. entah kapan kita akan beranjak dari sisi yang sekarang ke sisi yang lain. dan tidak semua orang bahkan bisa beranjak. setiap kali seseorang akan bangun setelah dia jatuh, setiap kali itu pula dia seakan enggan untuk beranjak. entah bagaimana bertahan dengan setiap rasa yang dia punya. dan itulah yang manusia lakukan. hidup. dengan setiap hal yang ada. dengan segala cara yang dia bisa. hidup. segala sesuatu terjadi karena sebuah alasan. dan kadangkala alasan itu tidak langsung nampak. alasan itu entah tenggelam dimana. pokoknya susah buat tau. sampe tau pun ngerasanya tetep ajah belom tentu itu yang terjadi. yeahh..life is just a ...

yeppzpzzz gue lagi dengerin sonora. iya dari malaysia. dan iya jernih! wahahaha. gue seneng banget. ngga buffering ampe tolol. tpi langsung jalan. horee..gue bahagia banget dehhh ^^ lagunya enak2 banget. love it sooo muchh..heheheheh jam..stengah 6 pagi dan gue masih melek. biz pacaran sama kertas gambar, spidol, pensil, dan tetek bengek laennya. piuh. dan cuma baru dapet 7 sketsa. iyh abizz deeee. cuapee. hmmm..tpi seru juga sih lama2. except bagian gue merasa diri gue menolol dan menidak kreatip scara akut. haha. yah begituhlah. hari ni intan balik k sinih. senang2 dapet mpek2. wahhaahah. tuz tadi kita rame2 invasi ke rumahnya. ada gue, intan, iin, mike, cathy, sama alia. mmmm..udah kan sgituh doank? hehe. tuz lagi tidur2an dengan damai. gue mo cuci tangan jadi bangun dari karpet tuz ke dapur. tiba2 kaki kiri gue ga bisa buat napak. kalo ditapakin tiba2 kaya kesetrum sakit banget. dari dapur ke pintunya gue masih bisa jalan. depan pintu dapur gue cuma bisa diem. bingung mo ngapain. s...

siaga sekiannnn...yah gue kembali bangkrut lagi. padahal kemarenan baru ditransfer. au deh gue pusing. pada entah ilank kemana tuh duit. adaaaaa ajah. entah gmana itungan gue harusnya gue ga bakal tekor. dan ini baru AWAL BULAN. halooooo~ tpi entah gmana pokoknya gue jatuh miskin. harus bayar swa tgl 14 bulan nih lagi. padahal gue buat idup ajah udah kaga ada. mampus dehhh..mana kudu print kiri kanan atas bawah. duh mo gila rasanyah. kemarenan gue liburan seminggu bener2 libur sih. jadinya jalan terus duit juga jalan terus. parah gila. skarang sangat2 menyesal. hikxx..ga ngitung2 dulu. duhhh..masalah duit tuh bikin gila sangat sungguh. pheww..pasrah deh skarang pasrah. lalalalalallal~

kemaren tuh abiz dari KL rame2. ada gue, hasan, mike, cathy, angel, iin, alia, toge, ma husin. 9 ga sih tu jumlahnya? hehe..iya 9. =P naek mobilnya alia. ternyata ga jauh2 amad yah k KL kalo naek mobil. hahaha. ksian amad sh gue jau dari peradaban =P tuz kita parkir di starhill. komen pertama pas naek lift adalah "liftnya bagus yaa" karena emank liftnya bagus!hahahahah. tuz jalan gtu..makan di chee meng. apapun deh tulisannya gue lupa =P makan nasi hainam pake ayam gituh deh. mana pake ujan di luar. ujan2an deh pas mo jalan ke sungei wang. untung gak jauh. disana gue ke basheer. toko buku gtuh. pengeennn banget 1 buku bagus gituhhh..eh mahal monyong!! sebel gila. =( tuz liat2 gituh. vinccinya rame mampus. males gila ngeliatnya =( tuz biz ntuh massage di..entahmana gue lupa. hahaah. ehh lagi ngantri tiba2 gue dapet. iya abizzzzzzzzzzzz..mana susah nyari guardian, 7eleven, ato apapun deh! monyong banget. akirnya nemu di lot10. yah udah gituh deh. akirnya gue masuknya bareng cat...

The thing about love Is I never saw it coming It kinda crept up and took me by surprise And now there's a voice inside my heart that's got me wondering Is this true, I want to hear it one more time Move in a little closer Take it to a whisper Just a little louder Say it again for me Coz I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm The only one who blows your mind Say it again for me It's like the whole world stops to listen When you tell me you're in love Say it again The thing about you is you know just how to get me You talk about us like there's no end in sight The thing about me is that I really want to let you Open that door and walk into my life Move in a little closer Take it to a whisper Just a little louder Say it again for me Coz I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm The only one who blows your mind Say it again for me It's like the whole world stops to listen When you tell me you're ...