Still On a Journey

There are many times that things don’t go the way you want it. More storms to come one after the other before you can even catch a breath. Leaving you sitting by the dock, looking at the ocean and its never ending dynamic and just wonder. Will you ever going through it? Will you be fine? Did you do fine? Are you doing the right thing. Or sometimes even question what the hell are you doing. Life has always this funny ways to teach you something. Even when it doesn’t seem like it most of the days. After all the rains and more storms to come. There will maybe a time when you can sit quietly and breath. Keep it steady for a while. Then you realize. Sometimes there’s no conclusion at all. You don’t understand it but something came to an end. And there you are. Just standing and being confused. Didn’t recall when things slipped away. Something you thought was still in your hand, it isn’t. It wasn’t. Then you find the urge to seek for the answers, to talk it out, to have another conversation, desperate hope to fix things and bring it to the old ways. It won’t. Many times, it is just what it is. You’re hurt. Sometimes there’s no point to keep fighting. No point to keep questioning. And you’ll get tired of hanging to something that’s fading away, quick. Sometimes the final words even get meaningless. And it doesn’t give you the relief you’re expecting. And there you are. Picking up yourself and your broken hearts. Again. Trying to patch yourself yo and be fine with it. And waiting till you can see the light in the end of this tunnel. Again.