Pixie's Singing

finally started to watch movies again. so here's the first one. it's a drama romantic funny movie. thing that you would like to remind yourself somehow that there's still something sweet in this world. hehe. the story is about probably everyone's question about turning back time. or forwarding your life. the guy is sweet, as always :D and there's an happy ending of course. the message i got is, again, we don't know what we've got until we lose it. and what we want, is not really what we need. especially when you're so young you don't really know about real life :D

hellow again world :D wel l, it's been a very long break since my last post . since...around 1 month ago my life was ups ide down like roller coaster. i've been living for a round 3 months without my salary, which was promised to come but even i never s ee the shadow. i've been 'fighting' for my way out o f malaysia. i' ve been crying, laughing, being thankful, being hurt , stress to the max. hehehe. i lea rned a lot too.  first of all, for all fresh graduates , please get the black and white contract with your company you're about to join! no matter what they say no matter what circumstances it is. you must have that. easy for you easy for them. and it's your own damn right to have that. 2nd thing, keep your passport with yo u. they may need it to process the working visa, but please ask them to give it back to you whatever it is, soon! no one can a ctually hold your passport even single day. it's cou nt ry's document, unless you, no one can ...

 2011 2012 let's see how far we've come..

didn't i say that i love you?

i remember there's a time my sister said, nothing's wrong. it's just the seed who doesn't match with the soil that it can't grow. it's my relationship.  i knew him one year ago. being friends, became closer, and finally be together. it's wonderful. not always smooth way, it's bumpy and hard, but i never will to give up and just walk away. it's between my feeling and my stubbornness :P we're having great and bad times. fought, love, laugh, cry, mad, anything. and i always thought it will work, somehow. i believe it will work if both of us are trying to make things work. and when both of us are committed on what we have. he's very different than other people. sometimes he's sooooo different that it's hard to understand him. he's human, he has good and bad sides. and i love him anyway. it doesn't mean i never get mad or upset, yes i did, many times. but after the storm, the feeling is still there, with the same willingness ...

"You have to be strong when you don't see me,  or when i'm not here"  I don't wanna be strong when you're not here.  I want you to be here :(

Your kisses and hugs are my favourite things :)

do you know somehow i wish i can always share this road with you with  your ultimate silliness but sharp insight with your unlimited annoyances but beautiful smile and laugh do you know i wish that we always have enough strength to conquer all of our problems all of our differences do you know somehow i wish we are never going to reach the end  i wish you will fight for me more than this and i wish i can always smile for us. you're like a unique metal material in the middle of ribbons don't ask me why, it's the only visual i can get when i'm thinking of you. :)

:) i just reread one writing, made by my favourite enemy. he's a guy. my best but stupid friends. hahaha. known him for.....years. 9 years i guess. he was my biggest enemy when i was in junior high. he's a person who never watched what he said and how he could affect people by his words. and one day we hurt each other so bad, which i still regret till now. but then one day everything changed. one of us apologizing and we start talking like normal people. and somehow we're getting closer and i realize he's not that bastard. hahaha. and somehow, we synchronize each other. still, he was still annoying and sometimes i just wanted to beat him with anything hard. just to make him awake and see what he can do with his words and acts. he's not as bad as the first time i met him, but still, annoying. haha. we're like growing up together, in different place in different circumstance. sometimes we didn't even talk for months just because one of us was getting hurt...

Ola..this is the 2nd series that i finish. hahahah..the story is just adorable! the casts, the jokes, so much fun in the middle of this working life. hahaa..and i'm happy the next season is coming. yeay! :D oh well, no, i watched cashmere mafia also :D that one is great also! different setting and story but the dialog is oh so smart ;) well, i'm still working here in malaysia. sometimes feel i wanna run away. but arghhh not so easy. just did some research about visa and well, hussles. really crave to go to bali, have a pina colada in my hand and watch the sunset. life can't be more beautiful than that, can it? hahahaha :D instead, now i'm here. one of the things that make me alive is my freelance jobs. somehow it's more interesting. hahahaha..i hope everything will just run well. :)

i don't need a parachute, baby if i've got you, you're gonna catch me

Just this afternoon, my colleague asked me a quite interesting question. how do designers work? how do the generate ideas? their artwork is like an expression, how they think, how they see. how do they do it? well, first of all, designers aren't magician or entertainer only. we can't make things outta nowhere to be there in a zap nor we only create fancy things. we do sometimes, when we know why we do it. or just sometimes, the situation asks to do so. designers, mostly, have rationale behind everything they put in the artwork. they have ideas behind it, even the simplest artwork you may see. there's a thought behind that. note : there's a BIG difference between simplicity and laziness. first of all, we do need all the facts before we start dreaming. we do need all the rules before we start breaking it one by one. that's when our common sense plays along. after that we can start dreaming, concepting,generating ideas, all those stuffs. it involves your s...

heyho! it's my current freelance project. Golden Papillon is a new established web developer who focuses on lifestyle business such as restaurants, boutique, retailers, or anything fun! I love the concept and currently helping as a designer :) such an interesting business. it runs in the field that i love. hahaa :D help me like our page at www.facebook.com/goldenpapillon.web ;) 

always in love with this lovely thing :)

I just finished reading this book few days ago. still one of my fave series :D it's the last book for the Kane Chronicles series. Rick Riordan is one of my fave authors as well. as he's one of a very shortlisted authors that i can stand reading the novels on screen :D the story was amazing, also his way of telling the story. the narration is very easy to understand and follow. well done :) the story is still about Sadie and Carter, siblings, in the mission of saving the world from the return of apophis. they're dealing with egyptian gods and history. while also dealing with their natural habit as a teenager. it's happy ending in the end, but it's not one of the cheesy stories that just happily ever after. and from the end part, i think there will be another series for this one :) can't wait!

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And, after a very long pause time not going to cinema, last Monday and Tuesday I took day offs and enjoyed my 'holiday'! yeahhhh waking up at 12 on Monday is such a bliss! hahahaa.. so I went to Mid Valley and went to the theater. this movie has been up for couple weeks. but i never had time to watch, now it's time! The movie is interesting! really well done. i like the plot and all the characters. so interesting. it's basically a love story, in a very rare perspective and projections. it's basically about 1 women who loves a man so deep. that becomes an obsession. but at one point, the man rejected her. and found another girl to love. the woman (Angelique) became so angry and cursed the man to be a vampire, and everyone he loved to die. It was quite a long time ago. The scene moved to the nowadays setting. Same city, different time. Barnabas' family has became poor, comparing to those glory days when they developed the town. And Angelique is still arou...

Hello. after, yes, another long pause. I'm now waiting for my files to be copied properly to my thumb drive. bought it around few days ago because i thought i need it. yes i need, but i need something that has more memory and faster! already used to external harddisk which can work very well and very fast. uhmph! i should buy a new xternal hdd than a thumb drive. but anyway...what's news? working life is just soooooooooooo busy. lotsa pressure, deadlines, people sometimes screaming, sometimes i feel so stupid that can't do any simple task properly, and all the lists go down and down and down and down. but anyway, somehow i still like it. well mostly because i do like what i'm doing. the not so good part is my payment doesn't really come on time. well, it's not a small matter anymore when you're depending on your own, not your parents anymore. bills, rent, daily living costs, everything is waiting for you. and that particular thing can distract your concent...

i watched this movie few days ago..okay last week probably. the story is so standard, 2 bestfriends, one of them wanna get married. the husband is from 'other society' so the bride has a 'new bestfriend' over her long-year bestfriend. conflict happened. their friendship was tested. and..yeah happy ending in the end. but there's something interesting in the middle. when the main character was down, she felt she had lost everything. her bestfriend, job, no boyfriend, etc etc. one of the bridesmaids taught her about life. that it'll always 'annoy' you no matter what. and sometimes, you just gotta fight it back to live. you can't just sit and let it plays you upside down. you're responsible of your own life. so get up and get things done. simple thing, but really, at times it's the hardest thing to be done. to depend on yourself. and believe that this is your life, you're the one who can do it the best, even you're the one who will cau...

just finished watching this one, okay since yesterday. hehee..it's a chick flick youngsters movie, quite nice :) it tells you to be who you are, whatever it is, wherever you come from. and nothing's gonna stop you if you wanna do something good. quite good self value. hehehe..well i watched it because i thought i'll see a lot of great scenes of paris and monte carlo, but not really. i try to google it and anything i see is much more wonderful. hahaa..but at least i'm happy to start watching movie again :)

i am 22 now! okay it's been few days, i'm still happy. :) these 22 years have been soooo amazing for me. ups, downs, storms, suns, everything. thank God for all His blessings, never ending blessings, for all of his angels on earth. life is such a really beautiful gift! :) if i recall my memory again, i have been through different birthday situation. last one i was making some artworks for my colleague while my housemate, my dear friend since college, and my next desk colleague gave me present. last year, i gathered together with my friends at cathy's house at cyberjaya. ate together then danced. while few days from that day we went clubbing and that's the last time i really wanna fed myself up with alcohol. well i still drink, but not that much. hehehe.. 2 last years, i was in kuta, the band sang me happy birthday song while everyone on kuta street clapped their hands for me. amazing feeling. i was in bali, that's my first birthday without bunch of my friends around...

i watched it around last week. hiphiphurrah for torrent. hahaaa..well, it might sound like another love story or whatever. and probably it is. but it's another truth that whoever a girl is, however strong she looks like, she still believes in her own fairy tale. that one day the prince charming will come and make everything beautiful. even in these days. in these crazy days. what i see is it's very real. what the girl feels, i don't know about the guy's feeling, but well it's a simple but refreshing movie for me :) too Hollywood, too cheesy, too girly, all check. but i still like it :D Dylan : Why do women think the only way to get men to do what they want is to manipulate them? Jamie : History, personal experience, romantic comedies.

i didn't give you up so easy i did walk my extra miles for you 3 times don't you think it's enough? i'm not forgetting you i just can't stand to realize you're there before i come back that i can smell your perfume and i can imagine you're sleeping, like a baby i didn't reply you i don't wanna fall for you once again that will cause us another problem i'm picking up myself and walk away not because i don't appreciate you it's because you want to continue your life, changing your direction and i don't wanna be there clinging on you i love you azizam in the way you probably don't understand and you love me, i do believe in the way i probably don't understand also it's not my fault it's not yours as the seed and the ground sometimes it can produce a beautiful tree but sometimes nothing grows it's not the seed's fault, nor the ground's fault they're just not matching one another the seed isn't the seed ...

and here's another movie i watched just few days ago. I am Sam. finally i watch it :D it's a very touching movie about one father who's different and not perfect, but love his daughter perfectly. the government said that he won't be able to raise his daughter alone, because the mother ran away. Sam, the father, has intelligence level the same with 7 years old human. the government took his daughter on her birthday. and Sam has to fight for his daughter to come back to him. it's another great movie about love. how actually human being needs love more than anything in their live. more than money, fame, and any other things. they need love for the most. children especially. without it, there'll be one big hole in their live. that they will probably fill with everything they think can make them happy. but they don't know what they're filling their hole with. usually it's not something good. how imperfect is the father, but he loves his daughter perfectly...

i bought this book when i was in jakarta few months ago. i bought it because of the author's name. i thought that he's very famous and people read his books, a lot. why do i never read any of his book? so i picked it up and read the back cover. and it sounds very interesting. "everyone has their own destiny". so i bought it and just finished reading it. and i can say that it's wonderful. it doesn't speak about one form of religion, but i can see that there are many parts of God that's been talking about inside. how we find Him, how to be close to Him. any religion and belief we're walking to, we're just choosing our path to go back to Him. any road we take. we just wanna go to Him. it tells me that people are looking for a cause why they are here in the world. but as long as they're just looking for it, they seem like forget really doing something on this world. probably the answer is we don't know why we're here. and accept it. believi...

i watched it like a week ago. and it's great in its own way. it tells me that idea never fade, even the man who does it fading, the idea will still be there. in term of getting something revolutionary, it's not the man that's important, it's the idea behind him. it's the thoughts behind everything. and while you're still afraid of dying, you can't make your extra miles. you will just be there, afraid of crossing the line. when you finally not afraid of death, you can just live lively..but in every stage of human's life, even the strangest the man is, there must be love in some of his stories :)

after all i'm just like another girl that afraid of losing someone she loves and even more afraid if he ever finds somebody else to love this is the time when all theories are just like words, with no meaning and what i really care is to see him smile, and knowing the reason behind it is me.

Building your image without filling up the inside is like playing fake in your own life.

you always have a choose. to be happy or not. sounds like a very simple sentence, quite arrogant probably. we sometimes feel we're in 1 situation that can't get happy. or it's impossible to be happy because of the situation. because it's bad, because it's uncomfortable, because it's not like what we wish or hope. how can i be happy if people don't understand me, doesn't admit who i am, judge me, or whatever other bad situations. i don't say that it's wrong. because that's human do. many people think and do such a thing. but somehow i realize that that simple thing, is somehow correct. you won't be able to always be happy, if you depend your happiness to other people. happiness comes from within. from God and us. it doesn't come from other people or our circumstances. it comes from heart, that goes to your mind. easy? no. because we are used to bad situation that we can blame. we are used to have people to be blamed in whatever happens...

Flying High Wawan Yap Lyrics with MP3

this is one of the most amazing books i've ever read. even if it's more intended to married couple, but i have gained a lot of useful information from this book. people usually have 5 languages to express their love : quality time, words of affirmation, gifts, acts of service, and physical touch. every people may have their preferred love language to express their feeling. and usually, a couple may have different love language one to another. well, it's probably a simple thing, but i never know it before. and it's really helpful. after being in a relationship with a person, usually we have fights and a lot of problems. that's something we can't skip in having a relationship with someone. but in the side of loving, there's a way to make it still blooms like in the beginning. just like having a car, if we always use it but never fill the tank, it will go nowhere. same thing like having a relationship with someone, if we don't fill their love tank, first it...

"i won't give up on us, even if the sky gets rough"

"Some say, I'll be better without you, but they don't know you like I do. Or at least the side I thought I knew"

Two of the hardest tests in life: The patience to wait for the right moment and the courage to accept that you've waited for nothing.

i'm dancing in the middle of the mist and running in the middle of teardrops of the sky i'm looking around and see the cloud i'm looking around and see the ground i'm slow dancing in the middle of the lake i'm daydreaming in the middle of the tree

so it was my brother's wedding on the 1st day of 2012! was a tiring but also exciting day :) i wish him a great full of love live until the last day of his journey :) and also the same wish for the bride :) have a happy life everyone! :)